I've been trying for an hour now and I'm so desperate to cum my pussy juices thickly coat my inner thighs and there's evidence of my pleasuring on the sheets. I only have 20 minutes until I have to leave for my appointment so I give it all I've got. I'm pounding as hard as I can, on all fours, rocking my hips for extra stimulation. I try rereading Daddy's messages from the previous day where I cummed on command and that was the closest I was able to get to cumming, I felt my pussy begin to clench and then it just stopped. My brain ruining the fun again by reminding me that was yesterday and Daddy still hasn't given clear permission to cum, only permission to play. I notice the time and shout fuck sake before removing my vibrator and admitting defeat, I have to go out now and I will not be able to cum.
I went to my appointment and then about an hour later when I was almost home Daddy's replies with 'Aww what's up, can't you cum little one?' I replied telling him I couldn't cum because I didn't feel like I had permission and he told me that that's not a bad thing. I disagree, I have a high sex drive and Daddy gets very busy with work, I need to be able to cum when he's busy but I can already tell it's not going to happen. Daddy punished me for doing so without him permission and it worked. I understand that my pleasure belongs to him and only he decides if I'm allowed to cum. So I'll have to deal with it when he's too busy to respond to my requests to cum. I'll have to be a good girl for Daddy and wait.
Unfortunately for me by the time I did get home and could've cummed, I accidentally pissed Daddy off and knew better than to ask, because that would only piss him off more and he would've told me no because I didn't deserve to cum anymore. So I'm still frustrated, I'm still a desperate whore who needs to cum so badly its consuming most of my thoughts and I feel another pleasure ban coming my way to deal with my poor behaviour so chances are I won't be relieving myself anytime soon.
I think Daddy is pleased that I learnt this particular lesson. He wants for me to always cum on command and I feel like I'm certainly making progress with that now I can't cum without his clear and explicit permission. If I could just stop making silly mistakes with the rest of the rules I think Daddy would be much happier with me, and then we could have more fun instead of there always needing to be a punishment or reprimand but it's still early days and we have found one punishment that does work so we are making some progress.