I should not have been surprised that my husband had been keeping secrets from me. After all, we all have our secrets. What angered and amazed me was that he had a secret fantasy life about which I knew nothing. Not a clue! As a lady who has always been open and honest, The thought that Jason could keep such a thing from his very own wife shook my world. But the changes in our lives since I found out have been nothing but positive, and I have found something in me that I never suspected was there.
My name is Alexis Santavi. My husband and I have been married for 7 years, and we have no children due to a fertility disorder. Our story is similar to many; we met at a bar, were attracted to each other, we dated, and eventually wed. We have an active social life with our big families and lots of friends. Not being encumbered by family responsibilities has freed us both financially and socially.
Jason doesn't have any really bad habits. His greatest vice is his weekly cigar, and he drinks only socially. I could honestly say we were good for each other and were happy.
Our sex life was always decent, but rather vanilla-like. Nothing too adventurous, although I would have been willing to try just about anything. Jason seemed a bit shy about sex, even after we had been married, and he never seemed to want to push any envelopes. I was okay with that, but I often wondered what else was out there.
One day while Jason was out playing softball with the guys, I was doing the monthly bills. I was looking for an electric bill, but I couldn't find it. Knowing that Jason had electronic copies of the bills on his computer, I went upstairs to look for this one. I assumed that there would be a folder called "Bills" or something similar, but I couldn't find anything obvious. I saw an icon called "Jason's files" and clicked on it. There were so many folders and subfolders that I was ready to just give up. I then noticed a folder titled "SF/BD" and wondered what it could be.
I clicked on the folder and my life changed.
There were hundreds of subfolders inside and, as I opened them and looked at some of the files inside, I was astonished, to say the least. Jason, apparently, was a fetishist, as well as an aficionado of some rather esoteric sexual practices. I spent the next 2 hours, spellbound, as I looked through hundreds of pictures, videos, and stories.
"Why didn't he tell me?" I wondered. I would have to confront him, being very angry. I also felt that Jason had broken his trust with me. After all, I loved him. Couldn't he have trusted me enough to share this with me? I shared everything with him, and I now felt totally betrayed. "When he gets home," I thought, he will have hell to pay.
A couple of hours later, Jason returned. He and the guys had stopped at the bar for a few beers after the game.
"Hello, honey. What's for dinner tonight? I'm going up for a shower and then a nap before we eat. How was your afternoon?"
I was ready to scream, but an idea took hold in my mind.
"We'll have chicken cacciatore tonight, love. Go take your shower."
"Thanks, Alexis. You're the best."
The idea that I had was to not confront Jason immediately, but to spring something on him when he least would suspect it. I had to have a plan and take my time executing it. Smiling, the thought occurred to me that this just might be fun.
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Several weeks later, I went on a little shopping spree. I had done my research on the Internet and I was ready to put my plan into action. I stopped at an adult store and, though a bit embarrassed, bought my chosen accoutrements. On the way home, I stopped at the local tobacconist and bought a box of Arturo Fuente Opus X's, Jason's favorite cigars. I would spring my plan the next day.
After a night of restless sleep, I woke up, had my breakfast and bid goodbye to Jason, who was leaving for work.
"See you tonight, Alexis."
"Bye love. Save some energy for tonight--I have something special planned."
"What is it?" he asked.