It's a wonderful life.
I don't know how I've come to be here or how long I've been here. I don't know who I am or that I was anything other than what I am now. I have no knowledge of anything before here or of anything outside of here, except for him.
I remember awaking here for the first time and feeling frightened when I became aware of the state I was in because it didn't feel right at first. I was bound up tightly and strapped down immovably on a kind of bed-platform. I was bridled, muzzled and masked. A dildo, suspended from a cradle spanning my pelvis, was inserted in my vagina. Tubes were also inserted in my rectum and my urethra. Another tube was attached to a small valve surgically implanted in my abdomen. Another tube was attached to the clear plastic facemask fixed over my nose and my gag. Electrodes were stuck in various places on my body attached to wires leading to a computerised control centre. Another cable was linked to the dildo. Another cable was attached to a small terminal implanted in the base of my spine
I could have screamed but what would have been the point? My mouth was so firmly gagged and my jaws were so firmly clamped by my bridle that I could only make the most feeble of whimpering and mewling sounds when I tried. And as far as I knew there was no one or nothing else to hear. So I rested, quiet and still, and then I saw him. He appeared on the monitor hanging down from the ceiling. I could only see him in shadowed silhouette and his pixellated image shimmered as he moved. A speech synthesiser altered his voice and it sounded low and gentle and reassuring, which calmed me and dispelled my early fears.
He explained that although we would remain physically separate we would be intimately joined through all the digital technology to which I was attached and which would observe and monitor me constantly. He explained that he was also permanently in contact with the control centre and that, not only did it enable him to see me and hear me at all times, it also enabled him to feel in his own body everything that I felt in mine and to dream my dreams with me, so that from now on he and I would be virtually the same person.
He explained that the tube in my rectum collected my solid waste as it came down my colon but, because I was fed on liquid food pumped directly into my stomach through the valve in my abdomen, I was only producing just enough waste to keep my colon active and healthy. He explained that I had been fitted with a catheter and I was breathing filtered air through my facemask, through which I could also drink purified water through a tube that ran through my gag.
The gag is made of a kind of spongy rubbery material and is designed to mould itself to my lips and seal them, while the other part inserted in my mouth fixes my tongue to the floor of my mouth. My gag is attached to a bridle, which fits closely but comfortably around my head and which clamps my jaws firmly together. It consists of straps made of a kind of plastic material that is soft and comfortable but also strong. The electrodes carry information about all my vital signs to the control centre while the device in my spine communicates all the sense impressions that my body feels.
The bed-platform on which I lie is made of material that moulds itself to my body but allows my skin to breathe. It has a separate bit for each of my legs and a headrest to which my head is fixed through connecting points on my bridle. The straps confining me to the bed are made of a woven material that does not hurt me or damage me even when pulled tight enough to prevent any movement. The straps go around my ankles, my legs just below and above my knees, my thighs and my waste. An upper harness secures my shoulders and my upper body below and above my breasts. My arms are fixed underneath the bed, which only extends slightly outwards from my body on each side, with my wrists brought together behind my back. The bed is articulated and is constantly slowly changing the position in which I lie. Sometimes I lie flat and sometimes inclined, sometimes with my legs straight and sometimes bent, sometimes together and sometimes spread apart. Sometimes I am brought up into an almost sitting position. It's good to have that variety.
He explained that in return for me becoming completely his to the extent that I became part of him, he would take complete and perfect care of me. I would exist in a perfect environment inside the room I was in and all of my body's needs would be taken care of without me having to do or even think about them. Which, he explained, was why I would have to be kept immobile for much of the time. He explained that I would be given liberty of movement at regular intervals and carry out activities specially designed for me to keep my body and mind in the best possible condition. They would also be very pleasurable for me and he would be able to completely share my pleasure with me.