Irena was cold. She was so cold that she felt as if her bones had been glazed in ice. She stumbled and almost fell into a ditch on the side of the road, but managed to steady herself in time. Her jeans were soaking wet to the knees with slush and her shoes squelched with every step she took. She had been so stupid. She could be in the limo with Soto right now, speeding through the countryside back towards his estate. Instead she had decided to argue with him. She had wanted to stay at school for winter break, to party with some of her friends. He had said no, she was going to come home with him right then and there. He missed her. He had caressed her thigh then, sending shivers up and down her body. That had just made her angrier. In the months that they had been apart she had begun telling herself that he had too much of a hold on her. Nonetheless, he had coaxed her into the limo. A part of her had even wanted to go.
They had passed the first couple hours of the ride in silence but then he had said, "I think it would be better if you don't return to this university next semester."
Irena felt as if someone had slapped her. "What?"
"Your grades have been suffering. And I don't like the sound of those people you hang around with now."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"It means that if you spent less time drinking and smoking weed with those friends of yours, you would actually be living up to your potential in your classes. You've been on the Dean's list two semesters in a row and now you're failing half of your classes."
Irena blushed. It was true. She was failing some of her classes, geology and comparative economics, but she didn't even care about those. And yes, she did spend a lot of time now smoking and drinking, but that was just part of life. School wasn't the only important thing. She had never had real friends before and the chance to stay with them over winter break had been keeping her going all through the hell of exam week. Now exams were over, she was exhausted and cranky at having to go back with Soto, and on top of that he had the nerve to tell her that she couldn't come back to school.
"Why can't you let me live my own life? You don't own me."
Soto raised an eyebrow at her. "Really? You don't happen to remember that paperwork your father signed over to me do you?"
"You can't own another human being. It's sick!"
"I seem remember that you enjoyed being owned by me quite a lot, once upon a time." His voice had not risen, if anything, it had grown quieter, but Irena could tell that he was starting to get angry. She had grown adept at reading his body and voice during the times they had been together. She had only seen him truly angry a few times. One of those occasions had been when he had caught her going through his private papers, searching for the documents which bound her to him. He had said nothing then, simply grabbed her roughly by the arm and thrown her out of the office. She hadn't seen him at all for three days and then one night she had woken up to find him kneeling over her in her own bed, the one she slept in when she didn't share Soto's. She had drawn breath to scream, but he had covered her mouth with his hand. Then he had ripped off her nightgown. Soto was a master at the arts of pain, but he was almost always a considerate lover. Not on this occasion. He had drawn her across his lap and begun to spank her hard. He usually stopped when her cries grew frantic, but this time he didn't stop until Irena was sobbing, her breathing frantic and her buttocks and thighs purple with welts and bruises. Then he had fucked her, not nicely, not tenderly. He had ravaged her, bringing her to two thundering climaxes before spending himself violently inside of her. He had collapsed on top of her for a moment, breathing hard, and then he had left. She hadn't seen him for another two days, but then there he was at dinner again, talking to her as if nothing untoward had happened. He hadn't made love to her for another week, and Irena had been glad of that because it took about that long for her to be able to sit down without wincing. The tone Soto was beginning to acquire now was the same one he had used to her that night he had surprised her in bed.
"I just don't think you should push me around like I'm a little kid. I'm twenty years old now, remember?" She couldn't look at him, so she stared out the window.
"Yes, and still remarkably like a child in some ways." He sounded amused, condescending. It infuriated her.
"You know what, fuck you!"
"There's no call for language." His voice had gotten even quieter.
"I'm not going to let you take me out of this school."
"You can't stop me, Irena. I'm the one paying the bills."
"You're just like my father!"
He snorted. "Hardly."
She hated the smug derision in his tone even more than his condescension. She began tapping on the barrier between the front and back of the limo. "Pull over," she said to the driver. "Pull over, I'm going to be sick." Soto made move to stop her. They were on an abandoned stretch of road, so the driver just pulled off onto the shoulder. Irena burst out of the car, but she did not get sick. What she did was say, "Ok this is it. I'm not getting back into that car."
Soto looked blank, then amused. "Stop being childish, Irena."
"I'm not going back with you."
"Yes you are."
"You're going to have to come out here and physically force me back into that limo, Antonio. Do you want to make me your prisoner again?" Soto's face bore no expression whatsoever. "No Irena, I don't want a prisoner. I want my slave." He caressed those last few words with his voice, and just hearing them sent a throb of desire through her. She ignored it.
"Well I'm not going to be that anymore either. Drive away. I'll find somewhere to go. Someone will give me a ride."
"Fine," Soto said, and shut his door. Irena looked at him, a bit taken aback. She hadn't been expecting him to back down so easily. He rolled down his window and said, "I'm going to keep driving. When you get tired of walking, give me a call on my cell phone and I'll come back to get you." He gave her a look then that made her stomach clench. "We are going to have a very long discussion about his when we get home, Irena."
She felt herself go bright red. "Fuck you," she said. He rolled up the window and a moment later the car sped off, leaving her standing alone on the road. She started walking in the opposite direction of the limo thinking that she would somehow find her way back to school. She'd had a vague idea of walking to the nearest town and using the money she had in her wallet (about sixty dollars) to get a bus ticket back to campus, but then she had passed a road sign and discovered that the nearest town was twenty miles away. She had almost taken out her cell phone and called Soto then, but her pride hadn't let her. She had kept walking and the cold had set about finding its way into her bones.
She hadn't seen a car until about half an hour later, and although she knew that what she was about to do was incredibly stupid, she stuck out her thumb in the hitchhiking gesture. The car passed her without slowing. The next five cars had done the same. Now, two hours later with night starting to come on, she barely even bothered to glance at the car which she could hear coming up behind her in the distance. What made her turn around was the sound of the car first slowing down so that it cruised along beside her at walking pace. The driver rolled down his window and said, "Good evening young lady. What in the world are you doing walking down the side of the road on a night like this?"
"I had a fight with my boyfriend," she said, greatly simplifying her relationship with Soto. "I told him to stop the car and I got out." She bit her lip. She was already beginning to feel quite stupid about her decision to storm out on Soto. What exactly had been going through her head? She should have talked to him rationally, not thrown a temper tantrum like a spoiled toddler.
"I see," the driver said, his voice giving nothing away. Irena looked at him carefully. He seemed harmless enough, an elderly man with wispy grey hair that floated around his bald head like dandelion fluff. He looked rather frail and Irena was pretty sure that if it came down to a fight she would at least be strong enough to incapacitate him long enough for her to make an escape. "Well, I can't stand to see a girl as young as you all alone on the side of the road. Hop in and I'll give you a ride to town." He smiled at her and she could tell that he wore dentures. He reminded her of her grandfather a little. This was probably going to be the best ride she could hope for if she didn't want to call Soto and beg him to come pick her up.
Irena walked around to the car's passenger side door and opened it. She looked inside the car before getting in, and seeing no weapons, drugs, or other warning signs, she slipped in to the heated interior. "Thank you so much," she said, holding her numbed hands out to the car's heating vents. "I don't know what I would have--" That was as far as she got before a damp cloth was clapped over her nose and mouth. A horrible acrid smell invaded her nostrils. She had time to think, looks like I fucked up big this time, before she was dragged down deep into chemical darkness.
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In the limo, Soto tried to read his newspaper but he wasn't having much success. Why had he allowed Irena to storm off like that? He should have dragged her back into the limo rather than allowing her to wander off on her own like that. He should have kept his temper and punished her in the safety of his playroom rather than allowing her to learn her lesson by wondering down a freezing road in the middle of the night. He had instructed Frank, his driver, to pull off of the road at a rest stop a couple miles from where Irena had left him. He had decided that they would wait there until he received a call from Irena asking him to come and pick her up. There was no way she would be able to make it all the way to the nearest town on her own and he was certain that she wasn't stupid enough to try and hitchhike.
However, two hours had passed and he still hadn't heard for her. Enough was enough. It was time for Irena to swallow her pride and come home. He pushed the button that allowed him to communicate to the driver. "Frank, let's get out of here and pick up Irena. I'll drag that girl back into this car if I have to."