Irena was cold. She was so cold that she felt as if her bones had been glazed in ice. She stumbled and almost fell into a ditch on the side of the road, but managed to steady herself in time. Her jeans were soaking wet to the knees with slush and her shoes squelched with every step she took. She had been so stupid. She could be in the limo with Soto right now, speeding through the countryside back towards his estate. Instead she had decided to argue with him. She had wanted to stay at school for winter break, to party with some of her friends. He had said no, she was going to come home with him right then and there. He missed her. He had caressed her thigh then, sending shivers up and down her body. That had just made her angrier. In the months that they had been apart she had begun telling herself that he had too much of a hold on her. Nonetheless, he had coaxed her into the limo. A part of her had even wanted to go.
They had passed the first couple hours of the ride in silence but then he had said, "I think it would be better if you don't return to this university next semester."
Irena felt as if someone had slapped her. "What?"
"Your grades have been suffering. And I don't like the sound of those people you hang around with now."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"It means that if you spent less time drinking and smoking weed with those friends of yours, you would actually be living up to your potential in your classes. You've been on the Dean's list two semesters in a row and now you're failing half of your classes."
Irena blushed. It was true. She was failing some of her classes, geology and comparative economics, but she didn't even care about those. And yes, she did spend a lot of time now smoking and drinking, but that was just part of life. School wasn't the only important thing. She had never had real friends before and the chance to stay with them over winter break had been keeping her going all through the hell of exam week. Now exams were over, she was exhausted and cranky at having to go back with Soto, and on top of that he had the nerve to tell her that she couldn't come back to school.
"Why can't you let me live my own life? You don't own me."
Soto raised an eyebrow at her. "Really? You don't happen to remember that paperwork your father signed over to me do you?"
"You can't own another human being. It's sick!"
"I seem remember that you enjoyed being owned by me quite a lot, once upon a time." His voice had not risen, if anything, it had grown quieter, but Irena could tell that he was starting to get angry. She had grown adept at reading his body and voice during the times they had been together. She had only seen him truly angry a few times. One of those occasions had been when he had caught her going through his private papers, searching for the documents which bound her to him. He had said nothing then, simply grabbed her roughly by the arm and thrown her out of the office. She hadn't seen him at all for three days and then one night she had woken up to find him kneeling over her in her own bed, the one she slept in when she didn't share Soto's. She had drawn breath to scream, but he had covered her mouth with his hand. Then he had ripped off her nightgown. Soto was a master at the arts of pain, but he was almost always a considerate lover. Not on this occasion. He had drawn her across his lap and begun to spank her hard. He usually stopped when her cries grew frantic, but this time he didn't stop until Irena was sobbing, her breathing frantic and her buttocks and thighs purple with welts and bruises. Then he had fucked her, not nicely, not tenderly. He had ravaged her, bringing her to two thundering climaxes before spending himself violently inside of her. He had collapsed on top of her for a moment, breathing hard, and then he had left. She hadn't seen him for another two days, but then there he was at dinner again, talking to her as if nothing untoward had happened. He hadn't made love to her for another week, and Irena had been glad of that because it took about that long for her to be able to sit down without wincing. The tone Soto was beginning to acquire now was the same one he had used to her that night he had surprised her in bed.
"I just don't think you should push me around like I'm a little kid. I'm twenty years old now, remember?" She couldn't look at him, so she stared out the window.
"Yes, and still remarkably like a child in some ways." He sounded amused, condescending. It infuriated her.
"You know what, fuck you!"
"There's no call for language." His voice had gotten even quieter.
"I'm not going to let you take me out of this school."
"You can't stop me, Irena. I'm the one paying the bills."
"You're just like my father!"
He snorted. "Hardly."
She hated the smug derision in his tone even more than his condescension. She began tapping on the barrier between the front and back of the limo. "Pull over," she said to the driver. "Pull over, I'm going to be sick." Soto made move to stop her. They were on an abandoned stretch of road, so the driver just pulled off onto the shoulder. Irena burst out of the car, but she did not get sick. What she did was say, "Ok this is it. I'm not getting back into that car."
Soto looked blank, then amused. "Stop being childish, Irena."
"I'm not going back with you."