Sleep will be a long time coming tonight. Shaking hands cause me to fumble as I unlock the patio doors beside my bed. I peer into the darkness of my fenced backyard and I wonder if you might be out there already, watching my house to make sure you remain the only danger I face tonight.
You gave me a bedtime hour, but you didn't say what I had to wear. I'm a smart girl so I've got on a pair of pajama pants with a drawstring waist which I have tied in knots that would require patience and time to undo. I just hope I don't have to pee anytime soon or I'll regret this strategy.
For a top, I wear only a tight tee shirt. I'd considered wearing a bra but I want there to be nothing you could use to bind me. There are only two things in the bedside table and, if I can hold you off for twenty minutes, I win and you won't use them on me. That is our game.
I put away the self-defense books I've been reading all week and I climb into bed. Hyper-alert, I revisit the years we've spent together at a distance and I know this way is actually the easier for me to finally meet you face to face. We know we want each other and neither of us wishes to deal with the usual awkwardness of a first meeting. We chose this way instead.
I wake when the bed shifts under your weight and my lips part to scream just as your hand covers my mouth. My wide eyes expected to see the handsome face from the webcam, but instead I see only your unmistakable eyes behind a black balaclava. This is enough to stun me and we breathe loudly for what seems like a long time, staring at each other in wonder.
And then my teeth sink into your hand, and you're cussing as I try to kick you between the legs. We agreed this would be a real fight and I don't want what is waiting for me in the nightstand if I lose.
I sit up, pushing at you, but you're so much bigger than I am. I swing at you and, even though I do it like the book said and I hear you grunt in pain, I wince because I hurt my hand.
You make me scream when you've had enough and I realize you were just playing with me up until then. My scalp stings as you use my hair like a leash, forcing me to the mattress so you can pin my bucking body with yours. Fuck. I'm so turned on.
I can see the timer you stealthily set on my dresser when you crept in. Ten minutes. I'm halfway there, but you're reaching between us to untie my pajama pants so you can pull them down. I can hear your frustration as you struggle with the drawstring knots and I start to giggle smugly. Gotcha.