Chapter Twelve
As Peter walked her home Jane told him the whole story of the Invisible Girl, and how she'd felt seen for the first time when he'd spotted her in the coatroom that night. How, even though she'd been terrified when he'd come into the girls' bathroom and made her his slave, she'd also been thrilled by it because he really seemed to see her. How she'd been becoming more and more visible to other people. How she'd been doing better when reading in front of a class. "Though of course now I'm always going to imagine I'm in my underwear," she'd added with a grin. How she'd started talking to some of her old friends. How she'd been invited to a slumber party the coming weekend.
His grin got wider and wider as she talked. "You're telling me that you're less shy with people because I make you take your clothes off? That's the craziest thing I ever heard."
"But it's true, Peter! I don't know why, exactly, but..." She thought for a while. "You've
seen
me—you know who I really am better than anyone, and... and...you..." She looked down, then back over at him. "And you...still like me."
He nodded, his face serious. "You know I do." They walked on for a moment, and then he added, "More than anyone I've ever known." More silence. Then: "Because you see me, too. And you still like me."
She nodded. "But what I'm trying to say is that...because of you...I'm not as
afraid
of being seen by anybody else."
He gave her a one-armed hug then, and kissed her. Then he asked, "So...you gonna be okay with a bunch of girls, you think?"
She shrugged. "I don't know. I guess so. I don't even know who else is coming. But I guess it'll be okay. At least two of them are friends, so I'll have people to talk to."
"You gonna tell them about us? I mean, you know they're gonna spend a lot of time talking about boyfriends and stuff."
She snorted, and said, as if speaking to someone else, "Oh, my boyfriend? We met in the girls' bathroom at school. It was so romantic."
She grinned at him. "I think we'll just let that stay invisible for now..."
----------------------------------------------------
It was the wine that started it all.
After Suzy's parents had said good night and retreated upstairs, leaving the eight girls in command of the lower floor, Sarah had promptly unrolled her sleeping bag and brandished the bottle that had been smuggled in with it, smiling proudly.
"My parents have cartons of it, they'll never miss it."
Most of the girls started to cheer and reach for the paper cups Suzy's parents had supplied to accompany the soda and snacks, but then there was an awkward moment when everyone glanced at the girl sitting on the couch, unsure of what to do.
The girl's name was Chrissy Hurlin, and Jane only knew two things about her: that she had graduated last year from the local Catholic high school, and that her father was the town police chief.
She hadn't exactly been invited to the party: it was one of those situations where Suzy's parents knew Chrissy's parents and
they
had decided it would be nice to include her. Everyone had been at pains to include her in the general conversation, but no one really knew her.
She should have been popular on the basis of her looks alone; she was tall and slim, with long wavy brown hair, huge brown eyes and a sweet smile.
But there was something off-putting about her as well. She was always dressed, as one girl had described it, "Like she's going to church instead of school." When she had first appeared many of the boys, attracted by her beauty, had tried to date her, without success.
Suzy had whispered to Jane that some of the boys called her 'Prissy Chrissy' or 'Chris the Priss', because of the way she dressed, and because of the way she had looked at them when they asked her out, as if she'd had no idea what they were talking about. She had always smiled, thanked them politely and changed the subject, or moved along.
There was always an inward quality about her that suggested her mind was elsewhere, even when she was speaking directly to you. Suzy had wondered if maybe she was planning to become a nun.
So she was an unknown factor, especially at a moment like this. How would the churchy police chief's daughter react to the contraband wine?
To everyone's relief she simply continued talking to the girl on her left about the choir group she sang with, as if she hadn't noticed a thing. Maybe she hadn't, it was hard to tell. But at any rate, the first round of wine was distributed to those who were interested. Even the girl Chrissy was talking with, after a moment of hesitation, accepted a cup. Chrissy herself, of course, showed no interest, or even awareness.
Jane also accepted a cup, more out of curiosity than any real desire. There was no longer any liquor in her house, so this was simply an opportunity to experiment and be sociable.
She had actually been having a pretty good time, so far. At first she had stuck close to Suzy and Lucia, her two friends from before, but everyone had seemed friendly enough. And the conversation had so far stayed very light, if a little loud in order to be heard over the record-player: Teachers and classes, clothing and hair, TV and music and movies.
She took a sip of her wine. Wrinkled her nose. Made herself drink a little more.
Lucia had casually gathered Jane's hair into a loose braid as they talked, and now was wondering aloud how Jane would look with her hair, not
shorter
, exactly, but shaped a bit more around her face. She pulled out a pile of Suzy's fashion magazines and paged through a number of them until she saw a picture that showed more or less what she'd meant, and showed it to Jane.
One of the other girls plucked it out of her hand, held it next to Jane's face, and said, "Ooo, Jane—this would look
great
on you. Two other girls sitting nearby interrupted their conversation long enough to glance over and nod agreement, one saying, "Yeah. Do it, Jane."
Jane took another gulp of wine. The hairstyle did look very nice on the model, and it was certainly much more sophisticated than what she had. But it would mean giving up her bangs—she wasn't sure she was ready to be that visible all the time. She was suddenly overpowered by the memory of scissors, drunkenly wielded by her father. Of walking through the school hallways trying to keep her head down so no one could see.
But then she heard Lucia say, "I've got an appointment on Tuesday after school. I'll call and see if they can take you at the same time, okay? Hey Suzy, can I tear out this page?"
Suzy said sure, and Lucia ripped it out. "We'll bring it along so you can show them what you want." Then she saw the doubt on Jane's face and said, "Do you want to think about it? You could take this picture home..."
Jane drained her cup, smiled bravely at Lucia and said, "No, let's try it. I mean, I can always grow it back, right?"
There was just the one bottle of wine but, truth be told, none of them were experienced drinkers, so even a couple of cups each among the five who were drinking was enough to loosen tongues and inhibitions somewhat. Laughter became louder and secrets were shared. Even the non-drinkers seemed to absorb the mood by osmosis.
Except for Chrissy, of course, who seemed unchanged. Pleasantly not quite there. When the conversation came around to boys she simply listened with the same quizzical look she must have had when she was being asked out.
Sarah was complaining about her boyfriend. "Chuck is always trying to put his tongue in my ear." This was greeted by a general chorus of "Ewww..." and laughter. "He must have read somewhere that it's sexy, I guess. Yuck!"
This led to a general discussion of boys as sex-crazed monsters. One said that a boy had tried to feel her up on their first date. Another complained that her boyfriend kept trying to put her hand on his you-know-what while they were kissing.
The conversation grew in pitch and hilarity, each one trying to top the next, and Jane, thinking somewhat giddily that she should make a contribution, suddenly blurted out, "My boyfriend likes to spank me!"
Unfortunately this exclamation occurred at one of those unpredictable moments when everything has momentarily gone quiet. And of course after that everything became
extremely
quiet.