My knuckles were tight on the steering wheel and my heart was pounding so hard I thought it was going to burst out of my chest.
Breathe girl, you're gonna be fine...This wasn't going to be like when you jumped up on the St Andrew's Cross at the hotel party. This time the person administering the pain will know what he is doing.
That thought was both scary and exhilarating as I climbed up the steps to the hotel room. I knocked on the door and waited. Slowly the door opened and a voice beckoned from the darkness.
"Take three steps into the room and close your eyes."
I took a deep breath and crossed the threshold and into the darkness.
One, step...chills ran down my spine.
Two, step...the slice of light from the doorway disappears.
Three, step...I shut my eyes tight and stop.
***
With my eyes shut tight, I opened my other senses to the room. I could hear him in the dark, his shoes softly scuffling across the rug as he crossed the room. He didn't stop next to me but continued on. There was a slight scent of musk and leather in the room.
I felt his presence before I heard his voice, "I'm right next to you and putting a blindfold in your hand. By putting this on you are agreeing to do what I say. You will not speak unless directly spoken to. This will be an intense session but you must trust that I will do nothing to permanently cause you harm. This will be a journey of pain and pleasure but if at any time you feel it is too much or you cannot go on you will utter the safe word. Do you agree to this?"
I took the blindfold and put it on. "Yes, I agree."
"Good, now what is your safeword?"
I thought for a moment and said with a smile, "Kenshu." And then turned myself over to him.
***
He leaned in and caressed my neck with his hot breath. I could hear the smile in his voice when he said, "I'm so pleased that you have decided to give yourself over to me. Now, strip for me."