Sometimes I just need to let it out of me.
It is the beast in me: the mongrel, the dog, the wolf. It is the monster that roams behind me at all times, seeking what it may devour. Freud would call it the Id - that primitive portion of the brain that cannot think beyond the needs to eat, sleep, and fuck. The beast does not have patience for planning ahead or forethought - it wants what it wants, and it wants it at that exact moment, not a second later. When the beast has to wait, even for a few moments, it scratches and claws around at the walls inside my head until eventually it must be let out to do its business.
The beast is there when I open the door and see Babydoll reclining across the bed, sporting nothing more substantial than her lounging around panties and one of my t-shirts, hair tied up as she snacks on something or other and watches TV.
The beast eyes her like meat. And the beast is always hungry.
Babydoll says I give her a certain look when I'm in no mood for games - when my patience is exhausted and I am in no mood to let her be cute. She knows that look when Daddy is done and the beast is in the driver's seat.
She loves that look.
She tries to get up the moment she sees that look in my eyes, to greet me properly, only to have me grab her ankles before she can scurry off the bed and drag her to the edge of it. I slap her ass and growl, a wordless command not to move until given express permission.