this was originally written a while ago as the start of an e-mail play between myself and someone who never directly responded. Therefore, it looks like it is the first part of multiple; and I might be encouraged to make it so; depending on feedback, so let me know.
City of Heroes is a well-known online game which is copyrighted by its owners. No infringement intended by its mention.
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I look down at the piece of paper with an address in my hand. I'm really nervous. I'm coming to meet you, but I've never met you in person or seen what you look like. More nerve-racking, you've done neither for me. You know I am in a wheelchair but that is all. I'm afraid you'll walk away once you actually see me and what little I can do, unless one of your fetishes happen to be the adult baby variety. I try to cheer myself up. I can actually do quite a lot if one is patient enough to work with me. But I've not met a person like that yet. And I somehow don't think you will be one, because you already told me that you are not really into the tender love stuff when it comes to play.
So what is going to happen to me? I start to admit to myself to being more excited than scared. The submissive part of BDSM scares me more than a little, because I am an abuse survivor. But I know there are ways to be submissive that don't necessarily involve whips and chains being applied to you. And I also want to take back all of the things that happened to me and turn them into something good. So I have opened up to the idea. What intrigues me more though is the master side. I have never been in control of my body, let alone anybody else's. Having someone else restrained like my body is all the time and letting me do what ever I wish however long it takes me is a scenario that has invaded my fantasies since I came to know you on the Web.
The address that matches the paper turns out to be what looks like a small abandoned warehouse. Confused, I look for another place. But there isn't any, so I roll towards what looks like a door and push a button beside it to open it.
Suddenly, just inside the door, I have nothing under me anymore. My chair is gone, and I'm falling. In a blink, the fall stops, and I'm standing on my legs. Standing?! And not tired. I try a step, and discover I can walk. Further inside the room, there is a mirror. I look at it.
Staring back at me is Phoenix girl. I am too shocked at the mere fact that I can walk to be too surprised at this. Phoenix Girl is my first character inside the game called city of heroes. I have turned into her exact replica. Orange hair like fire, matching tights and boots and the bird for which she is named emblazoned on her chest, which is otherwise naked except for metallic accents covering her sides and her breasts artistically. My breasts. The reflection lifts up her hands to cradle them and I can feel the results. Not only is my body nondisabled, I am a superheroine! My wheelchair is nowhere to be seen.
But I quickly lose the surprising newness of my body, like it has been mine for always. So I don't run wildly, like I have always thought I would if a miracle happened for me. I don't even want to. What do I want?