Kneeling on the floor naked, I am intensely aware of everything around me. Every sound, every smell seems magnified. I can hear my own breath and feel my heart pounding in my chest. My mouth is dry and my palms feel clammy. I hear you move across the room towards me and instinctively I lift my head, my eyes meeting your gaze.
“Did I tell you to look at me?”
Your voice is level and its tone is enquiring more than annoyed. I lower my eyes, feeling a shiver of apprehension race up my spine as I whisper, “Sorry Master. I forgot myself, please forgive me.”
“Forgiveness is not an option here,” you say as your fingers twist into the silk of my hair. “You broke the rules and you must learn that is not acceptable.
“You are my slave and as such I expect total obedience.” You pause, almost for effect before saying, “So what do you think should happen now?”
Nervously I lick my lips knowing that the moment I have been anticipating is near. My voice quivers slightly as I speak, “You must punish me master. In whatever way you see fit.”
“Indeed I must punish you and I intend to do so in many and varied ways. Some no doubt you will enjoy, others you will not.
“By the end of today I want to see the tears flowing freely down your cheeks. You will learn that your pleasure is in my hands, to mete out as and when I see fit. Have you chosen your safe word yet?” you ask questioningly. “It is essential before we begin.”
I hesitate for a moment, thinking carefully before replying. I know that the word needs to be easily remembered in times of stress and high emotion but also a word are unlikely to come up in the course of normal conversation or role play. “Yes Master I have my safe word. It is Mercy.”
“That is acceptable,” you say with a slight nod. “However you must be aware that I will still use my discretion. If I believe you are using these words just to spare yourself from a little punishment I will not stop straight away.
“Be aware that if you persist in using your safe word at times I deem inappropriate, I will punish you harder and possibly ignore it completely. You must realise that it is to be used ONLY when absolutely necessary.
“The objective of what we are doing here is to push your boundaries and explore your limits. If you stop before reaching these limits you will never learn or grow. Do you understand?”