We are on our way to a party at a well-known Dominant's house, a friend of Sir's. He knows how anxious I am about coming out to others; this will only be my second time at a party, and I still have butterflies in my stomach. Last time I only watched as the other Doms and subs played, but this time Sir has assured me that I am to be part of the evening's entertainment. He has promised to take steps to make it easier for me. I don't know what he means by that, and he won't tell me. He asks me to trust him, and since I have trusted him about everything else, I decide that I will on this too.
Still, I am nervous as hell.
We pull up in front of a nice house on a leafy tree-lined street. I have no idea where we are. I have paid no attention as Sir drove, choosing instead to focus on my own internal mantra...."Just do as he says.....just do as he says....just do as he says".
Sir parks under some dense trees and turns to me. He pulls a black eye mask from his pocket.
"Here's what I want you to do. Wear this, and no matter what happens, keep it on the entire evening. I will stay with you, and I promise you will be safe. Believe me, this will make it easier for you. Yes, everyone else will be able to see you, but you won't see them. You get to be completely anonymous."
I open my mouth to protest...my first instinct is that this will make me feel too vulnerable, too exposed. Then I realize that he is right. Maybe it's better if I can't see the others, can't see their reaction to whatever it is that I will be asked to do. In a way, I can pretend that it's not really happening if I can't see it. Thank God, he knows me so well, and I realize what a gift this is.
So I close my mouth before the protest can escape, and instead I bow my head and allow him to slip the mask over my eyes.