âThe meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances; if there is any reaction, both are transformedâ Carl Jung
The fog was thickening as he drove home that night â but no thicker than the thoughts filling his head as he cautiously made his way up the service road to the main highway. Although the fog would prevent him from getting home in a timely manner, there was one advantage - it would allow him the opportunity to reflect on the events of that night, and his feelings about the same, as he slowly maneuvered into the middle lane of the highway and remained there for the duration of the trip home.
He had not come down from the celestial high of the nightâs experience as yet. He maintained, in his mind at least, that his euphoric state was due to the totally unexpected raw animal sex he just had. But⌠his mind shifted to hover mode⌠why did he feel something was wrong? Something was âoffâ, for lack of a better word â but what? He had never felt so incredible before, during, or after sex as he did since she had become his lover, so why did he feel⌠why did he feel, so⌠well, so⌠incomplete?
âI have no fucking clue!â he caught himself saying aloud in the solitude of his vehicle. And he really didnât have a clue that night â nor the following night when he went online with her when they each got home from work; even though the signs of enlightenment were beginning to appear. It was not until the next week when they were to meet at the riverâs banks near her home for another clandestine love tryst that they both would awaken from their deeply nestled sexual comas.
The fog was thickening as she drove home that night â and since she loathed the fog more than any other inclement weather factor, she took all the back roads home; not caring when she would arrive there, just caring she would arrive there in one piece. The delay it caused only granted her the opportunity to reflect on the last several hours she had spent with him.
âYeah, and I do mean âspentâ!â she heard herself say aloud, as she stopped abruptly to allow a deer to saunter across the otherwise deserted country road she was traveling. She, too, felt âoffâ- even though she had this indescribable smoldering heat still emanating from her erogenous zones â and her ass cheeks from the spanking she just received. It was phenomenal, but she also felt something else; something like âŚsomething likeâŚwell, something likeâŚgypped.
She pondered those thoughts the remainder of the ride home â totally perplexed as to why she felt the way she did; wanting to emphatically deny those feelings; deny them for fear she would evoke a dark side of herself that may eventually consume her - and destroy what she now insatiably enjoyed: him.
The next nightâs online conversation started out blandly enough; chatting about work⌠Didnât we have a lot of business tonight? Wasnât so-and-so conducting the meeting on Thursday? Wasnât such-and-such up for a promotion soon?
Eventually, the subject was changed; the real topic was now at hand, and was initiated by him; for he could no longer contain his restlessness about what transpired the night before.
He typed at a faltered tempo; weighing each word, each syllable; each inflection he hoped the body of the question would convey. After typing it out, he stared at the inquiry on the computer screen that just moments before â and since the previous night - was paramount in his mind. He drew in a deep breath, bit down on his bottom lip, and clicked on the IM box marked âsendâ.
âHow do you FEEL about us after last night?â
The reply was not instantaneous. Actually, he thought they may have lost their connection. No answer - still â after several minutes.
He typed in,â Are you still with me?â
Finally, his mounting anxiety was washed away as on his screen appeared her answers to both questions.
âI will always be with you â for as long as you want me to be. As for last night, I donât know what to think, or feel. It was⌠different.â
âIn what way?â he asked; although he felt the same vibes, he was curious to know her definition of âdifferentâ.
She typed back, âI think our sex is fantastic, but something is out of place â thatâs the best way I can describe it. Itâs like starting a collection of something in a limited series, and receiving each as they are released, and having all but the last one. You know you will receive it, but you donât know when â just that you will. Last nightâs role playing was like waiting for that last edition to complete the collection â and you donât know what the final edition even looks like, but that it will finish the series, and make it much more valuable. I donât know what our final edition is, or what it looks like, but when we find out, it will not only be valuable- it will be priceless.â
Although he carefully read, re-read, and read again her last rather poignant response, his eyes - and his mind - focused on only two words: ârole playingâ. He thought she was really into it â really into the ârealâ of dominant sex. He was sure he had not wasted one single brain cell thinking of it as role playing with her â and since she was the only woman he had ever felt comfortable enough to sexually engage with in this manner, he was now beginning to think he should lay to rest - forever and amen - all of what he believed were his deepest desires of being a Master â HER Master. As Fate had it, he didnât bury his desires into the catacombs of his mind; he merely reshuffled his thoughts and once more placed her feelings before his, and, like a good little slave {unbeknownst to either of them at the time}, totally agreed with her and allowed the subject to drop.
The chat now focused on their plans to meet at a secluded spot near a stream the following Thursday - the Thursday before the Fourth of July weekend â their mutual Independence Day as they would discover. They had missed the total lunar eclipse that May, and the next wouldnât be until November; but the eclipse they were to witness that Thursday night would be totally their own. One-on-one fireworks would begin that night â celebrating the collaboration of all-too-willing partakers in the fine arts of domination and bondageâŚ
He would be meeting her after work at the barâs parking lot; and then following her from there to her selected spot. They didnât even stop to think that after all the rains they were having, they may need to have an alternate plan, but Fate would step in once again, and provide them with a beautiful night â warm, dry; a cloudless sky - bright moon and all. The perfect night for witnessing an eclipse; if not the lunar kind, an eclipse of a fleshly nature.
She knew the area well; it was a favorite spot where she had taken walks and fished many a day during the course of her estrangement from her husband â a place she considered to be her Xanadu. Now, she was to invite him to share the same solace; but not for the same intentions. They would not fully realize the true intent until that very nightâŚ