Neil stood helplessly in the cell, corseted and in severe head bondage, his hands cuffed to his slave collar, unable to influence anything to change his state of sensory deprivation and utter despair. There was no sight, no sound except his heartbeat and breathing, no taste but rubber, no smell but leather, and no feeling except the cold concrete floor beneath his feet. Where did she put him; and for how long, he wondered?
He thought about sitting down where he was but with his hands cuffed where they were to his neck, he worried that he would then be confined to the cold concrete, unable to get up again. Absolute isolation weighed upon him and he tried to get Alena to help him. He whined; he grunted, to no avail. Cautiously he moved his feet to find the extent of his domain, inching slowly forward, fearful of stubbing his toe or banging his shins or head. His heartbeat pounded and quickened in his head.
The sounds that Neil was able to make despite the gag were only guttural grunts, but they seemed to soothe him. At least, he thought, he was throwing something out external to himself; it seemed to connect him to something, anything. Eventually, he started giving instructions to himself, "Take a step. Shuffle your feet. Find a wall. Find a chair," all in the form of grunts.
After what seemed like hours, he said, "Where is the fucking wall? There must be a fucking wall. A door. Is there a door?"
His mind was beginning to adjust inward, attempting to sort out internal stimuli, as if he had multiple personalities and they were all trying to speak with one another.
"Door. What would the door be like? Color didn't matter did it? Could be red; could be black." Then he remembered the song Alena had sung to herself after she had taken him from behind that first fateful meeting. He hummed it to himself now, "I see a red door and I want it painted black; No colors any more I want them to be black." Mick Jagger's leering face filled his mind's eye.