I arrive at his house, just like I said I would. Just like I used to so long ago. I nervously check my reflection in the rearview mirror before stepping out of my car. I shove my keys into my purse and head for the front door. He left it unlocked, knowing I would come to him.
He sits perfectly still, reclined on the couch watching a movie about some historical event. At this moment I could care less about what's on the television. All I know is I need him.
I drop my purse on the entryway table by the door and slide off my shoes before approaching him. His eyes never focus on me, he contributes to stare blindly at the TV as I cross the threshold. I stand there for a moment to stare at the beautiful creature before me. The hair on his jaw is neat as always, his tshirt clings to his arms as it shows the ink that lies below the surface, and his long legs are stretched across the seat next to him. I bite my lip to hold back my emotions, because damn I have missed my Sir.
Without a word spoken, I revert to our old routine of when I would come to visit him. I step across the room until I reach the couch. I kneel next to where he sits, folding my hands on my lap. After a moment I feel his strong hand petting my hair. I smile and lean into his touch. Good Lord, I have missed this man.
"I've missed you, kitten," he says to me.
I turn my head to look him in the eyes. We lock in on each other. I had a huge speech prepared of what I wanted to say to him. As soon as I look into those dark brown eyes, I'm lost.
"Why did you come sit here and not on the couch," he asks.
"Because this is where I belong," I reply, "by your side."
His hand stops moving in my hair. His brows furrow as he stares at me, questioning what I just said.
"This is where I belong, Sir. If you'll have me," I whisper under his scrutiny.
I can see the gears turning behind his eyes as he contemplates what I said. We had terminated our relationship months ago after an extensive argument. I cannot even remember what it was about, which could be fortunate for me. All I remember is how he said I should leave if I didn't feel I was capable of handling the implications of our arrangement. At that time, I was still too scared of what we had. The kind of love that gets under your skin, eats at you, and keeps you up all night. The kind of love that encompasses all facets of life. The kind of love that takes your breath away when he smiles at you. I was too scared to handle that type of love before. But now, I kneel before him asking for another chance.
"Are you sure you're ready for everything, kitten?"