i was His submissive, my name, isabella. He is my Master, His name, Master. Wwe met five years ago online, but Wwe have been intertwined for the past two years. i have been in training since six months after Oour first conversation. i am still in training. He has taught me many things over the years, but no lesson was more important than His most recent one. This is how i learned it........
i feel shivers run down my back. The silk teases my nerves. my body is hot with desire, as He gently strokes my body. Lying down on my stomach on the bed, the left side of my face nestled into the soft pillow, i can hear His breathing echoing through the room. i feel the heat emanating from His body to mine. i know that i am His, and He is mine. The silk travels down over my ass, across the back of my thighs, sending tingles to the core of my body. i feel the fire burning deep inside of me.
"Roll over, My slut!" He commands in His deep husky voice. Slowly, my body rolls over obeying Him. i feel the silk travel down my inner thighs and lower. my body tingles with the gentle sensations. my nerve endings are heightened by His play. i feel His hand wrap around my ankle, my leg jerks in an automatic response. His head turns, His eyes piercing mine. The connection reaching deep as He makes sure i am ok. Slowly, He wraps the silk around my ankle, knotting it in His efficiency. His eyes rake down my body, causing my back to arch, reaching for His gaze, His touch, needing, wanting more.
Slowly, His fingers loop the silk into the eye attached to the ceiling chains. i feel my right leg suspended in the air. The silk rubs gently against my skin as i watch Him walk around the bed. He stops at the end, peering down into the open display before Him. Instinctively my left leg pulls towards my right, trying desperately to cover myself. As i do, His gaze once again locks with mine. i can feel His disapproval, and i slowly allow my leg to pull away. His eyes never leave mine, as He softly stalks around the bed. Grabbing my left ankle, He wraps another silk around it. Looping it through the other eye on the chain, He ties it off and walks towards the wall.
i lay there, my legs spread wide, and i wonder when He will return. my gaze can not follow His body when He moves away; i am not allowed. i feel His eyes running over me. i hear His breathing as He watches. my body responds to His gaze. my nipples are tight buds of desire. my slit slick with the juices He has stirred to life. i am His and He is mine. i know this in my heart. He has completed the part of me that was lost and nothing.
my chest begins to rise rapidly. my breathing picks up. i feel His domineering presence in the room. i sense that He is waiting for something, what i do not know. Then the chain pulls up and my back lifts off the bed. i am open completely, legs spread wide, my ass off the bed. i moan deep in my throat, knowing this is what i crave. i long to be here spread out for His eyes, His lust, His touch.
i feel His approach. i hear His shirt rustling against His body. my ears strain to hear His soft footfalls. "Close them!" i hear utter from His voice, dark and demanding. my eyes shut automatically, as i have been trained to do. i can not open them again until He tells me to. i am now blinded by His will and my own determination not to disappoint Him. i feel His fingers caressing my calves, massaging the muscles. His hands move up my legs, stopping to run His fingers back and forth under my knees.
my body can not help its response. my legs help to pull my back further off the bed, and my juices trickle from me down my ass, dripping onto the sheet. i can not keep my desire hidden. He smells it as He steps close to the bed. He sees it glistening between my thighs. a moan escapes my throat as He slowly allows His hands to wander. He stops at the top of my thigh. i am leaking, opening and closinig for Him. i can feel His fingers so close and yet so far away.
And then, a scream fills the air, as His hand comes down and smacks against the full length of my slit. my wetness spitting out over my legs, stomach, and His arm. His hand comes down on me again, harder. my body tightens, the pain shoots up my spine into my head, into the tight tips of my nipples. i scream out His name......"MASTER". i can feel His smile as i scream for Him, for His touch, His pain. i am His, and He is mine.
His hands, one now wet with me, traverse my body further up, stopping at my breasts. His fingers gently play around with them, rolling their fullness in His hands. my body swivels on the bed, trying to get closer to Him, to His touch. Groans escape my lips as His fingers pinch my nipples between their length. Writhing under His touch, i yelp out when His fingers close tightly around them. For a moment i am tempted to open my eyes, to see His hands on my body, to look into His piercing dark gaze, but i fight the temptation. i do not want to disappoint Him. i have learned better than that from His teaching, His lessons.
i hear Him walk away, and i begin to panic. i know that He is still there, close, in the same room, but my mind tries to tell me i am alone. i feel the tears welling up in my eyes. They stream down my face. my fears begin to over take the knowledge of Him that i have. i am plagued by uncertainty. i fear that i am unloved, unwanted, something for Him to just cast aside. These fears have plagued me for so long. i know in my heart He is near, but my mind tells me i am nothing to Him.
i pull against my bonds. my hands come up and claw at my legs. The trail of tears leaking from my eyes becomes a pool accompanied by hysterical cries. i am alone, unloved, unwanted. i hear these words beating into my head. i am ugly, worthless, He does not wish to have me any more. Fighting to keep my sanity as i desperately try to reach the knots binding my ankles, i can not open my eyes. i can not see that He has left. my heart breaks inside of me. my cries become screams of terror. i am alone, lonely, broken, worthless. There is nothing left of my heart, mind, and soul. He found me broken and hurting, and that is how i have remained. That is why He has left me.
He waits on the other side of the room. my screams of terror are almost more than He can bare. His fingers grip the chair He sits in with a death grip. He wants to go to me, comfort me, but He fights it. This is a lesson i must learn if Wwe are ever to move deeper in Oour binds. i must know and realize of my own free will, that He will not leave me; i am not alone, i am His, and He is mine. Tears stream silently down His cheeks as i cry out. He fights the pull of His heart to go to my side. He uses His will, His strength to stay in control. i must use my courage, my trust, my respect for Him to find my strength.
my cries of terror begin to lesson. The pain sears through my heart. my fears and doubts turn to anger. my thoughts tell me i will never love or trust again. i will be alone forever. i will never give my heart to another who will use it and betray me, and then i hear a rustle in the corner. my voice breaks and goes quiet. my thoughts stop, and i listen. my ears pick up the heavy breathing, i feel the pain echoing in His soul. i have failed.
Slowly, my panicked mind calms, my cries become silent shudders of shame. This was a test, and i have failed. i allowed my doubts, my fears to overcome the binds Wwe have made. i let my mind rule my heart. i did not trust or believe in His care, His love. my body slumps in defeat, no longer fighting the physical bonds. my face turns away from where i know, He now sits, watching. The cries that were once filled with terror are now full of shame. The pain radiates through my body. The question 'What will He do?' ricochets through my head, and then i remember..... don't think. Instead of thinking when you fear being alone, unwanted, unloved, feel your heart. That is what He told me. Feel in your heart for that knowledge you have of me, the relationship, feel your heart.
my thoughts stop. i center my mind with my heart and soul, and i know. i know without a doubt that He is there. softly, i whisper, "Master, i am sorry. i have not earned Your forgiveness, but You have most definitely earned my apology." my hands reach to cover my face as i hear Him stand up and draw near.
"little one, you have My forgiveness. This, I know was not an easy lesson for you, but now that you have learned it, the hard way, maybe you will not soon forget it. I am here out of choice as you are. Wwe are here together. Trust in Me, respect Me, and know that I am here, and when I am no longer here with you, you will surely know it." His voice soft and endearing fills my soul with peace. His arms wrap around me, and i feel the comfort of His strength. "Open them!"
my eyes open and meet His gaze. i feel it in my heart, Wwe have reached a new depth in Oour binds together. "you are Mine, little one, do NOT forget it. From now on, if you fear or doubt, there will be a punishment, remember this." my eyes lock with His, and i nod, softly saying, "Yes, Master, as You wish."