she set about moving on with her life. she worked on forgetting Him. The next few days, she kept busy, occupying her mind with stories and life. Sunday and Monday passed in a haze. she knew that it had been days, and when she logged online, she checked. The weight of disappointment was always pushed to the back of her mind when there was no message. she wondered and waited. Thinking to be helpful in her quest, she became a smart ass for thirty seconds. she sent Him an offline message. "It would be very beneficial for You to pay attention to some things." she waved and disappeared.
Smiling softly to herself, and hoping that He would take up her challenge, she went about her days, thinking at times of Him, but always finding the strength to move on. she would conquer the desire to "fly into His conversation" when He happened to return.
Tuesday dawned bright and sunny. she was doing well. her day started with a smile on her face and an almost light heart. she was picking up some of the pieces. her writing seemed to help her, not only deal with the pain, but also to help her be stronger in heart. she worked around her house, making sure things got done. she logged online and read others blogs and comments, and then she decided to log onto Literotica. her room of choice was empty, but she went there hoping that someone would show up to talk to.
Within a few minutes friends entered the room, asking how she was, starting up conversations. Two friends showed up, zenobia and sub.lingual. The conversation wrapped itself around the events of the past few days. they both agreed that she needed "bitch lessons". The first rule was: always say what is on your mind and never worry about offending someone with what you have to say. her response was, "Oh, i never want to offend anyone." The second rule was never let anyone walk all over you, stand up for yourself and if someone crosses the line, make them cross back over. her response was, "Well, i could try to do that."
she sighed softly to herself and said, "i won't make a very good bitch, i'm already failing." All three of them had a good laugh over this as the conversation flowed on to other things. she drifted out of the chat site some time later after many wonderful conversations and laughs. her spirits were lifted, and she could meet the dawn of another day with a smile on her face and a light to her eye. He had not contacted her at all Saturday, Sunday, Monday or Tuesday, but she would survive, she would be strong.
she awoke in much the same manner on Wednesday. her strength gathered around her and she met the dawn of a new day with a smile on her face and a song in her heart. she spent the morning picking up here and there around the house and accomplishing small tasks. After eating lunch, she logged onto the net and walked around pages of friends, reading and leaving comments. Checking her own page, she saw a comment from a dear friend, pure heart. she was shocked to find the comment, but secretly smiling to herself. The conversation became quite fun, jumping back and forth, misbehaving. pure heart, without knowing it, kept her mind busy with laughter for some time.
Part of the conversation went as follows.......
pureheart:Smile
you are an inspiration to U/us all with your thoughtfulness, kindness, inner beauty and humility. It is a pleasure to know you, and call you a friend .. hugggs you tightly..... ps just HAD to go back and read the WHOLE of it again!!!! *giggles*
her:Shhh
Now, pure one, my niceness, beauty, and etc are suppose to be a secret. Here you are telling everyone. *sighs* Thank you pure one, for your thoughts and comments. i'll try to live up to the picture you have painted of me in your head.
