Valari clicked off the computer monitor, her hand shaking as the button depressed. Her courage faded with the image on the screen. One thought ran through her mind-I shouldn't have done that. Shouldn't have given him my number. As she bit her bottom lip the subtle flavor of her cherry lip gloss filled her mouth. She pushed back the desk chair and took a sip of water, sloshing it around in her mouth before swallowing it.
She left the computer room, her bare feet making small shuffling noises as she paced the livingroom. She turned on the television and sat down on the sofa. She flipped through the channels until she found Dexter's Laboratory, then tossed the remote to the cushion beside her.
She glanced over at the cordless phone. It was on the table opposite her. She moved from one end of the sofa to the other so she could be closer to it. She pulled her bare feet up, tucking them beneath her and ran her thumb over the nail of her big toe. She needed to repaint them. The light green polish was badly chipped on all of her nails.
She turned her hazel eyes to the clock beside the television. Only one minute had passed since she logged off the Internet but it seemed as if an eternity had gone by. The phone taunted the corner of her eye. He's not going to call you, it said. He just wanted to see if you'd be stupid enough to give him your digits. What could be possibly want with a twenty year old? Valari shook her head. She wasn't going to listen to that. He cared. He wouldn't have asked for her number and then told her to sign off if he didn't intend to call. He was honest. He was one of the good ones. She could trust him.
Right?
The second hand on the clock moved. Two minutes. Valari ran her fingers through her black curls. She was beginning to give in to the phone's way of thinking. A breeze blew in through the open French doors, tickling her, teasing her in a way.
The phone rang as DeeDee's screeching laughter erupted from the television and Valari jumped. Her eyes darted to the phone as her dachshund ran through the room, barking. She kept her hands on her thighs.
One ring seemed to desperate.
Two rings and the dog was still barking too much.
Three rings and she picked up, her pet running now through the kitchen. Her fingers were shaking as she picked up the phone and pressed the answer button.
"Hello?" she said, wincing as she heard how her voice shook.
"Hi," a soft voice said, calm and expectant. "Valari?"
She nodded. "Caleb?"
The soft voice laughed, a tickle of the throat. "You sound nervous." She couldn't hide it. She admitted it to him. "I like that."
Valari let out a shaky breath and smiled. "Somehow I knew you would."
"Where are you now?"
"I'm in the living room. On the sofa."
"Are your feet up? On a table?" Valari shook her head. Her feet were tucked up beside her on the sofa. "Socks and shoes?" She was barefoot. Caleb gave a pleased chuckle. "You must look so shy sitting like that."
There was a pause and Valari bit her bottom lip, squeezing her eyes together. This was a mistake, she thought. He's going to hate me after this. She was shy, quiet to a fault even when she wasn't having phone sex for the first time. But now it seemed like so much more of a curse to her.
"If I were to walk in and find you sitting like that-I bet you're biting your lip aren't you? Nervous, a little scared. But extremely excited at the same time, aren't you?"
Her mouth was dry. "Yeah." She wished she had brought her water with her.
"Good. Good," Caleb said. "Now, if I were to walk in and find you like that, what would you do? What would you want to do to me?"
Valari paused. They had chatted a few times on-line, role-played, so she knew what her character would have done there. But this was no longer within the confines of a computer screen. She had no clue what to do now. "I don't know." This time she managed to control the shaking of her voice. "I don't know what you'd want me to do."
"But you have some ideas. You'd want to come to me. Hug me. Kiss me." His voice grew lower as he continued his list. "Please me. Give yourself over to me."
She nodded. "Yes."
Caleb sighed loudly, then let out a low growl. "Don't mind me. I just slid my hand into my jeans. You arouse me so much, Valari."
Valari let out a nervous giggle.
"Where is your hand? In your pants yet?"
She shook her head. "Not yet."
"But your hips are moving. Pushing you down onto the sofa?"
Again, "not yet."
"You know, if I did come home to find you sitting on my desk, it would be the highlight of my day." Valari smiled. Earlier in the day she had seen Caleb's status as "away from my desk' and sent an Instant Message *Sitting naked on your desk Indian-Style* for him to see when he returned. "And if I did find you like that I'd push you back gently, not saying a word. Never saying a word. I'd spread your legs and step between them."
Valari's eyes drifted closed, the image Caleb was detailing playing out in her mind. "And I'd take you right there. Never saying a word. Just using you like you need to be used. Because you do need to be used, don't you, Valari?"
She nodded. "Yes." Her voice was low, but Caleb heard it.
"You're a little slut at heart, aren't you?"
She nodded again. "Yes." She stood, unable to behave any longer. She glanced out toward the street, making sure her parents' van wasn't coming now. She moved to the kitchen, peering through the back door to make sure the garage door was still down.
"What are you doing? I can hear you moving."
"Making sure we're not going to get caught."
Caleb laughed. "You like that, don't you? The thrill of getting caught? We might have to experiment with that sometime. Just not with your parents." He laughed again.
Valari entered her bedroom, leaving the door open so she could hear. She left the light off and moved to her bed. She lay down on her back.
"What are you doing now?"
"I'm undoing my jeans," Valari said as she did it. She pushed her jeans and panties down and tossed them to the floor beside her neatly made bed. She held the phone between her shoulder and ear and unbuttoned her shirt, removing it and her bra.
"Good girl," Caleb said. "Now lay back." Valari did as she was told. "Are your legs spread wide for me?" Valari shook her head and described how her legs were-pressed together and leaning toward the wall.
Caleb made a pleased sound. "So shy about your arousal."
"I'm sorry," Valari whispered.
Caleb laughed. "Don't be sorry. Just spread your legs. Slide your hand down. Feel your clit for me." Valari obeyed, her legs parting and sliding down. Her fingers parted the lips of her labia, her index finger sliding over the tip of her clitoris. She was surprised by how wet she was already. She couldn't remember a time she had been soaked as she was now. Her eyes fluttered shut as she sighed into the phone.
"What's Valari doing? Is she being a good little slut for me?" His voice was deeper, lower now. She nodded and murmured a "yes" even though she was certain he wouldn't hear it.
"Answer me, Valari. Where's your hand now?"
Her mouth was dry. She tried to swallow. "At my cunt," she said.
She could hear Caleb's smile. "Good girl," he said. She let out a noise that was halfway between a moan and a whimper. She liked the way he said that. "Would you like Caleb's fingers there? Nice and strong. Long."
Valari's fingers slid through her wetness, sinking into her. She gasped as she pressed her fingers deeper. Normally she only played with the hard nub of flesh. It had been quite a while since she had anything inside.