Thursday, November 24, 2011, Thanksgiving dinner
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Betty was having dinner with her family for Thanksgiving. I'd gathered Katy wasn't welcome there, though why wasn't at all clear to me. Katy's family was out of town, and Nancy was always encouraging me to "bring someone with you." I knew she meant a new boyfriend, but I just wasn't interested in anything romantic. But I took her up on the "bring someone" part and brought Katy. Nancy's husband and son and daughter, both youngsters, were there plus some of her husband's family.
The dinner was quite nice. Nancy was a good cook and her husband actually even better. The conversation was pleasant. Nancy was very interested in Katy. I'd said nothing but good things about her since that afternoon she overheard our conversation and had quickly gone from boarder to friend. I didn't often keep secrets from Nancy, but I hadn't told her Katy and I were lovers or the clothing optional aspect of our home. Nancy was more than a bit of a prude. Or, at least, the Nancy I knew of old was.
But Nancy had seen us together months ago, after we became friends but before we became lovers. She noticed that things were different. She led me out to the back deck after dinner.
"What's going on between you and Katy, Gin?"
"Gin" was her nick name for me, combining part of my name and my favorite drink, that only Nancy used.
I asked "What do you mean?"
"I'm a God damn therapist, dear. I'm trained to notice things. You stand inside each others comfort zones. You exchange quick knowing looks. You touch each other when you think nobody is looking. You're romantically involved or lovers or both. Right?"
I was a bit stunned. We'd intended to keep it secret. I wondered how many other people suspected something from seeing us together?
She said "I'll take that look in your eyes as confirmation. Look, years ago I'd have gone all 'it's a sin' and 'it's morally wrong' and so on. But that's mostly mother talking through me. Maybe it is wrong or a sin or whatever. But these days, I'm not so sure of myself. I've seen far too much since I started working. I've seen too many woman happy together to believe that shit."
She paused. "It still feels wrong, especially for my baby sister. And with such a young woman."
We both glanced through the sliding glass doors into the living room. Nancy's husband was chatting with Katy.
Nancy continued, "A girl, practically. It feels like it's wrong. But I'm going to try not to give you a hard time about it either."
She glanced into the living room again. I looked too. Nancy's husband could be very charming, but he was also host and had moved on to talk to his sister. Katy was looking uncomfortable in the room full of strangers.
Nancy smiled, though it looked a big forced. "I think your friend needs you."
I stepped towards the door.
"Please, before we go in. Satisfy my curiosity. I don't need to know, but you're my sister and I really want to. It shows all over that you're close friends. Very close. And that automatic move to go to her says a lot. Please tell me, really, it's just my curiosity. Is she your girlfriend, or lover, or both?"
I decided there was no reason not to tell her.
I said, "Lover. She has a girlfriend."
"Interesting. Well, you better go rescue your lover from the family."
Nancy slid the door open and said, "Go ahead."
Katy turned as I stepped in the door, her face lit up, she walked towards me, and hesitated. We'd agreed not to be obvious while there.
I gave her a quick hug and said, "Come on, dishes."
We both giggled, briefly, then went to the kitchen with Nancy, her daughter and sister-in-law.
As we worked Nancy kept taking glances at Katy. And I guess I could understand that. We were not her patients. This was not abstract. This was her little sister and her little sister's lover. Female lover. I saw her start to speak several times, then change her mind. Eventually she seemed to make up her mind and decide not to ask whatever it was she wanted to ask.
Friday, December 2, 2011, "Graduation" and pillow talk.
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Things had changed since that evening Katy and I did the dishes, and did each other. And much was the same. But the differences were life itself to me. About twice a week we slept together. And about twice a week we had sex. Sometimes both the same night. We went about the place nude or wearing not much most of the time. I wore panties and shorts when I had my period. I guessed we'd synchronized because she did the same on the same days I did.
At breakfast this morning she said, "Congratulation, you've graduated. You're now officially a fully trained lesbian."
"Do I get a diploma?"
"No, but you're good enough that you can learn on your own from now on. Sex should always be new."
I pointed out, "I still want sex with men, Katy."
She said, "Well, nobody's perfect. Let's not talk about that."
We celebrated. Dinner out, sex in my shower, my bed and on the floor, and sleeping together that night.
As we were pillow talking the conversation came around to clothes. She thought I should dress younger. I had the body for it, she claimed, and thought I looked like I was in my twenties. It was a touch more of a suggestion than just a thought. She was asserting a little bit of dominance over me. It felt good and I agreed. We'd undressed each other many times, including tonight, and I was reminded that the underwear she regularly wore was nothing like the satin panty and bra set she had on the day I saw her ironing in the laundry room. I asked about it.
"I only dress that way for Betty. Or, well, she suggested that it would help me if I wore those under my suit. She bought them for me to sex me up a bit that day. She was right, too. It took the edge off for the presentation, thinking about what I was wearing in front of all those people."
She paused a moment, running her fingers through my hair. "I could dress that way for you some times, if you'd like."
"No, it's not necessary. Well, yes, it would be nice. But mostly I just wondered about it."
Katy said, "You'll dress up for me too?"
"Of course, but I don't think I have any clothes like that any more. I think I got rid of them all after Brian died. Well, except for the set I bought myself to wear under my wedding dress and for him that night. I kept those, though I've never worn them again. We can go through my closet tomorrow and see if there's anything you like."
She kissed me. "No, those would all be things you wore for Brian. And you certainly wouldn't want to wear your wedding night lingerie for me. Right?"
"I'd be self conscious about them."
"Right. Besides, there's a lingerie set I know you'll look killer in. I'd like to buy them for you."