It was a warm Spring evening. I was sitting at my computer, staring at the screen. Tim had just gone offline. We had been chatting for hours and today we came, talking about what we would do if we ever met, how he would make me strip, tie me up hands and feet and spank me, wank on me, piss on me, clamp my nipples, use me as his slave.
I was so turned on, my thong was soaking wet and my orgasm was so strong, my body shivering and jerking for ages as I imagined the scene. Then, he took me by surprise. He told me he had booked a room for the following day.
Suddenly my heart started to pound, I could feel my face redden and a cold sweat break out across my forehead. I realised that I felt nervous, something I had not expectedâŠwe had talked about meeting for such a long time and it was going to happen..tomorrow.
When heâd gone I sat for ages, thoughts and wine spinning around my head. What could I expectâŠwhat would he look like? Would he have a warm, friendly smile? Would he want me in the flesh? I hoped he would and that he would want to try all the things weâd talked about.
That night I went to bed but couldnât sleep. I lay there, my mind racing, listening to the sound of Jon breathing heavily beside me, totally oblivious to my thoughts and desires.
As daylight came my nervousness turned to excitement. I watched the sun rise through the curtains in my bedroom, still wondering what this day would bring. I turned to the clock, it was 5.30am, I felt so tired and thought that if I did not get any sleep at all I would look washed out when we met and heâd run a mile. With that thought in my head, I slowly fell asleep, disjointed dreams of what was to come giving me a restlessness I had not known.
At 6.30am the alarm went off, I woke with a start. Jon got out of bed and went to the bathroom. I lay there, dozing as he got ready for work, wanting him to leave. I had things to do and I couldnât do them while he was still around.
Finally, after what seemed like hours the front door slammed shut. I opened my eyes, staring for a while at the ceiling, wondering if what I was about to do felt right. Why was I doing it? Was I mad? So much to lose if ever I got found out. But who would know. No-one but me and Tim.
I got up, opened the curtains, the low early morning sun blazing through the window. My mind was racing. I had to get the children up, get them to school, get them out of the house. I did not have long to organise myself.
I went to the bathroom and began running the shower. Climbing in I stood under the cascading water while my plans ran round my head. I had to shave, that was a necessity, I would not want Tim to feel a bristly cunt. I washed my hair and wondered what I would wear. There were not many choices in my forlorn wardrobe and I so wanted it to be right.
But how could I go to the school playground dressed for sex. I would have to run home and change. I got out the shower and dried myself, looking at my body, hoping he would still want it when he saw it in the flesh, hoping that his desires to use me would still be as strong in reality.
I dried my pussy and fetched my electric razor. Very carefully I began to shave, making sure I did not miss any stray hairs. I shaved over my lips, around my cunt, making myself smooth. That done, I ran my fingers along my slit, it was wet. I smiled to myself, knowing that this was truly what I wanted.
I went to my drawers and pulled out one of my black lacy thongs and stepped into it, looking in the mirror I saw my tattoo poking out from the seam. Adjusting my thong slightly it was showing fully, I hoped he would like it, after all, it was with him in mind that Iâd had it done.
I slipped my suspenders around my waist and clipped them together. Then, from a fresh pack I took my stockings and slowly slid them up my legs, wondering how long it would be before they slipped off again, if they were going to. Perhaps heâd want to leave them on. I went back to my drawer and pulled out my black lacy bra and put it on, adjusting my large tits to place my nipples evenly inside.
Throwing on my jeans and a jumper I sorted out the children and eventually after what seemed like hours, took them to school. By this time my heart was pounding, I began to feel nervous and anxious but was not going to pull out now, this was what I wanted, and I wanted it desperately.
I drove home from the school like a mad woman and ran into the house. Ripping off my jeans and jumper and throwing them on the bed I went back to my wardrobe and stared inside. What on earth was I going to wear. I went through my clothes, and then went through them again.
Pulling skirts and tops out I finally found my short black skirt which although a little tight was the best I could find. I slipped it over my stockings and got my low cut black top out the wardrobe. I put it on, slid into my black patent high heeled shoes and went back to the mirror. I stared at myself for a while, hoping heâd like what he saw.
My heart fluttered again, butterflies were building in my stomach and I went to the dressing table and started to put on my make-up. Decisions, decisions, which colour lipstick. I picked up the purple one and put it to my lips, sliding it along carefully. Rubbing my lips together I looked. No, it wasnât right. Grabbing a tissue I wiped it off and picked up the deep red. With my lipbrush I carefully applied it and when Iâd finished I knew it was right.
Just a bit of blusher and my eyeliner to finish off. Spraying my perfume onto my neck I watched as it dripped down my cleavage. I decided against spraying my cunt, it wouldnât taste very nice if he decided he wanted to lick me! When I was finished I looked again. Yes, it was the best I could do, it had better be good enough.
I went downstairs and with a deep breath, walked out of the door. Climbing carefully into the car I switched the engine on and smiled to myself. Today was going to be a good day.
Tim had given me directions to the hotel and within the hour I was sitting in the car park. My insides were churning. I could always leave now, no harm done. Perhaps that would be for the best. But I didnât want to, so I sat, turning my options over and over in my mind.
I stepped out of the car slowly, almost reluctantly and locked it, walking reticently to the door of the hotel. I opened it and entered, still taking deep breaths to calm my ever-growing nerves. Wondering if he was feeling the same.
We had arranged to meet in the bar and I went to it and grabbed a stool, looking around for someone who could be him. The smell of stale smoke and coffee filled my nose, making me feel a little sick. It suddenly occurred to me that he could take one look and walk out, knowing what I look like because Iâd sent him the photographs and aware that I would not recognise him because I had been denied his.
I felt stupid, he would never come, all the anxiety of the last 24 hours pressed on my shoulders and I felt weak with stress. I ordered a coffee and waited. The minutes seemed like hours and the bar was empty. What I really needed was alcohol but the barman may have thought it strange at that time of day. I sipped the coffee slowly, watching as the door opened every now and again, and waiting. I crossed my legs, wanting to look calm but feeling anything but.
Then the door opened and in walked a man, obviously 30 something, who came into the bar. I felt like my heart had moved to my throat. He looked at me and smiled and went to sit at a table. I tried not to look at him, deciding that he could not be Tim, he would have said something surely. He didnât order a drink but pulled out a newspaper and began to read, every so often lifting his eyes to look at me.
After half an hour I decided Tim was standing me up so I finished my coffee, now cold, and slid off the stool. Walking towards the door of the hotel, slowly, dejectedly, disappointed that heâd decided against showing up. I pulled the door open, which now seemed heavy to my touch, and walked out into the sunshine. I crossed the car park to my car and fumbled in my coat pocket for my keys.
Just then hands wrapped around my face, over my eyes. I jumped, surprised, feeling breath against my neck, smelling the strong whiff of aftershave. With one hand still over my eyes, the person behind me grabbed my wrist, stopping me unlocking the car. Then he whispered softly in my earâŠâthe room is ready, letâs goâ.
He slipped a blindfold over my eyes. I wondered what people would be thinking but I could feel a stirring in my cunt, telling me not to worry, this was going to be exciting and fun. He led me to the stairs and pulled me up them. I could hear the sound of the key in the lock as he turned it and opened the door. He pushed me inside and slammed the door behind us.
I could see nothing with the blindfold on and asked if he would take it off. He said that he wouldnât, unless I behaved myself. He pushed me into the room and I stood thereâŠwaiting. Nothing happened. I could sense he was watching me, as my chest heaved with my heavy breathing. I felt nervous and a little bit scared but I just stood there, wondering why I wasnât removing the blindfold myself but this was his game, and I was determined to play it his way.
I stood as the sound of his footsteps moved around me, he was circling, inspecting, perhaps deciding what to do next, although I thought to myself that he had planned this very well and knew exactly what he was doing. As I stood I tried to picture the room, I could smell fresh flowers and imagined them on the dressing table. Also the smell of air freshener filled the room and mixed with the flowers it was suddenly almost overpowering to my heightened senses.