She had sent him a present a few days before. The padded envelope had surprised him when it had arrived totally unexpected. As soon as he held this object in his hands, sent to him by her, he hoped it would be addressed to him in her graceful handwriting but instead the label had been printed. Disappointed, he felt tormented by her already. Before him even seeing the contents she was playing with his adoration of her, already. His stomach fluttered in excitement merely at this simple contact from her even though he did not know what lay inside. He smelled the package; fantasising that he could smell her sensual perfume, but he could not. As he opened the small brown wrapper he found a small note, which read:
"You WILL arrive at the address on the reverse of this note, at no later than 8pm, on Friday evening! You MUST be fully prepared!"
Nervous, excited and anxious he flipped over the note to read the address on the other side of the fine sheet of paper. He instantly recognised the address but it surprised him, nonetheless. Why had she chosen this location, in particular? Puzzled, intrigued and enthralled he made a mental note of the location, in case he lost this physical reminder, and prepared his mind to begin busying himself for her. He must prepare fully. She would have high expectations of him, as always. Then, suddenly, he felt some extra weight in the package and shook the contents into his hand. A length of silver chain fell into his palm and as he looked closer he saw a small pendant attached. The small silver item looked old and hand made; a fox, stretched out - as if running. This simple item made his heart lurch involuntarily as his face glowed in the broadest of smiles. He knew that he must wear this item, for her, from now onwards, forever.
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It seemed like eons before this day that she had named him "Fox" and told him that it would be his new name in her presence and company from that point onwards. He had readily accepted this new name and felt deep warmth when she used it to address him. It was her indication to him that she had accepted him and it had since filled him with a secure sense of belonging.
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He carefully placed the chain, pendant and typed note back into the envelope and hurried his way to his room. There he bustled through clothes and shoes deliberating over which items would please her most. He must wear black, for he believed she would appreciate his efforts. Several items were chosen then rejected; clothes strewn across his bed in apparent chaos. His mind swam now, visions of her, thoughts and concerns, anxiety and hope all melding into one emotion of need. He needed to see her. -0-
Friday morning arrived and he hurried to work as usual. The day passed miraculously quickly yet his mind seemed constantly plagued by visions and thoughts of her. She taunted him, even in her absence, and he felt almost drugged now, knowing that tonight he would be in her presence again.
Upon arriving home in the late afternoon he knew he had many rituals to perform to ensure that he was fully prepared for her. He set about running a deep bath and, again, trimmed and filed his finger and toe nails to perfection. As the steam filled the bathroom he groomed himself to ensure his genitals were exquisitely presentable for her inevitable inspection. While he lay in the oil scented water he steamed his face with a scorching hot flannel to draw any impurities from his skin and buffed his body with a sponge to ensure he was spotlessly clean. Having scoured every inch of his body and having washed his hair he hauled himself out of the bath and set about carefully shaving. He must be as smooth, for her, as possible. Next he stood and cleaned his teeth, twice, grimacing into the mirror to ensure he was as perfect, for her, as he could be.
He set about ironing his shirt and pressing his trousers; checking to make sure his shoes were polished and shiny. Having laid the pristine clothes out on his bed he next set about styling his hair in a manner that he hoped would win him praise from her. His stomach lurched and fluttered as he prepared and wondered what she was doing right at this moment in time. He ached to see her and felt the familiar nerves welling deep down within him.
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He made his way to the address travelling safely along familiar roads and then out onto newer territory. He followed the directions which shone out at him from the street signs as he chewed some gum and tried to distract himself by humming along to music from the radio. His stomach still churned but he ignored it now -- relishing the sense of need which ached deep within his chest and loins. Checking the clock on the dashboard he noted the time. Half an hour until her preset deadline and his timing was immaculate, he was almost there.
He arrived at the small rural hotel and parked his car in one of the spaces outside. He searched for her car but could not see it. Hollow suddenly; he worried if perhaps she would not turn up. The evening air was cool and crisp and he knew he should not be waiting here for her. Following her directions from previous meetings, he made his way into the hotel lobby and informed the receptionist that he had arrived. The young girl smiled at him sweetly and handed him a key to "The Queen Suite" then offering him to take refreshment in the bar while he waited.
The hotel seemed abandoned of customers and he presumed the lateness of the season had reduced the number of tourists who might pass by and take a room for the night. He moved through to the cosy bar and ordered, flashing the key number to the bar-tender as payment for his drink. All seats were available to him as the bar area was empty. He spied a large chair in the corner by the fireplace which crackled away filling the room with warmth and a hearty glow. He removed his jacket, sat down and gazed into the flickering flames waiting for her to arrive.
After a short while, his mind drifting around memories and thoughts of her, he raised his gaze from the fire and checked the time shown by the large porcelain clock on the mantle. It was now half an hour past her deadline. Nerves flooded through every fibre of his body. She had let him down. She would not be coming. This must all be a ruse to set him up for an evening of torment. The bar-tender gestured over towards him and offered to refill his glass. He declined, sadness filling him, rather than the warm tingle of alcohol. He stroked the silver pendant which now hung around his neck and hoped with all his might that she would not abandon him now.
All of a sudden, as he wracked his mind as to what to do next, the telephone at the bar rang loudly out into the silence. He heard the bar-tender speak in a low voice and then replace the receiver.
"Monsieur Fox?" The young Frenchman addressed him softly.