Maggie couldnât believe her mother had left her here. Couldnât believe sheâd let herself be tricked so easily. But here she sat in the small room that despite its size had two doors. One sheâd used to enter from the lobby where her mother had abandoned her and the other in the opposite wall. Sheâd checked them both already and both were locked from the outside. The trim and walls were colored in the various shades of mauve and pink and white so common to hospital waiting rooms. But she wasnât in a hospital.
She occupied one of the two simple chairs that comprised the only furnishings in the room. A large painting hung on each of the four walls. They were not depictions of objects or scenes but rather just blurs and swirls and splashes of color. A different word anchored the corner of each canvas: Love, Acceptance, Pride, and Humility.
She rolled her eyes as she read each word on the paintings.
What the fuck kind of art is that supposed to be? Looks like someone puked on the walls! Love, Acceptance, Pride, Humility, oh man give me a break. This is like a bad after-school special.â
Maggie gnawed at her fingernails, her foot hung over her leg and bounced back and forth. She recalled her mother saying, âItâs for your own good Maggie. I love you. You have to believe me.â Sheâd even said it with tears.
How cliché,
Maggie thought as she replayed the dayâs earlier events in her mind.
Is this how a mother who supposedly loves you treats you? Tricking you and then handing you over to a bunch of strangers so they can lock you away?
Maggieâs anger and anxiousness bubbled inside of her as she sat and waited. What exactly she was waiting for she had no idea but sooner or later she knew someone would come into the room.
Probably gonna be some old weak little man with glasses and a lab coat too. I donât fucking care who it is Iâm telling them to get me the fuck out of here!
Finally she heard the lock clicking open on the door sheâd entered through.
Here he comes. Hurry up and get your sorry old ass in here so I can get mine out of here!
Maggie was slightly taken aback by the man who entered the room. He was certainly not what sheâd expected. Her teeth paused and her fingers merely hovered in front of her mouth. Her foot had also stopped its nervous bouncing.
He was tall and broad shouldered with a waist that suggested a very fit body. His dark hair trimmed neatly, his face clean-shaven. He wore khakis, a dark blue button-down shirt and no lab coat.
Maggie heard the lock click back closed by some unseen person on the outside.
âHello Margaret.â The manâs voice was soothing and slightly deep. He extended his hand to her, âIâm Dr. Randall Clark."
Maggie eyed his hand and returned to chewing her nails, her foot again bounced and she refused to return his handshake.
Dr. Clark pulled his hand back, âOkay. Thatâs cool.â He took a deep breath and let it slowly out. âHere,â His left hand extended and held out a soda and a candy bar. âI brought you these. I donât know what it is with the people around here but they never have refreshments when they invite guests over.â He smiled warmly and somewhat sarcastically.
Maggie stared at his hand but made no move for the offerings. She did notice that he wore no wedding ring. She briefly wondered how such a handsome doctor, that she guessed to be in his early to mid-forties, couldnât be married.
âAw, câmon Margaret take âem. Iâm fighting the battle of the bulge so you might as well take âem.â His free hand patted what was obviously not a belly in danger of bulging.
Her leg snapped up and off the other so that both feet landed flat on the floor. Both hands gripped the chrome arms of the chair as she turned to face him squarely. âLook. I donât want your fucking can of pop. And I donât want your fucking candy bar. The only thing I want from you is to get me the fuck out of here. Understand?â
âWhoa. Slow down now.â Dr. Clark held both hands up and open to her. âI just want to talk to you for a few minutes. Okay?â
âI donât want to talk to you. I want to go home and I want to go right now.â
âCâmon Margaret. Give me a few minutes. This is my job and my boss would get real pissed off if I walked out after the first sixty seconds.â He stared down at her, eyebrows raised, arms open.
Maggie glared back up at him. His striking looks and warm easy manner were very disarming. She didnât want to find him attractive but she did. But sheâd be damned if sheâd show it. She grunted, again crossed her legs, folded her arms across her chest, and turned her face sideways to him.
Dr. Clark eased down in the chair opposite her, âThanks. I hate having to go to my bossâ office.â He folded his hands and rested them in his open lap. âListen Margaret, I know this sucks. I know. This isnât exactly the kind of place that folks just stop by to hang out. But the truth is youâre here. And maybe you donât agree that you should be, but you are.â
Maggie snapped her eyes back at him. âMaybe you should check your charts or whatever because Iâm nineteen. Get it? That means Iâm an adult. My mom has no right to keep me here. No one does!â
God, I wish he would quit looking at me. Why couldnât he be a little old man and not so fucking good looking andâŠnice?
He had intense blue eyes that made her feel uneasy but at the same time reassured. This wasnât going as sheâd planned.
âI know how old you are Margaret and youâre right, legally no one has the right to keep you here, butâŠâ
âDamn right!â
âBut, maybe being here isnât as bad as you think it is. I know what youâre thinking but trust me, this place is different from any place that youâve seen on TV or heard people talk about. It really is.â He leaned his elbows onto his knees, bringing him closer to her.
Oh no, donât do that. Go back. Donât look at me like that. Damn it! Damn you! Pleaseeee just go away.
His voice softened, âMargaret, can we agree that youâve got a lot going on in your life and not all of it is good?â She snapped him a quick glance and then returned to staring at the wall. âI mean youâre not here because you smoked pot a couple times with your friends right? Youâve got some pretty reckless stuff happening. Youâre been involved in some pretty dangerous activities.â
âWhat the fuck do you know?â Maggie felt her resolve melting away but struggled to hold onto it. She was so angry and confused and scared.
He ever so subtly slid closer to her, âThatâs fair. Youâre right, I only know what your mother has told me. Iâd like to know more though. Iâd like to hear what you have to say. Now isnât really a good time. Youâre upset and maybe even a little scared. But Iâd really like to talk with you more.â Still closer he crept.
Maggie looked at the ceiling and blinked her eyes,
You will not fucking cry!
She turned to face him, he was so close now, his handsome face with those soft well-defined lips, the tiny dimple in his chin, those gorgeous blue eyes. âI just want to go home. I donât want to be here. Okay.â The edge had faded from her voice. âPlease,â she pleaded with both her tone and her eyes.
Dr. Clark rested his large strong hand lightly on her knee. The touch further reassured her. She knew that had they been in any other setting sheâd be all over him.
âMargaret, youâre miles back in the mountains. Thereâs no cabs to call. It will be dark before long. And you mother is making an eight hour drive home. I canât let you go out there by yourself. I canât risk you getting hurt or lost. And even if you called a friend itâll be nearly morning by the time they got here. So youâre going to be here for the night anyway, why not make the most of it?
His strong fingers squeezed her leg just above the knee. Maggie looked at him and then quickly away again. She was losing control and she hated when she lost control of her emotions.
âFine. Fine. Everybody thinks I need to be here then fine. Iâll stay. For now.â She took a deep breath through her nostrils in an effort to muster her resolve. âGo ahead Doc. You want to get inside my head and make me all better? Fine. Take your best shot.â
âGood Margaret. That makes me happy.â She looked back at him, why did he make her feel this way? She wasnât even sure what way he made her feel. But despite her best efforts she couldnât help but like him. Couldnât help feeling warm inside when heâd said sheâd made him happy. Couldnât help being frightened that she may not be able to resist him and what giving in to him may bring. Couldnât help feeling afraid of what would happen to her if he ever did manage to get inside.
He stood and held out his hand to her. Maggie stared up at him, her eyes conveying all her confused feelings. Her look revealing just how badly she wanted help but how hard it was going to be to help her. A look of guarded hope. She placed her palm in his large hand. It felt so small and fragile in his warm grip. He motioned her to the opposite door, the door that led inside. She stared at the door for a moment; she had no idea what lay beyond it.
Just as he was about to knock, Dr. Clark looked down into her eyes. âRemember Margaret, weâre different here. This is a different kind of treatment center. You may encounter some things that make you uncomfortable or scared and thatâs okay. But I want you to promise that no matter what you feel while youâre here that you at the very least explore those feelings and be honest with yourself about them okay?â
âOkay Dr. Clark.â
âPromise?â
âI promise.â