The doorbell rang at exactly half past seven. A sinking feeling ran through her as she lifted herself from the couch and made her way to the door. She knew all too well who was waiting on the other side, and what he was here for.
True to his word, he had texted her several times since their last encounter. Ever the gentleman, his conversation had been light and easy. But he was more playful now. More willing to push her buttons and tease out a response. She could almost see the smug smile lurking behind his texts.
It was to be expected. Really, she wouldn't have been surprised to see him appearing on her doorstep the very next morning to claim his prize. But no. He had enough tact to wait an entire fortnight before more or less inviting himself to dinner.
Not for the first time, she wondered why she hadn't just turned him down. Sent him packing and washed her hands of the whole affair. He would've been quite the catch, but one couldn't expect to win them all. And there was wisdom in knowing when to cut one's losses and call it quits. There were plenty of men out there, clamouring for the gift of her favour.
It wasn't too late. She still had time. She could still lock and bolt the door, retreat into her apartment and turn off all the lights. Refuse to even acknowledge the man waiting outside, claw back a bit of control over her life. It was tempting. Very tempting. But she knew that it was pointless. She knew that somehow, it would feel even more humiliating, running away like that. No, she would face him, and face the inevitable. She still had her pride.
Knowing that didn't make it any easier.
With a deep breath, she squared her shoulders and opened the door.
There he was, standing on her doorstep. As well dressed as always, wearing that all too familiar smile. Just like last time, a bouquet of flowers was cradled in his arms.
Jasmines, if she wasn't mistaken. Was that supposed to some kind of a joke?
'Good evening, my dear,' he said as he handed her the flowers. 'You look beautiful tonight.'
She pouted.
Of course she was beautiful. It wasn't just vanity speaking. It was objectively, undeniably true. But she certainly wasn't feeling it. Seeing him in his perfectly pressed suit, she felt painfully underdressed. This wasn't at all how she would have chosen to present herself.
But, he had been very clear in his instructions. Don't dress up. Nothing fancy, just keep it simple, my dear. She had thought long and hard about it. Considered dressing herself to the nines in rebellion. Rub the full force of her glamour in his smug face. Or better, take things a step further than last time and answer the door completely naked.
That
would get a reaction. In the end, she thought better of it. He didn't seem the type to take too kindly to dissent, and after the previous fiasco, she wasn't too sure how much she could tease him.
Even with her mind settled, figuring out what to wear hadn't been easy. Everything she owned was geared towards the fabulous. Even her usual silk kimono had been specifically chosen to make a statement, and her loungewear did more to accentuate her charms than to hide it. Just like a love struck teen, she had spent all day fretting, before finally settling on the hoodie and tracksuit pants she wore when doing the less appealing housework tasks.
Was that what tonight would be? Housework?
She shuddered.
She didn't say a word as he stepped into her apartment. He was already making his way to the dining room. She couldn't help but notice, as she quickly scampered after him, how confident his stride was. Not quite the march of a conqueror, but the easy gait of a man who knew that he would be getting what he wanted.
As he took off his jacket and draped it over the back of one of her dining chairs, she imagined how he would look, naked and with a steak knife protruding from that deceptively vulnerably neck. A silly thought, but one that brought her a small degree of comfort.
Dinner tonight was a simple affair. Nothing fancy, he had said. So she just cooked something that she'd normally be having on a quiet evening. It wasn't much more difficult, making pan seared salmon and quinoa with creamed spinach for two instead of one. A spark of pride flared up inside her as they sat down. The meal might be simple, but she was still an excellent cook. Tonight might be his victory parade, but that wouldn't stop her from eating well.
They ate in silence. She didn't dare look up from her plate, knowing that he'd be wearing that easy, smug, overbearing, self-satisfied smile.
'That was lovely, my dear. You certainly are a gifted chef.'
Her heart skipped a beat as she finally looked up at him. The smile was much gentler than she'd been expecting. It wasn't like she'd been trying to impress him. In fact, she had deliberately gone out of her way not to try to impress him. And yet, the obvious joy in his smile was hard to deny. It felt good, knowing that she had given him that joy.
She quickly pushed that feeling aside.
'I'm glad you liked it,' she finally managed.
He let out a long sigh and leaned back into his chair. She didn't think that she'd ever seen him so relaxed.
'There was quite a lot to like. And, I'm sure, quite a lot more to like as well.'
She swallowed. Despite the meal, her throat felt unbearably dry. A predatory glint was rising in his eyes. He wasn't even bothering to hide it anymore. She did her best to not let her fear show as she tried to meet his gaze.
'Oh?'
'Indeed. I'm looking forward to enjoying your company for the rest of the evening. In fact, I'd like to start enjoying you as soon as possible. Unless you'd like a moment to rest first?'
She blinked. No. She wouldn't give in just yet...
'I'm not sure I follow.'
'Come now... A lovely young lady like yourself only ever invites a gentleman into her home for one reason, no? Whenever you're ready, my dear, lead the way.'
'Lead you where?'
His grin widened, revealing a row of evenly spaced teeth.
'Surely you have a bedroom? I know that you're an eager girl, but the dining table is hardly appropriate. And this is already my third visit, my dear. I shall be rather put out, should I be treated to another night on the couch.'
She could feel the heat rising into her cheeks, as beads of cold sweat formed in the small of her back.
'It isn't nice to tease.'
'On the contrary. I intend to be very nice to you, at least for the time being. But no. No teasing. Shall we, then? I shan't ask again.'
She could hear the hard edge creeping into his voice. And as much as she hated to admit it, she knew what that hard edge could do to her. What he could do to her, if he wanted. So far, he was still being nice. So far.
Best not to push him, she thought. At least, not yet.
And, she wryly admitted to herself, if their positions had been reversed, if she had gotten her way, she would be tormenting him for all she was worth. That was what she had done to all the others who had sought and won her favour. It was a disquieting experience, to be on the receiving end. An experience which, along with the heat rising through her, wasn't entirely unpleasant...
She rose from the table, making a show of tidying up the plates. Making a lot more noise than was strictly necessary. He waited deferentially, relaxing back into his lazy smile. Only rising to his feet after she had finished, waving a casual hand for her to lead the way. She could feel his eyes on the back of her neck as he walked behind her, each step feeling like it brought her closer and closer to her own execution.
One last pause, as she stood in front of her bedroom door. One last deep breath, one final moment when she was hers and hers along. And afterwards...
She opened the door.
She knew that he would be looking around. Trying to see what he could learn from the space she most intimately called her own. It wouldn't be much. She kept her bedroom fairly simple. Luxurious and comfortable, yes, but in a quiet and understated way. Nothing particularly showy or ostentatious. The idea, after all, was to draw attention towards her, rather than to distract anyone fortunate enough to make it this far.
What would he be thinking?
It irked her, how much that seemed to worry her. Things were usually so different... Every other time, the opening of her bedroom had been an invitation, an invocation, a display of the fortune that was about to be bestowed. But now, with him standing there... she hadn't felt this nervous since she was sixteen, still coming into her own and unsure of the power she held.
Where was that power now?
She could feel it, radiating from that unbearably smug smile that she just knew was floating somewhere behind her. All his. No, not yet. It was silly, at this point. She knew it. And she knew that he knew that she knew it. But it couldn't be helped. As she turned to face him, to invite him to take that final step into what was hers, the old pride was flaring up. He may have won, but she was not defeated. Not yet. Not yet.
His smile broadened as he stepped into her bedroom nodding approvingly.
'Very tasteful. I must admit, not what I was expecting. But in a way, it does suit you. And now...'
He turned, bringing the full force of his smile down on her.
'...I trust you know what happens next?'
She smiled sheepishly. Slowly nodded her head. Perhaps, there was still a chance. Perhaps...
'Well then, my dear... Strip.'
The hard edge of his voice slammed against her. She could feel the familiar power as it flashed along her spine, primal and unrelenting, touching some ancient instinct of fear and caution. She knew, without a doubt, that he wasn't messing around. He wanted her naked, and her body rushed to obey. No preliminaries. No song and dance. Only the desperate need to do his bidding.
She tugged down her tracksuit pants, her hands moving to remove her hoodie almost as soon as they hit the floor. Just as she was clawing at her bra, his voice stopped her in her tracks.
'Oh? What's this?'
Her hands slowly fell to her sides as she looked towards him. He was frowning, staring at her as if he wasn't quite sure what he was seeing. A sinking feeling ran through her. It couldn't be... was there something that displeased him? It was impossible. She was perfect in every conceivable way, every curve of her body perfectly toned and sculpted. She had spent hours making sure that nothing was out of place, that everything would be ready for him, that she was beautiful, and desirable, and...
And then it hit her. He wasn't staring at her body. His gaze was fixed on her bra, the lovely green lace that suited her so well, that perfectly matched her panties, that was so sexy, so glamorous, so fancy, so... not simple.
'It's just... I...' she stammered, 'my underwear is all like... if you just give me...'