Forbidden Fruit.
Part 1...Continued.
Four.
Captivated.
Mimi P.
THE FUNNY THING IS, Daniel T. and I are great friends - have been for over twenty years. Not funny ha-ha, at the moment, though, more like funny-strange.
Or funny-scary, like a good horror movie.
But the thing I'm saying is, that friendship is the reason why, when I surrender my right hand into his bondage.... I
trust
him.
*click*
Voil
Γ
,
helpless captive.
Yumm.
My pussy lips swell, my juices flow, I bite down on the napkin-gag I hold - willingly, for now - between my teeth.
True, our friendship has been mostly from afar - pen-pals, online Dom-sub and sex confidantes. Twenty-three years ago was our whirlwind of a BDSM Master-slave first-date week. Me coming to him from Vegas to California. Then after that, just emails, texts, a couple of Facetimes... and well, the online training, which was about two years ago and lasted nine weeks (another story for another time). And just the one F2F rendezvous in between 2001 and now. It was ten years ago, on the Strip, me driving in to see him at the Bellagio, dinner and a show - no fucking or playing, to my frustration - but a good time nonetheless.
Besides, he was married by then, so I already had my expectations low. Daniel's casual, charming, definitely
non-Dom
behavior that night - including the peck on the cheek he left me with when we said good night - told me everything I needed to know about where I stood with this happily married Master. Just my luck.
But the fact is, we always stayed in touch. The correspondence strayed sometimes, but always returned, sexy as ever (sometimes
orgasmically
so, for me), funny and affectionate, too. I told him everything he wanted to know about my sex life, the hits and the misses, all the fantasies that I was - and wasn't - getting fulfilled. And he told me nothing of his. But he gave great advice to an independent-minded, medium-maintenance, bratty and lippy submissive-wanna-be. Lord, I needed that - in these times, at my age, in a dating scene like Greater Las Vegas - and men being the shits that they are. Most men, I meant to say...
And because my kink was mostly closeted to my friends and family - and the kink--mates I managed to find never lasted too long - the truth was that in many ways, there was nobody who knew me better than Daniel. Funny, in a way... and I mean, funny-ha-ha
and
funny-strange. But I digress...
The point I'm making, it's because we're such good friends, that when he snaps on the cuffs - and I squirm in them to feel my helplessness, feel it weaken and awaken me at the same time, feel it juicing the inside of my thong - deep down, I know I can trust him.
But should I?
I don't mean that like,
I made a dumb mistake trusting him, and now I'm in big trouble.
I mean it more like,
Am I getting in the proper spirit of this abduction-bondage-rape scene?
You know, like, aren't I supposed to throw that kind of trust out the window, let it go, or I'll be missing half the fun? It's because we are friends, he knows this is my wildest, wettest fantasy. And I know he is a good enough friend to give it to me.
And because he is giving it to me, I tell myself -
we're not friends right now.
Or I try to. That's the way I'm supposed to feel. We're not friends, we're captor and captive. I'm his
victim,
which makes him my
enemy.
God knows he's been violent, abusive and menacing enough so far, it should be an easy leap for me to reach that state of terrified distrust in him
So why do I find my head is still reassuring me,
He wouldn't really hurt me, would he?
That's part of me that's driven by adrenaline, not endorphins - the self-preservation part - and it needs
trust
as a lifeline. And that's the part of me that so badly wants to search his eyes for some kind of reassurance. But I'm afraid to look him in the eyes. And here's the weird part - it's not that I'm afraid of what I might see in his, but what he may see in mine. Real fear, a red light, a plaintive look that reminds him what a pain-and-intensity-wussy I really am.
That he might see a plea, another one, like the one I gave him in the opening minutes of our first play-session, that will make him take pity and stop.
And I don't want him to stop...
right?
No, I want to know. What he has planned for me. And how much of it I can take.
He wants it too, I know that - a brutally uninhibited sexual assault, with bondage and torment mixed in - something he said he's never exactly achieved, to his standards anyway, with any sub-slut.
Somehow, that's another kind lifeline for me, but it's a sick and twisted one. It's the idea that he is using my helpless body to get himself off, and that's something I can give him...
without taking responsibility for choosing it.
... But
GOD,
my panties are soaking wet right now. The fear is such a rush. The handcuffs unnerve me, yes, I feel the loss of control. But I know I want this. I want his strong, violent hands on me, and I want his captor-cock in my captive-cunt. I want stricter bondage, a gagged mouth, and brutal punishment to go with that.
How brutal?
God, I have
no fucking clue
- except that I want it to be more than I can bear, and everything he wants to give me. Full Sadist, budding masochist, no limits.
Fuck me,
I want that.
Don't I?
That's the question that makes me decide, I
have
to find his eyes and look into them. I want mine to tell him whether I'm ready or not...
...And then I want his to tell me,
you are.
So I need to know what our eyes have to say to each other. And when he pulls up from the counter with his iron grip on both my upper arms, I think I have a chance to turn my napkin-gagged face toward him, catch his eyes, and...
But before I can turn quite far enough to see his face, my world spins again -
And I'm on my knees!
Five.
Helpless.
Daniel T.
FIRST THINGS FIRST, I shove my captive down on the floor, kneeling at my feet on the kitchen tiles, drop my jeans, pluck out the napkin, and pummel her mouth with one fat, hard cock. The little man has been upright and eager ever since I started roughing her up - and especially just now, after I got her hands cuffed behind her. Helpless. Me with all the power. And all that power is channeled into the rigid staff I am feeding her. The same way all her powerlessness is channeled into her defenseless mouth.
I know for a fact, my slut Mimi likes the cock she is fed to come in hot and hard - not soft, needing a little tongue-love to coax it up to attention in her mouth - plus, she bound and forced to her knees, so this must be a face-fucking dream-come-true fror her...
Not that I'm supposed to care. I remind myself,
I enjoy a nice rough sexual assault as well, and this is my fantasy, too!
I get back in character. "Eat it, whore! Swallow that cock!
Uhh-ggh
!"
Calling her names, gripping her hair and having my way with her throat, I want to make the audacity of my attack every bit as dizzying and disorienting as the bitch-slaps before. I make Mimi feel the violent force of my control... make her fear me, and out of that fear, make her want to obey. I can feel the fear, no question. As for the obedience, well, I haven't given my slut much chance to display any. For now, it's
enforced
compliance... Just ask her throat.