(Author's note: please note this is a continuation of my story "For The Weekend", and will probably make more sense if you read that first. I like to develop plot and characters, so if you are looking for a quick read, this may not be for you. While I do my best not to test the reader's willful suspension of disbelief too much, this ultimately is a story of fantasy—some of mine, some of my husband's, and some suggestions from the readers who have been encouraging me to continue this story. This is not real-life—no one catches diseases in this world, no one gets pregnant, no one is emotionally scarred. If you are not into stories about willingly submissive women, this story is probably not for you.)
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Sunday. Laundry day. Outside, the freezing rain spattering against the window makes the thought of household chores bearable but not desireable. I would much rather be curled up on the couch in front of the woodstove with my husband Rich, but tasks that cannot be done during the week must be done now. I pass through the kitchen on my way to the laundry room, a basket of underwear bouncing off my thighs as I carry them past the table where Rich sits, checking e-mail.
"Tim wants to know if I could make you available Wednesday night." I freeze in place at this announcement from my husband and look about, nervously checking to see if the kids are in earshot. I quickly remember they are both at friend's houses for most of the day, and look at Rich.
"Wednesday night?" I reply, my mind trying to buy time while I process what is being asked for.
"Yeah, he's in town for a meeting that afternoon." Rich's mouth twitches, a hint of a smile sneaking into the corner of his lip. He knows I've been thrown off my stride...
"For dinner?" I ask, my mind racing as I wonder exactly what his plan is. I've seen him four times in the past six months now. Our first meeting was an entire weekend, the second a one-night stay-over in his city, the third a dinner in mine, and the last, a lunch, here as well. The decrease in time spent with him has led me to wonder if he is growing bored with our arrangement—that first weekend was full of new experiences for me, and the second time seemed to be for him to solidify my obedience to him. Our dinner together had ended with me satisfying him orally in his car before he sent me home (the idea that we might be seen by a passerby both terrified and excited me), and the extent of our contact during lunch had been him kissing me gently on the forehead as he headed off to his appointment. Has he decided I'm just not making the grade?
Rich types something. "I'll ask." I begin to move towards the washer again, my mind over-analyzing the request. I load the machine and move back into the kitchen when I hear the ding of an instant message being received. "An overnighter," he says. "Dinner, and then entertainment. Pack a bag if you plan on going to work the next day."
I try to act nonchalant. "I guess I'm available, if you can take care of things here." Inside, I'm excited at the idea of spending the night in the guise of my alter ego.
At home, I'm a loving wife and mother, working a nine-to-five job as an admin in a legal office, taking care of my husband and children, doing all of the things moms around the world do. I love my husband deeply, and cannot imagine life without him. And yet, for small periods of time, I belong to someone else. Someone who controls my actions, whose needs come first and decides whether my own needs, wants and desires are to be fulfilled at that time. That first weekend was an experiment, a test, and was a fantasy that I realized I wished to repeat, and that my husband was comfortable with me living out.
"No worries here," he says with more of his smile creeping in. "So, shall I give him permission to use you?"
I nod shyly, and wait for him to begin typing again. He presses the enter key with a flourish, and looks up at me expectantly. I avert my gaze and leave the room, ostensibly to gather more laundry, in reality to await my husband in our bedroom, naked and spread for him. He does not disappoint, and we make love, the knowledge of what I have committed to driving us both. I am comforted by the fact that it is Rich I am thinking of during our coupling, and not Tim.
The week passes slowly, the excitement of something new and forbidden upcoming in my routine making my work days seem very dull. The one thing that does worry me is that Tim will be meeting me in the town Rich and I live in. Indeed, we'll be having dinner just a quarter mile from my office. Will someone see me and think I'm having an affair? What if they see me going in or coming out of the hotel with a strange man? What if Tim makes me do something risqué? I grudgingly realize that the fear of all of these things are part of what makes what I am about to do so exciting.
I spend Wednesday afternoon trying to decide if I should change into something a bit sexier after work, or remain in my office attire. The officewear wins out, if for no other reason so as not to attract any more attention than necessary. I abandon any pretenses of concentration at 5pm and drive the short distance to the restaurant. I park next to Tim's white Ford truck and go inside, trying my best to look calm and relaxed while my stomach is knotted up from the anxiety of what may happen over the next twelve hours. A stop at the hostess's station lets me scan the parts of the dining room I can see, looking for his salt-and pepper hair above the other diners. I spot him off in the corner and refuse the hostess's help, moving through the partly-full room towards him, trying to project an air of confidence as I walk. He sees me and smiles in greeting, getting up to meet me and pull out my chair, ever the perfect gentleman. Tim kisses me on the cheek as I reach the table. "Very nice to see you," he says, waiting for me to sit. "You look wonderful."
"Thank you, so do you," I tell him, keeping eye contact as I sit. He does, really. A grey suit and white shirt, dark blue tie, your typical savvy businessman. Just as I have my alter ego, so does he...
We talk as two old friends for the next hour, comparing notes from our lives as we eat and drink. I continued to scan the room for anyone I might know, anyone who might question my choice of company. Tim seems to be most interested in my life outside of home and work, and soon I am telling him about my friends. Most of my stories are about Anne, my closest friend. I tell him how we have been friends ever since she and her husband Dennis moved to the neighborhood nine years ago, how Dennis had been killed by a drunk driver three years ago, and how the insurance settlements had allowed her to work as a free-lance museum consultant and volunteer her time to various organizations.