First Time Being A Hole

I wanted to share my experiences so far of being pussy free and the first time getting fucked and what I've learned since then.

So, as already, mentioned. This was my very first time doing something like this. I am 23, pretty fit. Not chiseled or anything, and not a twink, but average fairly in-shape male. lol. I'm 5'8, white, dark brown hair, 8 inch penis, groomed, fully shaven face and lower area. hair isn't long-long, it just goes to my ears, or maybe a little pass. I identify as straight, but for many years always fantasized what it would be like to be a submissive girl and just "be a service." Just to be clear, this is not how I view women, this fantasy is just how I see myself being, personally. I've always loved that idea of just servicing and pleasing a guy with my mouth and ass, with no reciprocation or self-stimulation, and was always too afraid to try it, for various reasons. But after certain events took place in my life, I decided I wanted to try just being "pussy-free" for a little while (or a long white), and essentially be... a masturbation tool. So finally, in January of 2020 (before the Rona craziness) I decided to make an ad. There were a few responses, but I decided to only pick one and see where things went.

He is 25, 6'2, in shape, white, 9 inches, short brown hair, beard, and was groomed in the lower area. He also identifies as straight, but wanted to see what it was like to have another straight guy blow him. We talked back and forth about 30 mins sharing with one another what we wanted: our fantasies and possible things we wanted to try. I told him of my fantasies of not wanting any reciprocation and only wanting to suck and please him, and if things went well we could do more. I even told him that I would bring a blanket, which I would be under so that he didn't have to worry about looking at or acknowledging me, and instead he could just ignore me (in a sense) while I sucked him and then when he was ready to cum, he could let me know. I had even offered to let him use my throat as a self-flushing urinal, if it was something he was interested in and if it was something I could actually do. He loved it all and mentioned that he liked the idea of just having something conveniently there to soak his cock in until he was ready to use it. Once all of that was out of the way I eventually made my way over to his house with the intentions of sucking him and possibly getting fucked.

Before I got there, we had discussed that we really wouldn't say much. But that I would just come in, he would sit on the couch, and I would kneel, put the blanket over me and then start sucking him. When I got there, he did come out for a brief moment to point where he wanted me to park. He then waited for me to come in and he shut the door and went and sat on the couch. I then did my part of kneeling in front of him, and putting the blanket over me. I then unzipped him pulled him cock out and started sucking. It was a very interesting feeling. It's hard to describe what a penis feels like in your mouth. He was soft too, to feel the texture of a soft cock and the rubbery and gummy feel it has is really fun. I wanted to just suck on it and swallow it and just feel it in every corner of my mouth. I sucked on for a bit, feelings him get hard. He originally had said he 6 inches, however, when I got him fully hard, it was apparent that he was certainly not 6 inches, but more like 9. However, I blew him as best I could. Once he was fully hard, he adjusted himself, and pulled his pants off so that I could have full access to his entire cock and his balls.

As I said, despite his size, I did my best to suck him for at least an hour while he watched porn and otherwise ignored me until he was ready to cum in my mouth. I was not able to deep-throat him all that well, or that long. I tried and attempted multiple times, and tried my hardest to go as far down as possible. And there were a few times when he did assist a little and did gently try and hold me just a tad longer. However, he did, and it was quite a struggle to swallow, because my throat was feeling it, but I did swallow as much as I could. I apologized for not being able to accomplish as much as I had hoped and talked about, especially when it came to fully deep-throating him. He said it was fine and that it felt good. I told him I still felt bad, and that if he wanted to he could fuck me and he agreed.

So, I grabbed the lube I had brought, and went to the bathroom. I had already lubed myself before getting there, and had tried to loosen myself up a little with a smaller bottle, since I didn't have anything else. I have never owned a dildo or anything like that so I improvised with what I had. I was in the bathroom about 10 mins trying to get ready, and was super nervous that I wouldn't be able to accomplish the task, especially since this was my first time and he is 4 inches bigger than what he said. But I knew from previous experiences when doing anal with a girl that if you apply enough lube, there is generally no pain, unless you tense up and fight it. At least, that's what I hoped would be the case. I finally came out, and we decided where he would fuck me. It would be me on my knees, in a half doggie-position, with my torso bent over the couch seat.

Before he fucked me, he first wanted me to suck him a little longer. So he had me kneel in front of him while he stood. I sucked him for a bit, until he felt satisfied. I then deep-throated him as best I could one last time, lubed up his cock really good and then got down in the altered doggie-position. I had always heard stories of how anal hurts the first time and was super nervous, and when he started pushing in I could definitely feel it, but surprisingly it didn't hurt. I gasped a little at how well it went in. He didn't go in fast, or hard. But he also didn't go in slow either. It was just kind of a casual thing. But, I gasped and was going to say something like "ok, wow let's take it slow", but it was already too late. As soon as he felt himself go all the way in, he immediately began his back and forth motion.

Again, not fast and not slow, but just a casual in and out, and he grabbed my hips. After about 5-6 mins is when he really started getting into it. It wasn't until near the end, just before he finished (when I think the lube was wearing off), I could feel a little bit of a pull. Other than that, there was no pain. Once he really got into it, he grabbed me by the shoulders and used that as leverage to fuck he as hard and as fast as he could for 30 mins. It felt amazing. I could feel his balls slapping against me, and could feel him adjust and move himself just every so often between thrusts. At the end, he pulled me in so that he could finish as far and deep as possible. I was still shocked by how easy he went in, but I attribute that to the amount of lube I applied to both of us, and the bit of stretching I did in the bathroom.

He pulsed in my about 7-8 times and then stayed there until he got relatively soft. He then pulled out, and said "alright, thanks", got up and started making his way over to the bathroom. I asked if there was anything else he wanted to try, or for me to do, and he just said, "no, all good", and then thanked me again. So IO took that as my que to leave, pulled up my pants, grabbed my blanket and left.

It was life changing, and I loved every bit of it. I have gone back many times since. I generally go service him 1-2 a week depending on what's going on, and up until the last 2 months, things were typically the same. I will talk about that in another post. But like I said, things were typically the same, but yet a little different. He sometimes would play video games, watch TV, porn, whatever (usually anywhere between 1 - 1.5 hours), while I am under the blanket blowing him. Then when he is ready, he will cum, he will begin to hump back and forth and finish as far down my throat as I could manage. And he will kind of hold my head in place while he finishes too. I always try to keep up and swallow to the best of my ability, but it was quite difficult. Then once he is finished with that I will lube up, get on all fours and he will fuck me for another 30 mins before he finishes and no longer needs my convenience.

But I love knowing that I am exactly that - a convenience. And I guess that's really what I am, because I can always tell when he is done with me, or is ready for me to leave. I'm hoping things continue (which they have), and maybe I can blow him longer (which I have) or offer more (again which I have). Maybe even blow him again after he fucks me. I've shared with him a few times that I'd like to possibly do more, if he'd like. We've talked about a few other possibilities, and I'm kind of excited and nervous about it all.

But all of this has helped me kind of learn my place better. I'm pussy free for a reason, and it's probably because I make a better use as a pussy.