It's been so long since I've been in this position. Compromised. Defenseless. At someone else's' mercy.
We discussed my boundaries, what is expected of each-other, this is our first play session and already my heart is pounding in my ears as I lie here.
I can't see him. My other senses strain all the harder to understand what's happening, what's about to happen, what ARE his intentions for me? I can hear his footfalls, muffled on the carpet as he moves about the room, the soft impacts of things being placed on the sheets near me. I can smell the fresh scent of the clean linen under me, the lingering scent of his cologne in the air, rich with the warmth of cinnamon, spiced with pepper, it's intoxicating.
"I've left something I need in the kitchen little girl; will you be alright there for 30 seconds?"
I jump, my mind is already racing trying to interpret what I'm going to have happen to me, it's been so long!
"Little girl?"
"Yes" I manage to quaver
Suddenly my ankle is pulled upright, exposing the back of my left thigh and a paddle connects solidly with my flesh, making me yelp in surprise and pain.
"Yes, what?" All of a sudden there is a hard edge to his voice, terse, almost demanding, he's still holding my leg...
"Yes, Sir. I will be okay here for 30 seconds." My ankle is placed carefully back onto the mattress and I feel the paddle being placed near me. Fuck my thigh is stinging, I'd forgotten how good it felt!
"That's better, little girl." With a pat of my knee his physical contact vanishes and I hear his footsteps echo down the hall to the kitchen. Then I hear the muffled sounds of something being dropped into a bowl, whatever it is it sounds hard...what is he up to...he's coming back, lie still.
I'm naked, on my back with my legs up and spread, with my ankles near my bum. Just like I would be if I were lying comfortably in the sun, only I'm not lying comfortably in the sun. I'm lying on his bed, bare as the day I was born, exposed and at his mercy. I can't decide what's made me feel more vulnerable, when he removed my clothing from me, slowly, carefully, savouring my body as it was revealed to him...or standing there as he looped rope around my waist, around my wrists, securing them to my waist so I can only move them an inch or so in any direction...
I can feel that rope now, wrapped around me, securing me.
"Your hands are shaking little girl, are you nervous? Afraid?" I can almost hear the smirk he must have on his face right now.
"Yes, Sir. It's been a long time." It's not just my hands that are shaking, my breathing is already rapid, my stomach has that weird churny feeling you get when you go over a bump in the road and my legs feel like they just ran up The Empire State Building, jelly.
"Don't be afraid little girl, I'll take good care of you." That smirk is gone.
"Shall we begin?"
"Yes, Sir." Oh fuck, here we go.
I feel his fingertips on my skin and immediately I shiver. They start just above my pussy, tracing their way lightly over my skin, up my stomach, between my breasts, over them. He gently pinches my nipples, tweaking my piercings ever so slightly, making my nipples go immediately hard as he continues to pinch them, twisting them just enough for it to hurt a bit, making me gasp softly. His hands disappear from my skin.
A moment later I feel his weight come onto the mattress at the end of the bed, between my legs. Then his fingertips are back, tracing their way down the skin of my inner thighs and I'm trembling. They run all the way down to my groin, infuriatingly they brush my outer lips every damn time they begin their journey back up my legs. Then he starts kissing me...down the inside of one thigh, around the top of my pussy and up the other leg, as if he has all the time in the world. I'm absolutely soaking wet, I can feel it, he must be able to see it but he just keeps on kissing his way up and down my legs, his hands somehow always repeatedly just brushing my outer lips as he moves about between my legs. I'm already squirming, trying to shift my hips to bring my pussy to his mouth, I want to feel the warmth of him on my clit so desperately. As he traverses my pelvis again he pauses, his lips still brushing my skin, just above me and he chuckles evilly in his throat.
"You're squirming, little girl. You're also clenching your hands in your bindings, don't think I haven't noticed. Have you been wanting to grab my head, to hold my mouth to your pussy have you, do you want to feel my tongue between your lips, on your clit, do you want me to taste you? Is that it little girl?
"Please, Sir...please" I can barely talk, it's a pathetic, desperate whimper, what the fuck, pull yourself together!
His kisses move upwards. No no no no no! not up, not away from there! I small moan of frustration escapes me and he chuckles at me again and keeps moving further up my stomach. I'm squirming on the bed, trying to move upwards, I want his mouth there, not on my stomach!
He stops and I feel a hand pressed firmly on my chest, between my breasts. "Lie still girl, if you can't remain where I desire you to be, I'll get that paddle and turn your backside and thighs red."
We've discussed spankings, how much I want him to hit me, to leave marks. How I want his welts and bruises, to be reminded of them when I sit down. If he spanks me now, will he continue with his plans afterwards or place cool ice-packs on me and cuddle me until I'm asleep? I want him to continue so badly, my squirming stops almost immediately.