"Most women experience issues of power and sexuality, but very few women talk about it. There's the threat of the loss of approval."
-- Janet Fitch
CHAPTER 10
After my commitment to be with Aaron, and the eventful evening that followed, I had to return and resume my normal routine, as boring and difficult as that was. Brittany called and few times and we had lunch, but I didn't mention any of this to her, of course, as I was entrusted to keep it all secret. I don't think she would understand my relationship with Aaron anyway. I wasn't sure I even understood it all myself. There's no way I could explain to her that I was no longer the person she once knew. Now, I am a submissive female to a dominant male, who in turn has a fiancรฉ, and that I was perfectly fine with the arrangement and being his mistress on the side (okay, so I wasn't perfectly fine with it, but I had accepted it).
Aaron and I kept in touch, texting and even talking by phone every few days. Whenever I saw his name come up on my phone when he called, a nervous chill of excitement came over me. I made sure my office door was often shut, anticipating his call. I didn't want anyone to just walk by and see the giddy state I was in while I talked to him, or the wicked smiles he would unwittingly coax from me. Sure, I made it a point to throw my own innuendos and subtle references in when we spoke, smiling sheepishly as I did so, but he couldn't see that. He didn't give me any instructions as to what he wanted me to do or anything to further a dom/sub relationship, and certainly nothing even close to 'phone sex.' Instead, he would just call to see how I was doing, or just to talk about current events, or to tell me about lunch, or ask about mine.
In the evenings, though, it was a different story. If he called when I was alone (which was pretty much always when I was home), things were a little steamier. He would ask what I was wearing, then tell me to remove certain items. He wouldn't always order me to be fully naked, sometimes leaving my top on, or just my underwear and bra. Like when we talked at work, it was never phone sex; it was just a heightened sense of arousal together so that when we spoke this way, we knew we were exiting each other.
Just when I was about to ask about when we would get together again, he mentioned he had to go out of town for a week, but when he returned, it would be time for a Society meeting. He told me I would receive a package of what to wear, and like before, I was to wear only what was in the package. The Society meeting was in twelve days, and he would call and make sure everything was set when he returned.
Great, I thought. I'm going to have a whole week without talking to him, wondering what this next Society meeting had in store. But as they often did, my thoughts turned to him. Where was he going? Who was going with him? Was he taking Jacob? What about her? I pushed that thought away. Jealousy would get me nowhere, and instead most probably push him away. I already accepted the fact that I was his "mistress" on the side, and that was good enough for now. For now ... I wondered how long I could stay in that role. Well, it was just beginning, so I would play it out and see.
The days rolled by and by mid-week, I received a special delivery in the evening. As I went to the bedroom and opened the package, I pretty much knew what was going to be inside, though I was wondering about the style. Aaron didn't disappoint. The gown was a long, burgundy formal dress, strapless, yet draping down over the arms to form a very short sleeve. I immediately tried it on.
The sleeves crossed and meshed with the front of the dress, coming to a point just over each breast, then dropping lower to show more of my chest, finally closing just above my sternum. It would be obvious that no bra could be worn with this, and just as I suspected, one wasn't included. The dress was long, right at floor length, and had multiple ruffles that began at the tight, cinched waist that overlapped and flowed all the way to the ground. What was provocative, though, was the slit for the leg. It was open over my right leg, going all the way up to my waist. I'd have to be very careful how I walked or I'd be on display for everyone to see. Of course, that was probably the designer's intent.
I looked through the package for anything else, necklace, accessories, panties, and the like. I found a small burgundy clutch and a pair of shoes, gold stud earrings, but that was it. The shoes though, were very nice. Open toe, high heel, gold, with a light strap just over the toes and around the ankle. I could understand the effect; it was to show as much skin as possible, complementing a leg that would be showing even more.
I worked through the week as normal, my mind often going to Aaron and our upcoming meeting, my first as a Society member. I wondered, too, about where he was and what he was doing ... and especially about who he was with ... but also why he didn't call. In this day and age of cell phones and privacy, he certainly could have called, regardless of where he was. It's not like we even have long distance or roaming phone charges anymore. No, it must have been who he was with. I brushed those thoughts aside, knowing I would drive myself crazy if I pondered on it too long.
Eventually, the night of the Society event arrived. The day before, Aaron did call, and it was like no time had passed, with the sensual innuendos and playful teasing that exist when two people are really looking forward to an interesting evening together. I expected that he would pick me up and we would ride together, and have time to talk and maybe do ... whatever ... on the ride there, but that was not to be. Instead, like before, I would be picked up and driven there, and he would meet me at the door. However, though, this time, we would meet for dinner at the Society hall first.
When the day finally arrived, it was a Saturday. Brittany and I got together that morning for some shopping, but I wasn't really into it, my mind focused elsewhere. I'm sure she knew something was up, but she didn't question me about it, thankfully. I didn't know how I would have answered her, face to face like that. I knew she'd call in a few days and ask, and eventually, I'd have to tell her something, but I had no idea what. I put that off for another time.
I spent most of the afternoon getting ready. I took a long, fragrant bath, reveling in my nudity in the tub, being so much more consciously aware of my body and my more sensitive areas than ever before. Even for married couples, sex is so rarely planned, it more or less just happens. Here, now, it was not only something planned, but I had days, more like over a week, to think about it.
Now that the day was finally here, and I was lying naked in the tub, the reality of the possibilities were hitting me hard. Would it be just Aaron? Would he have me on display for others? Would he have me do things in front of others? Those thoughts both aroused and scared me. I wasn't comfortable with being in front of other people. Sure, I had been exercising regularly now, working on toning my body and losing a few pounds, but are we ever really where we want to be in how we look? We, especially women, are our own worst critics.
I exited the bath after shaving my legs and other areas. I remembered what Aaron said about my lower area, and shaved completely on the sides, but not over the top. I sat nude like that at my vanity, putting on my subtle makeup, framing my cheekbones, framing my eyes, and styling my hair so that it was up, gathered over the top of my head, showing off my neck and back. The style fit the dress perfectly, and I chose some dark red lipstick almost the same color as the dress to complete the outfit.
I sat and waited for the driver to pick me up, and true to Aaron's instructions, he was right on time. It was not the same driver as before, but he showed the same professional attitude as the first driver. He took my arm and led me to the car, opening the door and holding my hand as I entered. I was careful how I walked to the car, taking small steps, making sure I didn't show too much of my leg, or anything else, as I had no idea whether any neighbors might be looking at me leaving my home and entering the vehicle. The drive was long, and quiet, same as before. This driver didn't even try to make any conversation, so I just sat back as my mind wandered again as to what might happen this evening.
As we arrived at the Society mansion, the driver stopped and came around, opening my door for me. I had expected Aaron to call or text while I was on the way, but that didn't happen. Instead, though, as the driver opened the door, it was Aaron who reached for my hand to escort me out. I met his gaze and almost melted ... he was just that stunningly gorgeous. Perhaps the days apart and the longing and phone calls had heightened my desire when it came to him. It didn't matter, I was here now and here was this incredible man taking my hand and helping me out of the car.