Patrice was nothing more than a passing daydream at one time. Yes, Patrice was beautiful and we teased each other and I think both of us wanted in each others pants from the start. I am not sure Patrice and I would have been a great match after thinking it over. Teddy knows how to tame her I think or gave the appearance at least. It would take someone stronger than me for sure. My ex may have been right about her all along.
I don't think of Puppy as a slave at all, not in the true sense that she knew I think. Then again I am not sure she was ever an actual slave. Just a title that was unceremoniously bestowed upon her. Even after all my research, she is more of a submissive pain slut more than a slave. Sure I command Puppy, Sarah as well, to do my bidding as I see fit so far. I am no monster like I read about at times which really turns me off. Does that really make them a slave or women that just want to please the man they love to their own ends, sexual or otherwise? It is what they desire however and I am more than willing to be their guiding force. What man wouldn't!
Sarah is easy to figure out as she is somewhat the same. I am not sure she could ever be in a one on one relationship. Tinkle is a bisexual voyeur and needs both, preferably at the same time. The action I took on her little transgression proved that she wasn't into the true pain aspect unless sex was the reward. Thank goodness Puppy saw that aspect as I wouldn't have at the time. I don't think she would set herself up to be punished on purpose where sex wasn't the end result. I had to remember that as her transgressions would need to be modified to pure teasing of some sort instead of pain. Puppy had done her crime on purpose and I saw the impishness in her face and the look in her eyes. I think she was teaching Sarah at the same time. I knew my actions would drive Sarah insanely horny, I proved that fact. I think it is more about jealousy that drives Sarah. Sarah wants what the other is having when it comes to sex and it turns her on to watch.
Puppy taught me with the safe words and I was grateful for that so I didn't get carried away being my first time. I had a choice to make in the setup with Tinkle and Puppy. I am still not sure which Puppy really wanted. All I know, I wanted to fuck Puppy more than anything at that moment in time. I could have fucked Tinkle first instead but I am still a bit apprehensive where she is concerned. I am sure Puppy knows that also but I don't think she comprehends why. Sex can be just that between two people until emotions are involved. Once love is established, breaking free is nearly an impossible task. Puppy should know that by now because of her admitted past. I fear I am not strong enough to separate that bond if it is established. That is why I had a hard time accepting the breakup with my ex even though justified.
I took the time to look up the definition of slut. I was amazed at the current meaning versus the grass roots of the term. I wondered if the definition changed because the Master and Mistress of the house rewarded their best servants with sex. Since wench was taken, they may have needed a new word to include males and became to mean both sexes in the end. That might be one for the books to reconnoiter.
After I returned to work following my wonderful vacation, it became hectic as I needed to catch up. It wasn't easy keeping focused either as my mind kept wondering to Puppy and Sarah, Puppy mostly. Too many deadlines to meet and a good thing Kathy had kept up with all my scheduling. Speaking of Kathy, she actually thanked me for getting her home safely with no note of animosity. I had her make the arrangements to Boston as I was in a meeting most of the day going over final prep for a new line we were working on. She didn't mention anything about the fact I had her make the reservations for two, I saw the dejection in her face however.
I think it was Wednesday afternoon when she brought me a stack of paperwork to rifle through. I watched her ass wiggle out of the office seductively, the sway of the modest loose flowing skirt she was wearing. She is always dressed nice, but relatively prim and proper for work, friendly, attentive and does a wonderful job. I thought of the definition for slut I had found and started laughing. I wondered what would have happened if I stopped her from getting drunk and taken her home earlier that evening. Oh well, I digress, water under the bridge with no possible answer forthcoming. I don't want another daydream on my hands.
Sarah had sent me a link to a website about a ring she had ordered Monday afternoon. She was hoping they would be in the Thursday shipment. We had everything preset so Puppy would be surprised which turned out wonderfully, though she didn't tell me about the naval piercing. I was upset about the piercing when I first saw it and I wasn't exactly sure why at first. I knew she wasn't suppose to have it done without my consent but that wasn't the real reason. That emotional bond has already been made and she did something without me or more precisely us. I took it out on her with the punishment, I fear as my rage simmered askew. I needed to learn control of my emotions as well, if it wasn't for Puppy I am not sure what may have ensued.
Puppy and her little tirade with the young sales clerk took me by surprise. This was something new, even for Puppy let alone me. I had never thought about her newly found voice to be an issue, I doubt anyone would have. She put it to good use I must say, though she was worried about it afterward. Hopefully I allayed her fears though there was more to it than just that. She had always been a so called slave at heart but was never subjected to showing the fact off in public before. She didn't know how to handle herself. Truthfully, it would be new ground for both of us, one she might need my protection. Should I have something done to the tattoo which seemed to be the instigator for the second time? She seemed to love the tattoo however. I was divided on having it changed and if so, how or to what.
I had hoped I wouldn't be so down taking the train to Boston, should have flown instead. The week had been a long arduous journey and in the back of my mind this trip was also nagging at me. It brought back some very good memories, the last however was one of my bleakest of my life and I needed to explain why to my loving Puppy.
"I was away at college my senior year, Rikki was a senior in high school at the time. It was spring break and I was coming home for a much needed break as I didn't want to go to Florida again. Mom and dad were going to pick me up at the train station. They never made it as they were involved in a fiery crash with a gas tanker along with two other cars. No one is exactly sure what happened but the tanker was at fault when it jackknifed suddenly according to witnesses." I said with tears in my eyes remembering the aftermath. Some elements automatically repressed because of the pain, some because it just never registered.
"I am so sorry." Puppy stated mournfully as she held my hands in hers.
We sat and ate in silence after that. All those memories flooded back in that I had kept hidden. The aftermath wasn't all that bad in reality that I remember but at the time very heartbreaking and the grief. I blamed myself for their death for a long time, whether it was true or not. If I hadn't came home it may not have happened was all I could ever think about.
It was a sad week and Rikki and I grew closer as brother and sister more than ever before. Because of the gap in our ages, we were never all that close in reality. It took six months but we had plenty of money after everything was settled and a house neither of us felt comfortable in anymore. At least I didn't have to worry about Rikki all that much as she could take care of herself for the most part.
I was in a bit of a bind however as I needed to finish my last semester at NYU otherwise it would be a year before most of the classes were offered again. I hired a motherly maid to watch over Rikki while I was away those three months and came home on weekends. We would more or less pal around, sometimes with one of her girlfriends or two. She never dated guys all that much that I knew of. I think she was emotionally damaged at the time and kept them away, keeping her girlfriends close. I know the first couple weeks at college for me were tough, I couldn't concentrate on anything abusing alcohol as solace. If it wasn't for my roommate and best friend at the time I probably would have quit.
I knew Rikki was hurting as much as I and probably snapped me out of it quicker. I had her to worry about also and needed to be strong. She started coming back to her old self in time for her graduation. She wanted to do what I did and take a year off and go to Europe for a year. I had fun doing that at first but really gets old after awhile, for me anyway and I was home in time for Christmas. It took some doing but I finally talked her out of that plan. Instead we traveled much of that summer seeing the sights where ever we wanted to go. Not to mention the parties she had when we were home, always quaint. Both of her close girlfriends had crushes on me and the parties usually ended up in an open sex fest.
It was near the end of summer when I got a call for an interview for an assistant post production manager position I had applied. I couldn't turn the opportunity down. I got a small apartment and Rikki decided to go to college. The first job led to a second six months later which led to the third with the company I am with now. Hard work and attention to detail got me noticed and two years later I landed the job of my dreams. I was an up and comer as they say but truthfully, about as far as I could go except for upper level management. I don't exactly covet the job my boss has, too many diversified headaches than already on my plate.
Rikki and I sold the house since it wasn't being used. Rikki didn't want to live there alone and was too expensive to keep. I entertained the idea of renting for awhile but the management agent I hired said she had a buyer, so we decided on selling. I bought the condo with my share of the proceeds and most of my savings once I was settled and had job security. At least I didn't bother the money I had in my trust fund. Not sure what Rikki did with her half other than buy an almost new used car. Her trust fund paid for college and anything she desired though I kept a close watch over it. She rarely spent much other than clothes and food which she actually kept quite frugal that I knew about. The trust still had quite a bit of money left though not a fortune which she would get after graduation.
Jill was an emotional wreck the first time I met her that Thanksgiving. She had just broken up with her long time boyfriend and Rikki was trying to console her. I never thought more about the situation as Rikki never hinted being into another woman. The parties we had, she always had her flame of the moment with her which changed like underwear. I even remember her rebuking one of her girlfriends at the time, I wonder if that was just for show now.