I had calmed down enough by the time Sarah returned with Patrice in tow. It also gave me time to think of who I should ask first. It wasn't an easy task either because I might lose everything at once. I didn't want that to happen in case I was wrong. I determined it would be easier to get the truth out of Patrice first using the tablet. I was too afraid of getting all choked up and losing my new found voice.
"Patrice, tell me the truth. Do you want Rick?" I asked knowing what the answer was already.
"Yes and no." Patrice answered lost with the question.
"Why yes?" I asked.
"I have always liked Rick. You changed him into the man I have always dreamed of. He never got my hints as he thought I was always joking. Then you walk in and change him to what I desire. I am jealous of that and the love you two have for each other. The love I want some day." Patrice answered trying to hold back the tears she knew was coming.
"Why no?" I asked after I basically got the yes answer I knew was coming.
"You give me hope that I will get my dream one day. I love you for that. Rick is right, Teddy might be the type of man I want and it may not work. I need to find out, tonight was just a setback. I may be teasing Rick to no end and harbor thoughts of stealing him, I always have but it is out of jealousy not love. For that I am sorry. Didn't you hear his words of love for you? I have no place with him." Patrice said with an empty smile, tears starting to flow and sniffling.
That answer surprised me, I had not considered that aspect. It is a game Patrice plays with Rick and probably others as well. The oldest game in the book played by both sexes. Find them, fuck them and forget them, she uses it to her advantage to get ahead. Rick must have known and loved to play her silly game but never fell into her trap because there was nothing to gain by either. Both had their chances before I came along and didn't act. Rick is a prize but not one Patrice could use to get ahead in life.
I have bent Rick to my desires and showed him the power he could wield. He doesn't want Patrice, he wants to win the game they have been playing. The big problem, if Rick wins this game, Patrice actually wins also and I lose. Patrice would easily succumb to his power and would stop at nothing to possess him. Rick would enjoy the spoils of her actual victory unwittingly. I have nothing to compete with other than my love for my Master. Basically, that is what happened with Lionel, though a somewhat slightly different situation. What words of love? Did I miss something?
That is when the cramps hit me, shit! It is that time of the month. I had a choice to make and this wasn't helping. Though it could help me formulate a plan. I needed a shower first unfortunately.
"Sarah, I need some help as I need to take a shower and change. It is that time of the month also, so if you would be so kind." I politely asked.
"Patrice, you look a mess, care to join me and help." I asked with hope to talk to her a little more privately.
"Heavens yes." Patrice said after looking in the mirror.
"You don't mind sharing the shower?" I asked.
"It isn't the first time and I doubt it will be my last." Patrice joked.
"Patrice, you are about to win and lose your game with Rick at the same time. I am the only intervening thread stopping it from happening at this moment. His order that you dismissed earlier was real. He was about to make that order again til I interceded and left crying knowing what was about to happen. You may or may not have followed that order but I think you would have. I have nothing but my love to offer him. I cannot win in this game, so I beseech you to stop." I said playing to her decency as my only hope.
Patrice looked at me stunned with the water cascading over us wiping her mascara streaks away and calming my nerves.
She is right but I think she missed something, he loves her too much. What have I been thinking though? Rick has changed to what I want but there is no love between us, only desire. That desire could turn into love but at what cost? Rick loves her, but she didn't hear it, she was lost in her own world of thought before then. I looked at her nipple rings and understood. I couldn't be like Sarah, I couldn't settle for second best. I doubt if I could be like Jen either, I would become a selfish bitch like his ex. That isn't what I want. That is what Rick was trying to tell me about Teddy. Teddy and I will work but it fully depends on me, Patrice thought as she began soaping the rag.
"Jen, you are right. I am so sorry. I know how to fix this. He loves you to no end by the way. Can we still be friends as I might need your help in the near future?" Patrice said with a knowing smile.
"Of course." I said hugging her with my good arm and kissing her.
We finally finished in the shower. Sarah drying me off.
"Sarah is good at applying makeup since I have an absolute problem with it at the moment." I laughed.
"Sarah, do you love Master?" I asked as I felt Patrice needed to hear this.
"In a way I do. He gives me what I have been searching for, you both do. He is the man I dream to control me one day." Sarah answered perplexed.
"Do you love me?" I asked hoping I didn't have to make her admit it to herself first.
"Of course I do. I don't understand where this is leading." Sarah replied.
"You do know I have been the one controlling you the entire time?" I asked giving her a passionate kiss she melted into.
"No, you were following Masters orders. He orders and we follow them." Sarah said rebuffing me.
"Actually no. The only time he actually controlled you was when he made you suck his cock for revenge against me. The rest were always my ideas to find out about you, though the dinner episode was His idea but I controlled you. He just played along. He has never really touched you matter of fact, always me. Even with my game and the paddle, he could have done it." I said trying to make both of them understand.
"Just like my roommate in college, when I came in." Sarah said with big eyes.
"Exactly! We are too much alike. Rick is afraid of you falling in love with him. He isn't exactly ready for more than one yet." I explained knowingly.
"What do we do? Sarah asked looking at me with her big blue eyes.
"It will come to him in time." I said remembering my struggles at first.
"What about everything he has done for you?" Patrice asked.
"He did it being a gentleman and a woman in dire straits. It would not have mattered if I was a slave or not. He moved me into his bed for convenience and because he was lonely and I provided the love he craves. I bent him to my desires, all our desires as a matter of fact and he learned quick. I am blinded by my love for Him. The love I have been searching for. Remember what I told you Sarah, about the three of us?" I said further explaining.
"Yes. You wouldn't let anybody undermine your lover status with him, because you were his girlfriend." Sarah stated understanding.
"Exactly. He has kept you as distant as possible because of my need for you. He was making sure you didn't fall into that kind of love with him. Because he knows it hurts when it is time to leave. It will happen anyway but not as much with you Sarah, I think. I know, I have been there myself. It hurts knowing you must leave even if it is for the best and the right thing to do. I am a slave at heart and doing the right thing will please my Master always." I stated cupping my breast, feeling the placard with slave etched into its very core.
"You are teaching me a life lesson." Sarah stated.
"Yes, both of you." I stated knowingly.
"I understand." Patrice said.
"Patrice, you are like Sarah and me. We love pain with our pleasure though Sarah has a lot more kink involved. Am I right?" I asked thinking I was sure.
"Yes, but it has always been self inflicted as I have never trusted anyone before." Patrice said with a small smile.
"I see, much like I recently learned about myself." Sarah said comprehending.
"Where did you learn to do other peoples hair and makeup as you are an artist? Patrice asked surprised.
"Sorority, we all had to learn and look out for each other." Sarah said amused.
I got dressed in a pair of shorts, tank top and sandals following orders.
"Here is the plan. I suddenly had painful menstrual cramps which is understandable and had to get cleaned up. Sarah, you just need to act yourself. Patrice, you need to execute your fix." I said hugging and kissing everyone.
We rejoined the rest of the party.
