I had had a bad week, in fact the most appalling week – top 3 on my list of worst weeks of my life. Going out to my first ever Fetish night with my beautiful banshee friend was supposed to help get me "back on the horse" as my darling husband put it.
I wasn't all that sure. My body was so chronically high on adrenaline on that Saturday morning that I could barely cope with daytime London crowds and the fearful nausea just didn't seem to want to shift. At that point even meeting my wild friend seemed like more than I could handle. So when she didn't make it, I had the perfect excuse. At least 50% of me just wanted to go back home and hide, the other 50%... well, the other 50% is easily lured by temptation and too stubborn to be beaten. It's also the second 50% that got egged on by my husband to go and do it anyway. He didn't seem to care that I was anxious about being left in London by myself or that I'd never been to a club on my own. He did know that once I was there, I'd be in good hands though. I was meeting a great couple we'd swung with before. Lovely, warm, safe and fun people – just what I needed. I also knew that he would give me the most beautiful athletic fucking and that she was keen to spank my arse in the process. So in the end I'd texted them to say that I was by myself, but still wanted to come out if they could give me a lift home afterwards. The text that came back said "No worries, just pleasure." How can a girl resist that kind of invitation?
Nevertheless, as I wriggled into my G-string and black corset in the toilets of Waterloo station, I felt nervous. I decided to leave my beautiful virginal red suede and black leather collar in my handbag for a while longer. The rest I could disguise under my clothes, but the collar was a little too hardcore to be just an interesting fashion statement. I felt faintly guilty, when I encountered the lengthy queue outside my cubicle, but guilt wasn't really an emotion I could afford that day. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. My husband's picture flashed up frantically on its screen and it took a while for my shaky fingers to stop fumbling with the slider bar.
"Just making sure you are still going," said his warm familiar voice.
"I'm here now. If I was going to chicken out, I would have come home with you."
"Just checking."
He gets such a thrill out of me being bad, even when he's not part of it. He is comfortable being a little tamer – letting me be his wild child by proxy. A wild child he so badly and proudly encourages.
I needed a bit of encouragement that night, as I hailed a cab to take me to the club. The driver seemed intrigued by the peculiar address – a business park at 11 pm on a Saturday night?
"Are you going to one of those parties then? One of those secret swingers' parties?" he asked me from behind the screen.
"It's fetish night tonight actually, but not so secret it seems."
"Well, I'm a taxi driver...." He left his voice trailing.