Katherine knew beyond all doubt that she had changed after being Couched On Her Terms. Her first little sampling of being a Domme after all those years as a sub felt beyond fantastic. She knew in real life, the life beyond fantasy, she was still mostly the same devoted, obedient, sacrificing wife she had always been ... mostly. But now there was another side to her, one that could be assertive with her wants and needs, have them honored, and all the while give great joy to herself and to one or more others. After leaving Lee's apartment she had been exhilarated, irrepressibly effervescent, sated completely yet more incurably insatiable. She loved Life, and she loved herself -- something she had to admit she hadn't felt for a long time.
It wasn't that she liked ordering someone around --that wasn't it at all. If she had had to tell Lee every detail of every request, if she had needed to plan every tiny aspect of that experience, it would have been tedious and totally boring. What made this fun, erotic, and enlivening, was that Lee and she understood each other, so it only took a few words or even just eye contact to explain what she wanted. Even as a Dom, Lee had really enjoyed pleasing her, and it seemed that they both usually got more excited being the witness to and the cause of the other's excitement! Neither was all take and no give, but rather a balanced mix. So it seemed perfectly right for her, Katherine the Sub, to also be at times Katherine the Domme.
And it had worked!! All the wondering and anxiety of whether Lee would really submit, all the fears of whether she could tell him what to do, especially in his own home, had all evaporated once they began. She couldn't wait to ask him to be her angel again, and thought about him very often in her spare moments. It was odd, though, because she had always wanted him, but ironically for the first time she felt less needy, less insecure about his attention and affection. True, it was still highly unlikely they would ever be full-time lovers, but they had gone deeper, to a stronger place in both of them.
If he had responded only as a robot, without his spark, his obedience with naughtiness, his ability to take control while still being under her command, she would have stopped it immediately. She didn't want to teach a dog to jump through a hoop, but to know a brilliant, strong man would be willing to use all his knowledge and creativity, all that made him strong, to temporarily but totally serve her. That's what had made it work -- that neither set aside any of what made them powerful, neither one dumbed down for the other. Lee had often expressed that he was more excited by her as she became stronger, more educated, more accomplished in life, because then when she offered herself as a gift to him, the gift was all the more valuable. For the first time she really and truly understood what he meant. The thrill came from the mutual agreement of two "highly marketable" people, as employees and friends and lovers, that was never forced, never demanded, never cheapened. How could she have known how very much more fulfilling this could be than the "sit, stay, roll over" barked orders she had often read about in BDSM stories?
Without a doubt she was a new woman, and no matter how long it might be before she could again be in the Domme role, no matter how many times or how deeply she was a sub as a wife and/or lover, she would be ready for the next time.
Thinking it might never happen, Katherine was delighted when the opportunity came, even though it was indeed a long wait for her. How often she had envisioned it all, brought herself to orgasm so easily with the memories of the last time and anticipating this time. Her only fear was that she might have to masturbate in the car just before seeing Lee again because every time she thought of what would happen she got deliciously, achingly excited. Of all the problems to have, being too horny didn't seem to bother anyone at all, particularly her.
She had emailed Lee a few days beforehand with some small requests, a few little purchases -- nothing to put any strain on him, but just enough to show he also took efforts in advance for their precious time together, that he really meant to serve her. There was the practical side, too -- she wasn't in much position to do shopping when she was lucky just to get a couple hours to be with him. Other than that email, she made no preparations other than in her mind; she dressed normally, with all regular undergarments, and nothing "sexy" in her attire or mannerisms. If only she could stop from creaming and smiling like she owned the world. Well, perhaps she did, in a small way.