Chapter 4
Is this what it feels like to be a Gorean slave? I doubt my current state even scratched the surface, but I felt so alive and "woman." I did not want to leave; I wanted these emotions that coursed through my body to last forever.
Was this fantasy, or was this real? It felt real. I certainly did not fake the orgasm, nor the yearning in my belly for more. The money was real, and I laughed to myself. Imagine being paid to live out my deepest fantasy.
$800!
And then reality, briefly pushed aside, set in. I looked at the card Master had given me, with 11:00 a.m. handwritten at the top. My parents had nearly died when I pierced my ears and navel, but clearly Master had something else in mind, "elegant modifications" he called them. What did that mean?
I needed to get back to my apartment, to cum, and to call Master and make sure he understood I could not allow certain body mods that would be evident to my parents. Yet, I had to admit, if not for the parentals, I would be willing and more than just a little interested. I turned my back to the street, reached down to my cut-off denims, and was tempted to cum right there on the side walk.
I hurried to the bus stop, before I lost the battle within.
It was nearly 10:30 when I got back to my place, far too early for Teryn to be home. I hoped she was not upset with me. I would treat her to a scrumptious meal with my easily-earned money and make sure she and I were still good.
I love my bathroom cums, the warm spray from the handheld shower head pressed against my pussy, the needles of water pulsating in harmony with my need. I lay in the tub, naked, but collared and cuffed in steel. I checked that they would open before locking them around my neck, ankles, and wrists. I filled the tub with warm water.
11:15 pm. I did not expect Teryn before 1 or 2 a.m., so there was no rush. I took a picture, headless of course, of my masturbating in the tub. I called Master, certain he would still be awake.
"Kajira," he stated matter-of-factly upon answering.
"Yes, Master. Your kajira reports she had a glorious cum." I described how I masturbated, the very act of disclosing something so intimate that I began to juice again. There was a thin, oily slick on the surface of the bath water.
"Send me a picture, immediately."
"Yes, Master," and I sent the one I had just taken.
There was a pause. "You had it ready to go, didn't you, kajira?"
"Yes, Master."
"Tell me what you are feeling right now. Leave nothing out."
"I feel totally at peace and happy, Master. It is like a total release of needs and passions and desires that I have suppressed for years. Do you understand, Master?"
"Of course, kajira. And think how far you have come in only a few days. If I had asked the same thing before, your response would have been, 'I don't know.' Now you know and understand as Gorean slaves understood, that only as a slave can you be truly free."
"Yes, Master, I now understand and yet I am sad."
"Sad? Why is that, kajira?"
"Because, because I am in need." I felt release just telling him, though I am sure he already knew.
"I continue to be amazed that you are a virgin. How is that possible, since you are a simmering slave if ever I have seen one."
My clitty throbbed at his comment. "I just never wanted to hurt my parents. I partially tore my own hymen one day with a cucumber; at least I think I did."
"I'm not surprised," he laughed.
I continued to play with myself, my clitty playing peek-a-boo underwater. "Master, about tomorrow..."
"Yes, slave?"
"The Prix Chic, I mean, what do you have planned for me?"
"That would spoil the surprise slave, and remember, curiosity is not becoming a kajira."
I knew that expression, but still... "Master, as much as I want this job and as much as I enjoy it and you, I cannot allow anything that would be obvious to my parents. They were angry enough with my ears and belly button."
"I understand. What I have planned will not be problematic, but for us to continue, for me to train you, and for you to further understand your own body, you must obey me and trust that I am doing what is best. Do you trust me, Jenn?"
Jenn. Not slave nor kajira. "Yes, I trust you, Master."
"Good. After your appointment, come by the studio. I will clear my afternoon calendar for another shoot, ok?"
"Yes, Master." Visions of hundred dollar bills flashed through my mind, and of a kajira on all fours, posing and exposing on command.
"Now, I need to get back to work. So much good quality today, but also plenty that needs to be discarded. I will see you tomorrow, about noon or soon after."
"Good night,..." He had hung up.