The night before I was to return up north she and I were out having drink at a club with some friends and I really was enjoying her company. The alcohol seemed to be making her a bit playful. She would take my hand and rub it on her breast over her shirt and sometimes reach out with her legs and grab me around the waist pulling me into her. My mind kept thinking well it's about time. My starved libido was starting to sigh a sound of relief.
"You know baby, before I let someone have sex with me I have them masturbate in front of me. I want to know if they're comfortable with their sexuality."
That statement caught me off guard, but I quickly recovered, "I won't do it, it's a dominance thing and I am not going to." I had a little fetish for power transfer, okay a big one but I was not letting her in on that fact this soon, maybe not ever.
"Well suit yourself then," she casually dismissed the whole thing. It did get my mind working though. I had read stories online about things like that and I could not recall one story of a dominant woman having a submissive man jerk off in front of her and still be willing to have sex with him.
What we talked about on the way back to her place that night I was barely concentrating on, my mind was running over what she had told me. My feelings of late were not going to let me give her up easily, and this whole thing about masturbating in front of her had me worried. I knew how stories worked, but this was real life. Was she scared of her emotions too and looking to put herself in a safe place by establishing sexual dominance over me? She had teased me about tying me up and said she always liked to be in control. I was up against my emotions and my own starved sex drive begging me to live out some of my darker fantasies with this woman.
We arrived back at her place and the routine was the same, I got to fool around with her a little bit but she just ended up pushing me away like she had that whole week. "I can't take this anymore", I breathed out in exasperation," you constantly tease me and then you never deliver. This isn't playful, this is torture and as much as I care for you I just don't know if I can take this." I laid back in the bed with my arms over my eyes. I felt worn out, mentally drained from keeping my libido in check. She moved up to my side and started talking to me softly," baby I told you I want it to be special, I'm not sure if I can do this right now."
"You don't even seem to want to touch me. If you don't want me just ask me to leave, but don't keep pulling close and pushing me back it's wearing me out."
"Baby I'm sorry, I guess I'm just a little scared, but I know what would make me feel better about all this," I felt her hand close over my own and slowly move it back down over my head towards my crotch. "Why don't you touch yourself for me, it would make me happy baby."
When she told me that I knew I would do it, I might fight a bit more but if it was going to make her happy I knew I would not win the fight. Her hand placed mine on my semi-hard cock and she started to jerk me off with my hand. Once my cock was fully hard she removed her hand and mine did not stop. She kept talking into my ear as my hand kept sliding up and down," that's it baby, see, you're feeling better all ready and so I am. I know it feels good, I want you to feel good." Her hot breath in my ear was turning me on so much I did not even heed the voice in my head trying to make me realize I was giving her all my power.
I moaned with pleasure as I came all over my chest and stomach. She was cooing more words in my ear through it all but I don't recall what she said. The next thing I felt after my orgasm subsided was her wiping all the come off me with a warm, damp towel.
"Thank you baby, I think we both needed that, don't you?" I was at a loss for words as I realized what I had done. Then I felt a euphoria wash over my body as I really did realize what I had done. Was I really so submissive when it came to sex? In time she would show me just how submissive I could really be....(to be continued)