I was sitting and relaxing in the garden. The estate grounds were lovely as usual. The flowers were in bloom and their perfume hung in the air, the fragrance was intoxicating. I don't know the names of the flowers.. they are a special breed, grown to keep the garden scented with aphrodisiacs, and those in it in a perpetual state of semi-arousal. It works. On that particular morning I sat in the grass and breathed deeply, wondering when I might be satisfied again.
A cool breeze came, and it rustled my robe gently against my breasts. I am permitted to wear a light, transparent robe outdoors when the Viscount is away, a gesture of respect from him, that I may enjoy a bit of modesty. My feet are free, that I may walk the grounds at will, but my hands must remain tied behind my back. I am rarely permitted to touch my own body, and I anticipate those times that the Viscount will allow it. On this day, my robe softly caressed my breasts with the wind, and I closed my eyes for a moment and imagined a stronger, firmer touch.
Footsteps nearby brought me back to the present, and I raised my head to see one of the slave girls walking by. She was picking flowers and carefully placing them in a white basket. She looked towards me shyly, and smiled. I smiled too. I feel a strong kinship with the slave girls, although we are not permitted to speak to each other. I think they envy me, and my position with the Viscount. In turn, I envy them. While I receive much more attention from the Viscount, when he is here, they have companionship with each other. I have heard them chatting in the palace, giggling and laughing. They aren't supposed to chat with each other, but they know that the Viscount will not turn his interest towards them enough to find out. When he is away, they relax and enjoy company through their work.
The slave girls like me, I think, but are too afraid of the possible consequences to dare approach me and bring me into their circles. I cannot blame them. The Viscount would find out, because in the end I cannot keep anything from him. And while it might mean an unpleasant night or week for me, it could mean disaster for them. I accept it all.