This is part 1 of the "Erotica Made to Order" series. This installment was inspired by AG82.
Erotica Made to Order 01: The Orbit of Him
Rounding the corner of the cereal aisle, Abby stopped short. Her mind, filled as it almost always was with the must-do minutiae of the day, suddently went blank. She stared for several seconds at the familiar shape in the middle distance, a tall man in a long dark coat standing curiously in front of a pile of lemons.
The rush of unnamable familiarity washed over her. He was someone she had known, surely- or perhaps he was just someone who looked a bit like someone else. It wasn't a question of "who is he?" but more a matter of "is he...?"
Instantly, she slunk backward out of the intersection avoid being being seen. From a distance it looked just like him, the square shoulders, the carriage of his body. As she peered a little more intently, though, she managed to convince herself that it couldn't possibly be her former lover Brock, a rather forced conclusion that brought her a kind of limited relief. His hair was shorter and a litle darker than she remembered. More than that, he didn't seem to have that intense piercing stare. He was just some Joe Schmoe at the grocery store like everybody else. Brock, she reassured herself, wasn't a Saturday afternoon grocery shopping guy. He had always seemed more the Tuesday at 4am type; just the essentials, no small talk- milk, eggs, lube. Besides, he was a thousand miles away now- or so she had heard.
She could have solved the mystery right then and there by simply approaching him and saying "hello," but the painfully shy Abby couldn't dare do such a thing. Instead, she watched him select a lemon and shuffle away into the florescant din.
That night she found it impossible to sleep, rewinding the non-event in her mind over and over as she lay in bed. It wasn't him, of course. That would be ridiculous. And even if it was, why would he ever want to talk to her again after the way things had ended between them?
Years had passed, but the painful morass of their relationship remained as real for her as anything in her life. They were, from the very beginning, doomed to fail as a couple-- as different as two people could be. For a breif while, though, they had something incredible. Abby, an introvert since childhood, adored the socially gregarious Brock, and being with him gave her a kind of permission to explore long-neglected feelings and urges.
As a lover, he was the most intense she had ever known. It was not enough for him to simply make love to her. He took singular pleasure in coaxing her out of her shell, baby step by baby step. He taught her to enjoy her femininity and to relish the power she derived from the pleasure she gave him. Soon, however, he wanted more. For Brock, true love was a kind of possession.
To have her emotionally and sexually, he had to possess her completely. In the end, their tempestuous union boiled down to a simple choice between him or her own emotional independence. At that point in her life, there really wasn't a choice. She had just gotten out of school and was just getting established on her own. She couldn't even consider giving up an independence that she had yet to earn.
On her back in bed, her fingers unconsciously travelled down her sides and peeled down her plain white cotton panties. As her mind filled with memories of Brock's touch, his eyes, his voice, her fingers began to slowly rub along the stiffening nub of her cliterus. Her legs spread wider as her hand dug deep into her body, desperately trying to simulate the feeling of Brock's cock inside her.
The next day, the ringing of her phone broke the silence.
"Hello?" she asked. At first she heard only air on the other end of the call. She repeated herself.
"Abbigail," said a low, calm voice. "Hello."
He didn't identify himself. He didn't have to. In a way she was glad for this because just hearing his name again would probably have been too much of a shock.
"Hello," she replied. She was mirroring him again. The same old games. Simon says.
"I am calling to let you know that I'm back in town for a few weeks," he said. "I've actually been here a few days. I would have called sooner but- I think you know why I didn't. When I saw you last night, I thought it best to do the decent thing and call you."
His voice. Her body involuntarily reacted to the sounds vibrating through her spine. "I appreciate that," she said, summoning an air of independence, "but it's hardly necessary."
"I think it is," he said. "I hate the way things ended between us."
Assuming that he was referring to how she had dumped him, she began to apologize but he stopped her. It was he who needed to apologize, not her. All this time he had blamed himself for the horrible choice that he forced her to make. He wanted to see her again just to say those words in person.
She began to make excuses and vague references to a busy schedule but he would have none of it. "I need to see you, Kitten."
At the sound of that word, the precise inflection of his voice when he said it, her body tingled with sexual urgency. She could feel the wetness gathering between her legs. The power this man still had over her was palpable.
The note on her fridge was a spine tingling novel in mineature: "Brock- the pump room restaurant - tonight at 8p."
She steeled herself against what would surely be the greatest test of personal strength in her adult life. She couldn't fall under his spell again. She couldn't let his charisma- his always perceptable sexual energy lead her down that path again. He may have been able to mold her and shape her years ago, but he was no match for her now.
In her closet she searched for a long while for the right outfit that fit the occasion. Unable to find a sequinned gown with the words "I'm over you" emblazoned in giant letters across the front, she chose an elegant red dress with a skirt just below the knee. At five feet and ten inches tall, Abby wasn't about to risk falling on her face in heels. She slipped on a pair of black flats.
She stopped- the ensemble wasn't complete yet. From the lowest, least-opened drawer in her dresser she pulled out a pair of nylons. She made up a new rule for herself. It was OK to feel a little sexy underneath as long as she wasn't doing it for him.
As she pulled them on over her legs, she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror. Her legs were long, shapely. She liked the way they looked. She used to love the way he reacted when she wore short skirts.
OK, maybe she was doing it for him- but only to sexually frustrate him, to tease him a little with a whiff of what he can no longer have.
At the restaurant he was waiting for her, which was surprising. He had always seemed to take some pleasure in making her wait.
"How have you been?" he asked as he pulled out her chair for her. His eyes in the candlelight were as bright and fiery as ever.
"Good," she replied. "I'm good."