NEW READERS: If you have not read the first book, Cultivating Lilly, this chapter provides a high-level overview as told through a few flashback moments. All of these scenes may be enjoyed in much greater detail throughout the various chapters of the first book.
IN THIS CHAPTER - Lilly can't get the memories of the evening out of her mind and relives the past as she drives. Finally home, Lilly is surprised by an unexpected intruder.
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βThe drive home from the Tallenger estate was difficult. Her mind raced with images and fantasies of what had taken place over the course of the evening. While Lilly felt she'd lied convincingly about her past, Rebecca's prying questions had forced some memories to surface.
Lilly had always considered the year she spent with the Vatspalts as wondrous and exciting. She reasoned that her interest and willingness to explore sex had been borne from her strict and very conservative religious upbringing; that her parents had repressed her normal sexual development. Then, when she started spending time with the Vatspalts, she effectively burst out of a too-thick shell that she believed her parents had constructed around her.
When the bursting finally happened, Lilly embraced the exciting and extremely pleasurable acts the Vatspalts placed her in. Their world travels, acceptance of the naked human body, emotional support and understanding of her guarded psyche were refreshing. They opened her eyes and created a comfortable space for the discussion of any topic, no matter how taboo. Sexual exploration, once she came to grips with her body issues, was not only encouraged, it was demanded.
She had developed early and extraordinarily, forcing her to wear bras designed for fulsome women. This led to teasing and bullying. Making matters worse, her mother had forbidden her from shaving the dark hair between her legs. Left unchecked, it grew to an embarrassingly large triangular bramble that showed beyond the borders of her panties and swimsuits.
Despite being tall and slender (save for her D-cupped-sized boobs), the cute, tight-fitting clothes and bikinis other girls were wearing was something she could only admire from afar. She was so self-conscious, she buried her own body behind extra-large sweatshirts and loose fitting pants. She withdrew from making friends and spent much of her time with her parents.
Then she met Cassy Vatspalt in her community college PE class. Assigned by the school to share a shower stall, they became fast friends and as they got to know each other, Lilly was shocked at how sexually open the petite, fine-boned Swedish girl was. Cassy was the first person to touch Lilly's special place. It was Cassy who convinced her to trim her pubic hair and even helped Lilly do it.
Before long, she was spending time at Cassy's house and grew close to her entire family. It took the Vatspalts methodical approach to gaining her trust and building her confidence that allowed Lilly to feel unencumbered when they started doing things to her. Instead of shying away, Lilly welcomed their tutelage.
Lilly eventually started begging the Vatspalts for sex and it was Anna Vatsaplt, Cassy's mother, who made Lilly realize what needed to happen first. Too afraid to ask her real mother, it was Anna who Lilly turned to when she wanted to be placed on birth control. The older woman was honored to be part of something so personal and even took Lilly to see her gynecologist.
Lilly was nervous and Anna dutifully held her hand as Dr. Gustov Malstrom tied her ankles into the stirrups with thick straps and spread her legs open. He was the first man to touch her special place and the older woman was a calming presence throughout the examination, which was very thorough and sometimes uncomfortable.
Anna sympathized with Lilly when the doctor applied a suction pump to her breasts. Sobbing as the machine mercilessly tugged her nipples deeply into the glass cups, it was Anna who stroked her hair and told her it would be over soon. She offered words of encouragement when the doctor flayed Claire's lips open and taped a small electrode to Lilly's clit. She was nervous he was going to hurt her, but Anna was reassuring.
Even as he increased the current and Lilly bucked against the examination table, Anna's words were soothing. The measured jolts of electricity shooting through the little pink kernel compelled Lilly through several orgasms that were so intense her bladder let go. When the procedure was over, Lilly was an exhausted, sweaty, piss-covered mess and it was Anna Vatspalt who helped her through it all. It wasn't until months later that Lilly learned Dr. Malstrom was also Anna Vatspalt's cousin.
She had always been such a good girl; doing everything her real mother and father asked of her, despite her own feelings of being closeted. But as the Vatspalts opened her eyes to a larger world, they made her realize that being bad wasn't really being bad. It was being brave enough to see another point of view and being open minded enough to try something new. What was considered vulgar and sinful by her real parents, was considered completely appropriate by the Vatspalts.
As Lilly gained more confidence, the Vatspalts demanded more obedience. And she was happy to acquiesce because when she obeyed, pleasure followed. It wasn't always for her pleasure, but that was something else she learned from the Vatspalts: to be grateful when her second family showered her with compliments for being their Good Girl, even at the expense of her own comfort.
Doing what they said made them happy, and in return she drew happiness from their joy. The desire to provide pleasure fought mightily with her desire for pleasure. Under the Vatspalt's tutelage, such pleasure was sometimes intense or intimidating, but that only increased her enjoyment. Her supplication offered serenity through abandon.
When the Vatspalts placed her in bindings and played with her, she discovered that being naked, exposed and helpless was exquisite. Later, when the Vatspalts allowed others to play with her, she felt beautiful and desired, which was something she had never previously experienced.
She came to resent her parents because, she reasoned, they had stunted her sexuality. She felt she had to make up for lost time and her sexual escapades with the Vatspalts were a wonderfully devious way of getting back at them. Even more exciting was knowing these acts were conducted in secret, away from their prying eyes.
It was difficult not to smile when she spoke to her mother about the dinner she'd had at the Vatspalts while, beneath the frumpy clothing she wore, her pussy gaped and dribbled the sperm of the multiple men that had ridden her earlier that evening. She took great satisfaction in knowing that she'd been tied up with a cock in each end of her body while Mrs. Vatspalt placed nipple clamps on her buds, only to lie to her father later about spending the day being bored while watching TV with Cassy.
The Vatspalts had worked tirelessly for a year to get her to a place she never thought existed. Discovering that part of herself was an emancipation of the walled-off person she had always been and she was proud of the young woman she'd become. Her self-confidence grew and as she became more comfortable with herself, she worried less about what others thought. It was this confidence that made her apply to the exclusive culinary school in Switzerland and drove her to start her own business after graduation. Now, thanks to Mistress Tallenger, she was questioning all of it.
She honestly couldn't count the number of men she had been with. The last six months with the Vatspalts were a blur. She had been the bound and blindfolded centerpiece of many gang bangs and she didn't know which entrance had received more man-milk: her mouth, her butthole or her special place. While she had never been paid to provide pleasure, Lilly wondered if Rebecca might be right. Maybe she had been a whore. Maybe all the people who had taken pleasure from her body had paid the Vatspalts.