Edited by Rosmarina (whose advice and assistance are much appreciated)
Please do not reproduce this story without permission.
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I should say a bit more about the part Master plays in my life as this is very central to my story. After all he is the reason for everything, so far as I'm concerned.
I met Master on-line, and this chance meeting changed my life. I say "chance meeting" because after the many disappointments meeting men who claimed to be what I needed but turned out to be fakes or simply clueless, I decided to try a different approach. I was initially a little cautious about the on-line option as I'd heard all the horror stories of what could happen but eventually I decided to post an ad on the internet saying I was looking for a truly dominant man to train me.
I made it very clear that I was not interested in more experiences like those I'd already had with men who only claimed to be dominant as a way of getting to fuck romantic and idealistic young girls. Looking back, what I wrote was quite uncharacteristicly aggressive for me as at the time I was feeling very disillusioned and unhappy. I felt that if this last attempt to find what I wanted did not succeed, I would just give up on seeking to fulfil my dreams. I'm so glad that I did make that last attempt.
I got many responses even though my post was only on-line for a day or so. Most of the replies were the same old nonsense that I had been through before. Some men wrote that I should write back immediately, address them as "Master" and prepare myself to become their slave. So much for the opportunity to discuss shared views -- if indeed there were any! Others wrote a lot of sick garbage about how I deserved to be beaten senseless and then fucked to within an inch of my life, as if every girl just dreams of that!! Yet others were simply insipid ramblings that displayed little intelligence and often only the barest grasp of the English language. Those were easily dismissed.
One response stood out. It was intelligent, nuanced, and made me feel that I was talking to someone who really understood me and might be able to meet my needs. Despite the rather aggressive tone I'd adopted in my on-line post, apparently enough of my usual personality had come across to encourage him to write to me. I replied at once. I deleted the other messages, and immediately took my post off-line. Despite the fact that I'd only had one message so far from *him*, it was so strikingly different in tone and content from all the others that I knew straight away he was the only one worth pursuing. If it didn't work out, then I just didn't have the heart to deal with the usual morons, weirdos and time-wasters.
Happily, my message received a positive response. Soon we were writing to each other every day and our communication quickly (almost instantly) developed into a warm and insightful exchange of views, often at great length. I was encouraged to ask any questions I wished, and I was treated with respect, courtesy and patience. Yet there was no mistaking the absolutely dominant tone of the man who wrote to me so confidently and so beautifuly. I was ecstatic.
I immediately felt safe telling Sir (as he insisted I call him initially, rather than Master as I rashly requested) anything and everything about myself, my hopes, my dreams, my fantasies, my desires... And I bombarded him with many, many questions. To all of this he responded patiently and thoughtfully. I never had any doubt that he was the *one*...
Sir's approach was always very measured and very different to the impatient, needy demands of the fake dominants I had dealt with in the past. He insisted that we take time to get to know and trust one another before we even considered making plans to meet.
After a few weeks, our regular emails were enhanced by phone conversations every few days. We often talked for several hours. Once again, as soon as I heard his voice I felt even more comfortable sharing everything about myself with this man. He never asked for my home address or other personal information until I felt ready to supply those details. After a while I did give him my address, and he gave me his, so we could also exchange letters, cards, photos and much more. Our communication was always easy, reliable and totally positive. I never felt the slightest bit fearful or apprehensive about any of the contact we had.
Sir certainly never tried to push me into doing anything rash. In fact it was the other way around. He had to constantly pull back on my leash to keep me from running ahead too fast. I was the one who wanted to explore things sooner rather than later. He was usually telling me to be more patient, and pointing out that it would all happen eventually, but that taking time to establish the necessary trust and confidence between us was essential.
So I had to wait until Sir felt I was ready before he was willing to even discuss a meeting. He encouraged me to be cautious. Unlike most of the men I'd met previously, once we did begin to talk about a possible future face to face encounter Sir didn't ask me to meet him some place where I would immediately be alone with him. What Sir suggested was that he would book a room in a luxury hotel for a few days. And rather than be there, waiting for me, he would make the booking in my name so I could pick up the key myself. Since I was coming to our first meeting on my way back from a business conference in another city, I could go straight to the room, freshen up, and only when I was ready to do so would I call him and arrange to a time to meet.
It was so typically considerate of Sir that although he offered to meet me at the airport, at my request he allowed me to instead take a taxi to the hotel, book myself in, and go up and have a relaxing bath before I had to face up to meeting him. I was still very, very nervous about our first meeting. Not because I didn't trust Sir, but because I was worried about what he'd think of me. I wondered if would I be able to present myself to him as gracefully and submissively as I wished. I was normally quite confident meeting other people, since I had to do so all the time as part of my job, but this meeting was different!
Sir told me that I could take as long as I wished to get settled before contacting him. I was to phone him on his mobile when I was ready, and we would first meet at the hotel cafe downstairs where he would be sitting with a coffee and newspaper to pass the time. He suggested that we meet in this public place first, and if I was not comfortable after talking with him face to face I could stay in the hotel on my own that night and leave the next day without having any further contact with him. Everything was set up so as to make me feel secure. That was so typical of Sir.
Actually, when I went up to the hotel room I found that Sir had arranged for a welcoming card, some chocolates, and some roses to be left in the room. It was really lovely to see such consideration and thoughtfulness on the part of someone I had yet to actually meet! After my bath, I changed into a nice dress, and was about to phone Sir about going down to the cafe when I had such a strong urge to skip the public meeting and just ask that he come straight to the room.
You may think I was foolish, but my feeling was that since I was totally comfortable with Sir by now, and since he had so far done everything exactly as agreed, there was no reason not to trust him. And I now felt that I'd prefer our first meeting to be in private. I would feel so awkward meeting my future Master among a whole lot of other people, since I didn't how I would react. I imagined that I might want to throw myself at his feet as soon as I was in his presence!!
I was still incredibly nervous. But it was important to me that I extend the kind of trust and consideration to Sir that he had already shown to me. So I made the call, and then I stood fidgeting as I waited for Sir to come up to the room from the cafe. He said on the phone it would take him about five minutes. Strangely, although nervous I was not anxious. The most intense feeling I had was of excitement. Closely followed by worries he would not think me pretty, or would find my dress unattractive, or would not like my hair style, or....
Soon there was a knock at the door.
I had left the door unlocked and I called out for him to come in. I preferred that we not begin our first meeting staring at each other face to face at the hotel room door. I wanted to give Sir the space to enter the room, to be able to look at me from a distance, and for him to be in a position to tell me what he wanted. So as the door opened, I stood on the other side of the room, waiting.
He entered and stood looking at me. He was just as I had expected from his photos, except that his eyes were even more striking. After a few moments he walked slowly over to me, and gave me an affectionate hug and said how wonderful it was to finally meet. He was so warm and polite. There was no fake-dom "Get on your knees, bitch" stuff, or anything like that.
Having given me a hug, he did immediately make me feel his dominance... in the nicest possible way. He went back to the other side of the room and sat in a chair and instructed me to get naked for him.
I was trembling as I took off my dress, but it was from anticipation rather than fear. He had always said that he would want me completely naked soon after we met so I was not surprised by his request. I continued undressing by taking off my bra, panties and stockings. I actually wore underwear in those days!
When I was naked, Sir asked me to slowly turn around so he could look at me. After I did so, he told me I was very pretty. I remember blushing. How strange that I did not blush from being naked in front of a man I was meeting in person for the first time, but from a compliment! Sir often tells me that I'm a complex little bitch.
He then told me to get on my hands and knees and crawl slowly over to him. Sir watched from his chair as I crawled towards him. It felt so good to crawl naked to where he was seated. I could feel my pussy getting wetter as I crawled, and suddenly I realised that I couldn't recall if I already felt wet when Sir first came into the room. I must have been in such a state of hyper-arousal but it was also a strange other-worldly state, as if in a dream. I was feeling so many different things all at once that I could no longer distinguish between anticipation, nervousness, fear, excitement, arousal and probably several other emotions.