Slut interview [A cautionary tale]
Part 1 of a 3-part story of one sub's struggles to find a Dom
Part 1 - initial online contact
Part 2 - remote control games and edging
Part 3 - first meet (rough sex and degradation)
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Island_hopper: "God, I want to make you my bitch so hard. I want to break your mind and make you addicted to my cock. I want to own you."
As if that was so easy, as if I would commit to that after only a few days of talking online.
Katakora: "Tell me why I should let you own me. And tell me how you take care of the property you own."
I was probing him, trying to understand if he knew how to steer a dynamic as powerful as the Master/slave game he was trying to lead us out into, since he first contacted me on the platform a few days earlier.
Island_hopper: "I feel like you're asking this to fuel your fantasy. Listen, if you become my slave it's to serve and obey me and to satisfy my needs. That being said I understand that a slut like you needs a lot of cock. And of course I would sometimes share you."
I was feeling just a little irritated by his tone.
Katakora: "What are you implying? That I won't meet? Or that I have some fantasy about what being your sub would be like. Because I'm only guilty of one of those. And for the record - I'm still trying to get a feel for you. You're pretty full on in your communication. You can be a mean bastard if you like, but I need you to be a caring mean bastard."
The reply came back quickly.
Island_hopper: "No, that's not what I was implying. What I was trying to say is, it would make more sense for you to show me how well you would submit to me than the other way around. And of course, I will use and abuse you, but I will do so in a caring way and never go over your limits."
It had been like this from the start. I had tried to ask some serious questions and he had answered from within the scenario. Of course this was a red flag, but the possibility of a play partner that was local to me made me pursue this. Also his word play had hit me just right and I couldn't deny that his youth and the size of his cock had swayed my middle-aged sensibilities.
I decided that I needed to take a different approach.
Katakora: "If you want to job interview me you can meet me off the ferry at 6 and buy me a drink."
If he wasn't going to answer my questions in a straightforward manner, I'd just have to get him into the room with me. It didn't take long for his answer to come back.
Island_hopper: "I'm still working then, but thanks for the offer."
Another message pinged up.
Island_hopper: "But the thought of you doing an interview with my cock in your mouth turns me on."
Well, this was clearly turning into something I hadn't intended. I was trying to understand his Dom style and get a feel for him. I mean, I was almost certainly going to get a feel for him, but not in the way I had planned.
Katakora: "It's your job opening. So schedule me a time and a place this weekend by all means," I typed.
Island_hopper: "When are you back? You better impress during your interview. What do you plan on wearing?"
He was asking about lingerie of course. I briefly described the options.
Island_hopper: "Hmmm, maybe send me pictures and I'll tell you which one you have to wear."
I groaned mentally at the visual nature of men, but if he was determined to steer this, then I would let him. That was the game after all, wasn't it? Yet I also felt like we were still engaged in a subtle battle of wills. I wanted to get something out of him, when he was already on a course of his own. I knew he wanted to use me, that was clear. He was being demanding and impatient, that was also clear. I just couldn't figure out if it was part of the role or if it was just him.
Katakora: "Yes, sir. Once I'm home," I typed grudgingly.
Island_hopper: "Good girl."
Katakora: "Would you like me to provide a full CV of sexual experience and skills?" I asked, having decided to keep this game interesting.
Island_hopper: "Yes, I'd love that. Add those pictures also."
Katakora: "I'll get right to it, sir."
I amused myself with that exercise, including key dates, experience and competencies, both sexual and specifically BDSM.
Island_hopper: "How's that CV coming along?" He asked not long after.
Katakora: "It's going fine, sir."
An impatient message pinged into my inbox.
Island_hopper: "I think it's time you send it."
I didn't like to be rushed, but impossibly timed challenges were of course a valid strategy for a Dom to degrade his sub. This was entirely congruent with his demanding style.
Katakora: "I can give you the first half, sir," I wrote quickly, feeling a panicky pressure in my belly that he had no right to elicit.
Island_hopper: "Go ahead, slut."
I copied what I had into the message and pressed send.
Katakora: "Curriculum vitae erotica
Katakora aka Kat aka Goodgirlturnedslut (Literotica) aka katakoras_words (Instagram)
1973 - 1993 Catholic youngest daughter, early signs of high libido. Frequent masturbation, role play with Barbies as sex slaves..."
And so it continued. It didn't take him long to read it.
Island_hopper: "Good girl, you put some effort into this. But now it's time to see those different outfits."
Before long another message turned up on my phone. He seemed in one of those quick thinking, quickfire moods that made me wonder at his maturity. Served me right for being drawn in by someone half my age.
Island_hopper: "How would you feel about having your face slapped?"
Katakora: "I've done that and forgot to add it to the CV. Light slapping is fine, but no bruises. I've tried that, I don't want to do it again," I replied, aware of the emotional resonance that followed every time my memories ventured back there.