It was not until I reached my thirties that I, Miriam, began to toy with the idea of pain play in my sexual fantasies. I glimpsed something in myself the time I bit my Paul's neck and then his dick. It started out as a playful bite, gentle almost. He whispered a sigh, and well, his eyes, they seemed to be begging for more. My grip on him tightened and my bite deepened into his flesh. He whimpered a sound raw with an edge of pain. His back arched. His hips thrust up to offer more of himself to me, evoking in me a thrilling delight. My nipples sprouted and my clit ached with the need for something more. It left me with a chilling realization about myself.
Gradually, as we connect on deeper levels, our lovemaking has taken on a darker tint. I have become more vocal and commanding. My orders, rooted in a fiery passion, are starting to come more naturally as I allow myself to feel and become the woman I know I am meant to be. And, though he is broad shouldered and sculptured in muscle, he is becoming more pliant as I maneuver him to positions more characteristic of a submissive. There are times he resists me in our daily life together and in our sex play. But, I seem to have an innate ability to provide solace as his fears surface. I sense the struggle in him, yet to my amazement, his willingness to obey me has become more evident and apparent. I am flexing my dominant muscles.
The call comes as Paul and I are enjoying a debate over coffee. Our friends are leaving for the weekend and need someone to watch their home in the country. Anastasia, my friend and Mistress of the house, is my closest confidant. She is also a mentor to me in the world of domination. She ended the conversation with the phrase "... and of course, Miriam, you will have full use of the amenities."
Zachary and Anastasia are players in the BDSM scene and have a dungeon in their guest quarters. Paul and I had been to play parties at their house on occasion, but always as observers. An odd feeling, a mixture of excitement and anxiety, strikes me as I hang up the phone. Paul and I chatter on a bit awkwardly. The prattle dwindles into a silence laden with anticipation. The day of reckoning is upon us and we both know it instinctively.
The drive to their house is long and ends with our entry into the winding driveway through the fragrant and brilliantly colored gardens. We hold hands as we approach the front door of the house. With a quick glance full of portent, we enter. Paul finishes unpacking before I do. He goes downstairs and I hear muffled sounds as he prepares for our scene. After settling in, I take my time in dressing. The leather corset fits snugly around my firm, ample breasts. I snap the garter to my black-laced thigh high stockings. The deep, dark green of my velvet cape flows behind me as I descend the staircase with a regal air. My hand lifts to settle on his offered elbow, and we walk together to the entrance of the guest quarters.
We find ourselves poised at the doorway to the dungeon. Being a gentleman, he opens the door and with a sweep of his arm ushers me in. I take tentative steps forward into the chamber, a bit daunted by the haunting feeling in the room. My heart is lodged firmly in my throat. Doubts cluster and linger in my mind threatening to drown my will and determination to finally assert my dominance over my lover. In his own way, he has been coaching me for this moment, by giving me subtle hints and clues as to how he wishes to be handled. It will be a test of wills and a test of my willingness to let my inner bitch come through into living flesh.
The dungeon itself is designed to create an aura of mystique and power. The cool stone walls are pierced periodically with steel hooks, sometimes at odd angles. I lower my head and close my eyes to muster up my own courage. The room itself seems to summon my darker side.
I note the strength and resolve evident in his stealthy and sure movements. He steps around me. I tilt my head back and fling the edge of the cape over my shoulder. Taking the hint, he unclasps the brooch at my throat and my cape slips over my shoulders. Goose bumps trail in the wake of his fingertips as they gently brush down my bare caramel arms. The air is energized as the sensual touches trickle down my skin. The smell of frankincense fills the room and the candles he has lit, as I was dressing, flicker. I breathe deeply, calming my racing mind and pounding heart.
He stands behind me for a full minute. Finally, I lift my hand at an angle to my right and snap my fingers.
"Strip."
My voice is soft. He moves not at all. Despite our previous play, he seems conflicted about whether he will obey, or perhaps I am not clear enough in my command.
"I said strip, slut. Strip slow and easy. NOW slut!" I repeat in a voice not so quiet and one full of determination and indignation.
When I look up, he has moved to the center of the room and is standing at the foot of the bed. He begins the slow strip tease. His movements are sluggish at first, as he seems unsure of himself. With a quickening pace the buttons come undone. The soft powder blue of his shirt shimmers for a brief instant as he tosses it casually aside. My gaze, intense, is fixed on drinking in the sight of him gradually peeled naked before me. Urged by my obvious fascination, he sways his hips and turns to show off his scrumptious ass. As he rises to face me again, fully naked now, our eyes meet. My fingers curl invitingly. Heeding the beckoning call, he approaches me with his hands shyly covering the twitching bob of his cock. My head tilts back slightly as my spine straightens. Rising lust intensifies in me drawing me to my full height. My hands slip over the curves of his shoulders on either side of his neck. With a gentle pressure I command him to kneel, my hands guiding him to the floor before me. He looks up to me as I gaze into the azure of his eyes. Suddenly overwhelmed with surging emotion I pull him close and cradle his head in my belly. I am feeling a mixture of gratitude and love, yet at the back of my mind is the urge to overpower and overwhelm. I bend down to comb my fingers through his hair and kiss the top of his head. He breathes a sigh.
"I am yours," his voice, sure and steady, rises up to me.
Drawing strength from his words, "You are mine, my treasure and love," I reply.