I can imagine working. I really am, you know, getting work done. Between bite size chunks of real stuff, I take these... breaks. For funzies. That's all. I'm not too busy today. When I am, I don't really get on my naughty email, but, today, I'm not so busy. I'm waiting on things from, well, from all over the place. A guy on the West Coast is hunting down a particular inspector to get more details for me on an off-hand comment from a report from last November. A girl in one of our facilities is sifting through some logistical data for me. A few guys in drafting are working through about 20 pages of comments I gave them on a recent document we were going to publish. A few pieces of my own work are still making their way through the building for general review. So, today, I'm just catching up on the small stuff.
Like my emails. ^.^
In fact, I've been catching up on so many that, well, let's just say it's good I don't have any real work to do, because I certainly wouldn't be able to concentrate on it!
In spite of the weather, which is ever changing these past few weeks, I went with a skirt again today. Partly because, well, I don't have that many professional looking pants, and partly because I knew I didn't have much work to do. So I wanted to be prepared in case he emailed me with another... request.
And he did.
I glance back, my ears sharp for footsteps as I log in. I skim my inbox, seeing his name at the top. Opening it, my face may be white, but I already feel flush. I always do when I do my naughty emails at work, but this time... I bite my lip. I can do that, I smirk to myself, clicking the "Mark as unread" option. Footsteps! I alt+tab over to a spec document I have open in acrobat as cover.
I roll back in my chair, smiling friendly-like at my passing coworker before I get up and head to the ladies' room. In the stall, I pull up the sides of my slim skirt, hooking my thumbs into my panties and swiftly slipping them off. I bite my lip again, looking around the empty stall. I hadn't planned this very well, and I didn't have anywhere to put them.
But I'm quite determined to take my bra off, too, just like he'd asked. The burning between my thighs will definitely make certain that gets done.
I reach up inside the back of my sweater, unhooking my bra. With some effort, I manage to pull each shoulder strap out and around my arms, leaving the cups loosely fixed to my breasts by the tightness of the red knit. The bra can wait there for now, and I can probably ball up the panties small enough to stay out of sight in my hand.
Okay, I'm ready to go back. I can easily slip both into my purse once I get to my cube. I can do this.
God, I have to do this... if I don't get out of this stall, my skirt is definitely not going to stay down for long...
I make my way back to my cube. I'm halfway down the straight hall that ends at my desk when I get waylaid by a guy in another group. I'm taking one of their work items right now, because they're so busy. He's just been through my comments on it, the ones that the drafting department is looking at, and he wants to make sure the scope meets their overall philosophy on the project. The very unique philosophy that their project is so freaking far behind that they need to push this stuff out the door, no matter how crappy it is. I know that, and I tell him that my comments were seriously reduced in scope for that reason, and only the really technically necessary stuff is being done.
I keep my fingers tight. My bra hangs loosely. I can feel it as he gibbers on, ever so slightly yet ever so obviously out of place. Maybe not to him, though. I glance down the hall at my cube, and you walk by it, my manager. You seem to be looking for me as you peer in. You pause, then step up to my computer.
Oh fuck.
I stare down at you as you look at my monitor for a few seconds. My hand is tight around my panties, my pussy suddenly burning again. This guy is still talking, and I'm still agreeing. You step out of my cube, spotting me down the hall. You look straight at me, then point from me to your office, marching in. I lick my lips. I tell this guy I've gotta go, and gently push off. I don't realize I just pressed my panties against him until I'm almost to my cube, and I forget it almost instantly when I see my screen.
Fucking Gmail.
I love Gmail, it's pretty slick. It got a great user interface, and I love the way it saves drafts and such. I use the draft feature quite a lot, in fact, to keep working copies of my stories easily accessible, with a super-reliable auto-save. But it has one extremely annoying feature: whenever the inbox reloads, say, right after you've mark an email as "unread," the Gmail tab pops to the front of your desktop. Even if you have acrobat running a spec on top of it to hide that very inbox.
That very inbox that my boss had just read. That very inbox my boss had clearly just clicked on the first email in. That very email that had just left me standing here with a tightly balled handful.
"Cindy, can you come in here for a moment?" I'm standing just outside your door, staring at my computer screen.
"Yes..." I meekly step in, putting my hands behind my back, standing in front of you.
"Could you close the door, Cindy?" You nod, directing me, and I turn, softly closing the latch, hidden now behind the frosted glass.
I stand there, panic stricken, the balled panties in my fist, my bra embarrassingly askew under my sweater.
It's not, like, you're not a slave driver. You're awesome, really. I'm constantly badgering you about the most inane details, and you always take my questions seriously. You're a great manager, a leader even. It makes me want to do a better job, because you set that standard. A consummate professional.
And now, well. Now I've let you down. I am, quite clearly, unprofessional.
"Take a seat, Cindy." I lick my lips and sit at the little conference table you have crammed into your office in front of your desk. The whole building is like this, tiny and cramped. Having an enclosed office at all is a pretty high mark. And there's meetings constantly going on in here. That conference table is well used, as cramped as it is.
My hands are under it now, hidden from your view. I loosen my grip, nervously playing with the panties I'm almost positive you know I've taken off.
After a second of quiet, you speak. "Cindy, it's important to have a delineation between our personal and professional lives."
I choke. God, you know. Of course you know, I know you know, you opened that email, you read it. But now, now it's concrete, now it's real. Now, it's like, you've said you know.
"When we're in the workplace, it's important to maintain a level of professionalism not only as a reflection of the organization, but to ensure our actions are considered by others as taken with due technical expertise." You pause and I swallow, my eyes wide, my heart thudding with each beat in my chest.
"Over the past year, I've gotten the impression that, when tasked with something, you genuinely take ownership. You ensure you have not only the necessary level of technical knowledge before you act, but that those actions have the breadth of scope and insight to more than simply react to issues. You're proactive, and you find solutions."
I nod, still toying nervously with the panties under the table. My breathing is shallow, and I'm having trouble processing what you're saying. Are you saying I'm good at my job?