Early on in our marriage, when our BDSM kink was firmly established, I had outfitted a spare bedroom with essential tools for our purposes -- a four-post bed equipped with restraints, a special bench for the same purpose, a massage table, chains suspended from the ceiling, and accessories such as paddles, floggers of different types, feathers, clamps, anal plugs, and blindfolds. Not a completely furnished torture dungeon by any means, but all we needed for our brand of relatively light, gentle play.
In that room, my wife and I had spent many wonderful hours of emotional and sexual bliss over the years. Only Beth and I had ever seen inside the room. It had not even been shown to Rachel, although she did exhibit some curiosity here and there about what might be behind the locked "mystery door." She well knew in general what the room was for, but, as with her parents' sex life, she knew none of the details. When I moved to Blanksville, I dismantled the room and brought everything with me, re-assembling it in a room in my present house. The new room, to that point, had been locked and never been used, and I entered it only to maintain its cleanliness.
In my dream that night, Beth was loosely restrained in the bed, lying on her stomach, blindfolded but not gagged, her wrists and ankles comfortably fastened in soft leather straps attached to each post. We were both naked. From my vantage point from above, my body seemed to dominate her smaller one. I am just under six feet tall, and Beth was small by comparison, barely 5 feet tall and maybe 100 pounds. And whereas my skin was slightly tanned in color, hers was pearly white, as if completely pure and untouched. The overall contrast presented a stark, visually symbolic illustration of our respective roles as dominant and submissive. The scene was so vivid, I remembered it clearly after I awakened, and indeed still to this day.
I was kneeling on the bed beside my bound wife, with my favorite riding crop in my hand. I was punishing her with the crop, using strokes just hard enough to create a little pain, but not too much. I gave her a stroke or two on each ass cheek, then I would stop and rub the cheeks a little. Beth would alternate between a loud "Ugh" when being whipped, to a moan or a coo when being caressed. I repeated the pattern several times, Beth increasing her squirming within her loose confines, becoming more aroused as we went on.
Finally, one time after I caressed her cheeks, I dipped a hand down in-between her slightly open thighs, running a finger up and down her slit, all the way from her clitoris to her asshole. She was already soaking wet, and my finger glided easily along her entire length. After three or four times up and down like that, I brought my finger up so I could taste her slick juices, at the same time resuming the spanking/caressing pattern. After a few more cycles of that, I again dipped the finger down into her crevice, this time stopping to briefly rub her clit, then to enter her with the finger, swirling it around. Her moaning was getting louder now. I heard her breathe out "Oh yes, Daddy" several times as I again repeated my finger action at her core several more times.
I went back to the spanking and caressing, and then to the fingering, each time spending a longer time rubbing her slick spend all over her inflamed clit and its surrounding area, while now inserting two fingers into her vagina, curling them downward to briefly, tantalizingly, touch her G-spot. At this point she was panting "Please Daddy, I need you" over and over.
I wasn't quite finished, though. I resumed one more round of spanking and rubbing, eliciting a frustrated groan from my beautiful, bound wife. But, as she again got into the alternating cycles of abuse and gentle care, she was softly groaning, each sound lasting the entire duration of my caresses of her tender backside. When I again ran my hand down her cleft, she shuddered against her restraints, pushing her entire torso up against my fingers as hard as she could. On my second or third trip into her pussy with my two fingers, she gushed more liquid as she came to her release, squeezing my fingers inside her depths for a moment or two.
As she came down from her delicious high, I continued to gently touch her front wall, again rubbing her G-spot softly. At this moment, she breathed out "Oh God, fuck me Daddy. Please fuck my naughty little pussy." I responded in a low voice, "What's that? Tell me what you want, babygirl, louder." At that, she practically screamed "FUCK ME DADDY. NOW. PLEASE."
Never one to ignore such an urgent request by such a beautiful lady, I removed my hand from her soaked cunt, moving behind her and hiking her torso up as high as the restraints allowed, which from experience was set just high enough to afford us the best angle for penetration. My penis was a steel pipe in my other hand. Just to add a little bit more to the scene, I asked her one last time, "How do you want to be fucked, babygirl?" Beth told me loudly, in a voice full of lust, "Hard. Deep. Pound it home, Daddy. Give me all of your hard cock. Ram it inside of me. Make me feel every bit of you. Make me cum so hard on your big Daddy cock. Please. NOW!"
I lined myself up with her dripping hole, and in one motion I gave her what she had asked for, in one wonderfully satisfying motion driving as deep as my seven inches would go, our pubes meeting as I bottomed. She responded with a long, drawn-out wail, "Ohhhh YEEEESSSS DADDY!" I pumped my prick as fast as I could in and out of her juicy cunt, while at the same time my hands on her hips forced her body back toward mine, in rhythm on each stroke. My only thought at this point was making the two of us orgasm together. It didn't take her long, as she gave a long screech and her vaginal walls grabbed me with impossible tightness. A couple more trips through that vise-like grip was all I could take, and I felt that ecstatic tingling in my groin, and I threw my head back as my cock pumped a fresh load of my semen deep into my wife's receptive depths.
At that, I suddenly woke up from my dream, fully aroused. So aroused that I didn't think of where I was, or when. I thrust my hand inside my shorts, grabbing my hot smooth rod. It was harder than I think it had been in years. Without even thinking, I wrapped my hand around it, pumping it savagely, as fast and as hard as I could, visions of my highly erotic dream still fresh in my mind. I was imagining fucking my darling Beth, my lovely little babygirl, in the most vigorous and brutal way I could, pumping her depths full of cum as I just had in my dream.
In no more than thirty seconds, I came violently, shooting my load repeatedly inside my shorts and all over my hand, until I was completely spent. I withdrew my hand from my shorts, wiped it dry on my T-shirt, while waiting for my labored breath to return to normal. I had no energy to move, get up, or get myself cleaned up. I turned to my side and slowly drifted off into a deep, peaceful sleep, not waking up until mid-morning.
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When I finally awakened, got out of bed, and went into my bathroom to relieve myself, I couldn't pull my shorts down without painfully tearing pubic hair out. As I wet the front of my shorts in an attempt to loosen some of the dried spunk, my mind finally caught up, recalling what had happened in the middle of the night.
You can be assured that I did some heavy thinking that day. I reflected back on my life together with Beth, particularly the times we spent playing in the bedroom and in the "special" room. I was always aware of the impact all of it had on me, but was it possible, even at that, I might have actually been UNDERestimating my need for and my dependence on the activity we enjoyed together?
Sure, I had dreams about Beth periodically. Who wouldn't after 38 happy years together? But by and large, those were dreams about doing everyday things, where she was still alive, with me, and just a piece of the tableau of the dream, part of a pleasant little remembrance.
But the vivid one I had had the night before was a whole different matter. I didn't only see what we were doing in that room, I FELT it, down to my marrow. I was re-living the hot, erotic sexual play with my wife that I had reveled in for so long, but could never again have. I experienced it deep in my sleep, it affected me physiologically while I slept, it left me in such a state of arousal and horniness, that when I suddenly woke up from it, I was still so absorbed in it that, in that moment, all I knew is that I had to somehow get my cock back into her pussy, or at least into whatever most closely approximated it, at once. The best way I could understand it was that reliving our sex life in such striking detail created in me a sudden animalistic craving to have my pleasure, at that moment, by whatever means was available, and damn the setting or the consequences.
Frankly, the intensity of that dream and its aftermath frightened me -- as well as the extent to which I was literally out of control for a short time. I had never been one to give into primitive impulses so readily. Growing up, I had a measured, reasoned approach to everything modeled quite well for me by both my parents, well-matched as low-key individuals in white-collar positions, as well as several good friends I was fortunate to have. I had, without exception, always conducted my relationships with Beth and Rachel, as well as those with friends and at work, with caution and restraint, always carefully considering what was truly best for all involved.
Later that day, I came to the conclusion my subconscious was telling me something that my conscious mind had tamped down since Beth's illness and death. And that was that not only did I want a new Dom-sub relationship, but that I NEEDED one. The dream had sent me the unmistakable message that, without one, there was a hole in my life, the depth of which I had not even been fully aware.
I called Rachel that very evening, after she was home from work, giving her an executive summary of the dream and its impact, obviously leaving out the most intimate parts. I told her I'd given it a lot of thought, that I'd decided that going forward with finding a Dom-sub relationship was important to me, and that I wanted to go full-speed-ahead. It sounded like she was happy to hear that, and if I had ever had any doubt as to my daughter's love for me and her concern for my happiness, her reaction to my decision certainly dispelled any such misgivings. Despite her assurances to me the previous evening that she was completely comfortable with her role in this little scheme we were planning, I made her promise to again carefully consider her risks, before sharing any information with me that could potentially get her in trouble if any of her actions in that regard was ever discovered.