"Whether we get the extra shares or not the game will soon be over, how do you feel about it?"
Her answer was hesitant, unsure of whether he would want to hear the response. "I've been thinking about that a lot lately and I don't know if I'll be glad when it's over. I mean some of the things they've done to me I thought were awful at the time but I'm okay and looking back on them they don't seem so bad. To start with I just felt humiliated, like that first time with Shaun Cooper, god I could have died, and it wasn't even necessary." Andrew started to snigger, and she joined in. "I know it seems funny now, but it wasn't at the time. Anyway, as they made me do more and more stuff, it all seemed to change. It was still bloody embarrassing of course, but it was a bit of a turn on as well. I even began to look forward to finding out what would happen to me next."
"I've seen the change," Andrew said, "You seem more...I don't know...contented, happy, at ease with yourself. Look on the bright side though, you won't be looking over your shoulder all the time, wondering whether something nasty is going to happen to you."
"Is that the bright side? I kind of enjoy not knowing and always wondering. And what about us? You've been a big part in this and I love you being in on their plans and part of my...what should I say...treatment, and not once have you made me feel like some sort of freak or weirdo." She placed her hand on the back of his, then added, "That means a lot to me."
"So 'normal' life doesn't hold the same appeal then?" Andrew asked.
"We had great lives before the game and we will when it's all over. I love the things we do, our jobs, our social life and everything." It's just that..." she paused, careful to choose her words and not wanting to seem dissatisfied. "...since we started this I've felt so...I don't know, alive I suppose. I know that sounds like bullshit but it's true. I've 'felt' more. They may not have been good feelings all the time, like embarrassment from being seen naked, anger at being raped or the absolute fear at that auction, but they were so deep, and I'll miss that." She stopped and looked at Andrew. "I'm not putting it very well but do you know what I'm saying? I suppose I'll miss the excitement of it all."
"Any regrets?" he asked. She thought for a few moments.
"No. I hated some of the things that were done to me and at times I even hated you for being part of it. But soon after, I loved hating them and I loved hating you and I'd even look forward to hating you again."
"Anyway," Andrew said, "It's out of our hands. All we can do is wait and hope he points you in the direction of that last pawn before he calls it a day."
46
For Laura, Tuesday at work followed much the same pattern as Monday, catching up with clients, finishing outstanding proposals and chasing printers, designers and manufacturers. She felt like she was chasing the whole world and she wasn't in the mood for it. She was constantly on edge, snappy for no reason and full of apprehension.
Every time the phone rang, her heartbeat increased and she felt a tightening in her throat. Each and every time it had been business, a friend or Andrew, never the one she both desired and dreaded in equal measure: the call from Weston. She would still be unsure of her preference, even when it came--a final challenge for the pawn or the disappointment of completion?
On Wednesday afternoon, just when she was considering phoning Weston herself, Abbie knocked on her door. Laura's heart raced, Abbie wouldn't knock unless they had a visitor.
"There's a Grace Edwards here to see you, shall I show her in?" Laura was put off balance. Grace showing up was something she hadn't considered.
"Yes, please do." Abbie showed her in and hesitated to leave, as desperate as Laura to find out what was happening. "Grace how nice to see you, please take a seat." Remaining where she was she smiled warmly; Laura liked her a lot. The formal clothing suited her and the bun sitting high on her head gave her the no nonsense personal assistant look she so admired.
"Thank you but that won't be necessary, Mr Weston has asked me to escort you to his office. There's a taxi waiting outside." Laura panicked. He'd finished the game before she had even been given a chance to retrieve the pawn. The bastard, how could he.
"But I can't, he can't, I mean that's not fair. I don't have the last piece." She knew she sounded whiney and she thought she might cry, so great was her disappointment. "Please Grace, go back and ask him to give me a chance at the pawn--please." She turned to Abbie, desperate for help. "Abbie tell her I can get the piece with just a little more time, tell her this isn't fair." Abbie looked bewildered and remained where she was, lost for words.
"He's sent me for you. I'm sure he won't like to be questioned about it. Now if you don't mind getting undressed and put that on and we can leave." She passed Laura a cape similar to the one she had worn the previous Friday.
"Why have I got to wear that?" Laura began to get more and more vocal, raising her voice. "I suppose he wants one last dig at me, one last humiliation before he casts me to one side? Well I'm not playing his stupid games any more, I'll tell him what I think of him and his bloody game. Come on Grace." As she made her way to the door Abbie stopped her.
"Laura, don't," she shouted, "that's what he expects. If you go storming in there ranting and raving he'll have beaten you. Show him that you're strong, that you can take whatever he dishes out. Don't let him win." A silence hung in the air as all three looked at each other. Laura pondered Abbie's words and thought she may have been right. If he was just finishing the game why would he want her to wear the cape. Maybe there was a chance that she was being directed to the last pawn. She thought it was worth taking the risk.
Walking back to her desk she took off her jacket, skirt and blouse, folding and placing them in a neat pile. She reached behind to undo the clasp on her bra before leaning forward to let it fall down her arms, freeing her breasts.
"You can keep the stockings and heels," Grace said, before taking a pair of handcuffs from her bag. She walked behind Laura and waited for her to put her wrists together behind her back. With the cuffs in place Abbie helped Laura into the cape. It seemed shorter than the previous one and would certainly show her stocking tops when she walked. Despite her irritation the thought excited Laura.
"If this is just one of his games I'll be bloody furious you know," she told Grace.
"I know," Grace said in a soft voice, with more than a hint of sympathy, "come on you might as well get there and find out sooner than later."
The journey in the taxi didn't take long and the two women hardly spoke. Laura spent the time working out why she got so annoyed. They had discussed the possible outcomes and, as Andrew said, they would be no worse off than they were before the whole thing started. The worst thing that could happen was that Weston would keep his share. But that wasn't it she realised, it wasn't the shares--she didn't want it to finish. Sitting in a taxi, naked but for a cape thrilled her, knowing it would be for the last time annoyed and disappointed her.
All too soon they reached their destination. Unlike on her previous visit Laura used the front door. She felt no shame when an innocent passer by stared at the way she was dressed, instead she felt a strange pride.
Grace warmly greeted the young girl behind the desk, asking if there had been any problems. There was nothing to report. She told the girl she wouldn't be long and led Laura along the corridor to Weston's office.
He sat in one of the comfortable armchairs by the French doors reading some papers. In true gentlemanly fashion he stood as the ladies entered and left the papers on one side of the otherwise empty desk. "Hello Laura, good of you to come," he said, his tone more restrained than his usual polite fashion, reflecting the uneasy atmosphere in the room.
"I couldn't stay away," she said deciding to try a 'couldn't care less' approach. Weston just smiled, no doubt guessing her ploy.
"Please, take a seat," he said, indicating one of the high backed formal chairs facing his desk. With the handcuffs and cape proving a hindrance she found it difficult to sit. "It's quite warm in here, I'm sure she'd be more comfortable without that Grace, thank you." After removing the cape Grace asked if she would be needed for anything else. "I think a coffee would be rather pleasant, how about you Laura?" Knowing she would have to ask for the cuffs to be removed Laura decided to decline the offer and not give him the satisfaction of being able to refuse.
"So why am I here then?" Laura asked, feeling a little braver.