She looked sad. "No. I guess it's a turn on that's not portable," she said. "Fuck." She reached for my face and dug her toes into my cleanshaven cheek.
"You're not stuck on me or anything. No body language at all suggesting it. You're having a heavy, confusing, fun experience. That's positive and it's also trauma. Your brain is rewiring. You're having the sex you've craved all your life, but with a man, and you've only had bad sex with men in high school so far. So are you bisexual?
"No. Even though there's nothing like having a straight man suck my toes."
"How can you be so sure?" She looked on the edge of something. Crying maybe.
I punched her shoulder. Rubbed it with my knuckles.
"I'm just sure. Trust me until you get sure your own way. You're having fun, enjoy it until you don't. Love it if it lasts."
"You just want to keep your fetish star for your clipstore."
"It's our store now, or it's revenues are. For all the clips you've cocreated."
"That's cool," she said, looking askance at me, avoiding eye contact. She was just a little taller than I was, I realized.
"Do you want hit me?" she asked.
She stood up, naked, at the foot of the bed. She stood tall and proud, hands at her sides. She waited, smiling. I walked toward her to do anything but. I noted her body language stayed calm as I approached. Maybe she could tell I wasn't going to hit her.
"Are you let down? Did I let you down?"
"No way, Old Man. It was a test. I wanted to determine if you were a monster like I thought. You passed. But I still think you're a monster. I just need a better test."
"And if I had hit you?"
"That would have been something. You know I'm blackbelt and I've been punched and kicked more of less continually throughout my life."
"That's tough talk. Anyone can be victimized. Just to be menaced by another's flagrant ill will is a kind of bullying. If I'd so much as attempted to hurt you outside of what I had a feel for, that felt safe for you, and me, felt fun--well, that would have upset you. How could that kind of recklessness not?
"Why don't you talk to my pussy?"
"You're bold. Keep being that way. Now, open up a little, and give me a little room to get comfortable."
I spread her long legs, took one of her feet, gave it a languorous kiss on the arch, then I moved into her pelvis, and hugged my cheek against her labia, snuggled against it.
"What are you doing?" she asked.
"Wasting your time?"
"Eat my pussy, Old Man." Strong hands forced my lips into her clitoris. I licked. First a tongue bath of the small area, then some focussed teasing of her bead with my tongue tip.
"Keep doing that," she hissed.
I kept doing it.
"Now you've lost it,"
"Sorry."
"Eat!"
"I started a much slower rhythm which made her whole body relax. She was enjoying it but was never going to come from this pace, this stroke.
"Enjoying?"
"Talking again! Fuck!"
"Sorry," I declared. It was not a real apology. I talk.
"I want to talk about how good you taste and how nicely your come spreads on my face. Here, look, a thin strand of your come is dangling from my eyebrow."
Her foot was on my chest. I felt her small, pretty toes examining my pectoral muscle. She was working her pussy herself.
"You know, with you, I don't think I care if we take all afternoon to come. This is just fun."
"Let me give you a proper taste. I stepped down on her breasts, flattening her on my bed, then I gingerly eased my big toe into Erin's pussy. I got all the way in with a snug, oily fit. I wiggled my toe inside her, up and down, to both sides, tried to find some surface I could stroke. Settled on down and pressed down on her with the pad of my toe. She moaned. I slipped my toe out and pushed it past her half closed teeth, ignoring her protests. She sucked. Cleaned my toe and polished it.
"Good?"
"Always. And getting fed it off a guy's toe is interesting."
"Interesting. Sounds clinical."
"I am a psyche major."
"You could just have an ordinary experience, older man eats your pussy and maybe makes you come. Or you could try door B."
"Door B. Always for me. You know that, Old Man."
I flipped her over onto her belly. I pulled my pillow down for her head, then sat on her pelvis. I stroked her wavy hair, caressed her back. "First of all, I love eating you. I'll eat you until I find your way, and you probably sense I like to eat for a long time. I like to please. If I can, I like to make a woman come with my mouth first before even getting to orgasms from sex."
I felt her body stiffen a little. She felt something threatening coming, or something she couldn't see. "I don't mean sex for us. I mean the primacy of oral for me. The artistry is in the mouth. I love to learn to please someone. But I have something else in store for you for plan B."