The new King was impotent and I, his new Queen, was to accept an unknown male to conceive an heir. My duty.
That the King could not fulfill his matrimonial duties was both surprise and disappointment. Everyone, including me, assumed his virility beyond question. And I had accepted that I would submit to him, my first, immediately after the wedding. Instead, I would be supplied a surrogate to both take my maidenhood and fill me with viable seed.
"You may think me a tyrant," he said, standing at my bedside, "but I cannot afford to be insensitive to my duties. The kingdom expects an heir and I, we, will provide one."
"But couldn't you just..." I wanted him to take my virginity, not relinquish it to some unknown who'd boast about it for years.
"No," he said. "And don't ask why."
The 'why' was that my maidenhead was part of the payment. I just nodded to him, heartbroken but resigned.
Suddenly, I felt sorry for him. If I hadn't truly loved him before, I did at least respect him. "I'm sorry you must do this," I said.
He turned away.
I was heartbroken.
He faced me again, eyes watering.
I felt the sadness.
"I'm sorry," he said. "A King should never show emotion."
Yet he had. To me. I reached for his hand squeezed it. "His Queen," I said, "understands the burden you shoulder."
He nodded. "Such kindness. I am touched. Therefore, I will proceed with my plan with a lighter heart. After your monthly times cease, the nightly visits will stop," he said. "However, his identity must remain unknown to you. To that end, I have given Gwyneth special instructions. You're to follow them without question."
Gwyneth was my lady-in-waiting. "So she knows of him?"
He shook his head. "She knows only that it's my request, and that I prefer women so prepared. You mustn't enlighten her."
"Prepared how?"
He turned away. "Just do as I ask," he said. He faced me again. "Please, for the sake of the kingdom."
I nodded. What choice did I have? "I will comply."
He bent down and kissed me on the forehead. "Thank you. You will be richly rewarded. And, I promise to frequent your bed often, though congress will be fruitless."
"And I will welcome those times," I said.
He smiled. "I hope so."
"Is my lover to visit me shortly?" No matter who he was, I would find him distasteful.
"After I retire."
So soon? "I'll... I'll be fine," I said.
He nodded. "In the morning, as far as anyone is concerned, our first meeting was most satisfactory."
Abruptly, he left my chamber.
In the sudden silence that followed, I wondered why, of all the eligible women in the kingdom, he had chosen me as Queen. Had he thought me the most receptive, most tractable, to what he surely knew must be done. What, in my past, had assured him of this? But nothing of substance came as answer.
My visitor must also possess a special talent or trait. He would be virile, of proven ability. Hence, our offspring would have half-brothers or sisters. Once entwined, our unique gifts would complement each other's and assure both successful and unrevealed couplings.
Still, I mourned the loss of my prized asset, my virginity, to a man I would never know, never love, and one forbidden to raise his own child.
I was washed and powdered, combed and braided. More importantly, she instructed me in the expectations of menโmy knowledge of them sorely lacking. Gwyneth's eye-opening descriptions shocked me.
As blue blooded and negotiable currency, I had been chaperoned since puberty. Now, barely concealed beneath a finely laced nightdress, the moment had come. It just wasn't the moment I had dreamt about.
"These extra preparations our King talks about, are they onerous?"
"You're to simply lie and accept," she said, quickly glancing away, then faced me again. "You'll have no choice."
"So I've been told."
Gwyneth shook her head. "It's more than that, milady. You're to be fastened to the bed and blindfolded. I'm sorry."
I was sorry too. "You're to do this to me?"