"Well, I didn't want to bother him", indicated Sally, looking down at the floor. Dr. Allen was asking her about Vincent.
In an attempt to get more background information on his new patient, Dr. Allen asked where Sally was currently living. He soon found out that she was renting a room in a boarding house in a quiet area of town. Among her fellow boarders was a young man named, Vincent. His room was right next to hers up on the 2nd floor of the huge Victorian house managed and owned by Mrs. Perry. Vincent was a graduate student who chose to attend university in a different state from where his parents lived. Sally confessed that she had a crush on the young man when he first moved into the room next to hers. She described him as a tall, lanky, polite young man with ruddy skin and quite a prominent Adam's apple. When she first laid eyes on him, Sally thought he was exceptionally handsome.
"He sounds like a nice enough young man", Dr. Allen opined.
"Well, he likes Mary", Sally quickly retorted.
"Who's Mary?"
"She's the pretty blonde girl in the room down the hall", replied Sally with a slight tinge of sadness.
"Oh", answered Dr. Allen. Perhaps he might now be cluing in on why Sally chose a homeless alcoholic to be her lover, instead of a "normal" boy who outwardly seemed better suited for her. He decided to probe further.
"How do you know Vincent likes Mary?"
"Well, one weekend, I left out of town to visit my aunt, and when I came back, Mary told me Vincent had been following her around the house like a puppy-dog. That means he likes her and not me", said Sally, quite sure of the conclusion she had reached about Vincent.
Before Dr. Allen could even prompt her to provide more information, Sally continued, "Actually, while I was away that weekend, I was getting up the nerve to ask him out for coffee, because I thought he might just be too shy to ask a girl out. I thought for one split second that he might like me, but that he just needed a little nudge in the right direction. After Mary told me what happened during the weekend, though, I realized he wasn't shy at all. He just didn't like me; simple as that."
In classic therapist style, Dr. Allen asked, "How did that make you feel?"
"It's okay. I understand. Mary's pretty, has a nice body, and has loads of friends. I couldn't possibly compete with someone like that. Of course Vincent likes her and not me. It just confirms why God made me the way I am."
"The way you are", Dr. Allen repeated, so that Sally would continue with her thought.
"Yes, like I told you already, God didn't make me attractive or charming. At one time, I thought, perhaps I should become a nun, and devote myself to the church, even though I'm not really religious. But the problem with that, though, is that I'm a very sexual person. I mean, God made me very sexual, and someone like me doesn't really belong in a church. So for a while, I was really confused. Why would God make me unattractive, but at the same time extremely sexual? What was I to do? Afterwards, though, I said my special prayer, and that was when Damian appeared".
Dr. Allen was beginning to understand Sally's seemingly bizarre actions. Perhaps a bit of additional prodding would make her reveal the story behind the welts on her back. Dr. Allen decided to inquire specifically about Damian. "Tell me about Damian's personality."
Sally's eyes were suddenly shining, and she was now off on what seemed like a never-ending rant. "Oh Damian's wonderful! He's the best lover in the world! He's kind, gentle, understanding, masculine, honest, funny, sexy, mysterious, confident and well, perfect! He's the most perfect gentleman I've ever met!"
Dr. Allen took note of one of the adjectives Sally used in particular.
"You say Damian's masculine? How so?"
"Well, he's very calm, and never raises his voice at me. But when we're fucking, he takes charge. He knows exactly what to do; and he lets me suck on his cock as long as I want..."
Dr. Allen, feeling his own rock hard penis tenting out his pants again, tried to maintain objective focus on the issue at hand.
"Does he ever use physical force on you?" he questioned, trying his best to sound nonchalant.
"No, he's never violent. I told you, he's a gentleman."
"Well, when you said that he takes charge, I thought you meant..."
Sally cut him off, "No, he doesn't ever intentionally hurt me. He just knows how to make me feel good. He knows how to eat me out; he eats me out like I'm the tastiest fruit in the world. And then he fucks me crazy. I mean, when he rams his cock into me, I'm like, screaming my head off because he's so big. But he doesn't ignore my needs. He waits for my pussy to stretch out first, and then he pounds me like he's lost his mind. And he gets so hard for me. All he has to do is look into my eyes, and he gets hard. I mean, can you imagine what that does to a girl like me? How sexy that makes me feel? It's such an amazing feeling, I can't even describe it."
Dr. Allen's dick was stiff as ever, pointing straight up and ready to take off like a rocket, so he stayed planted firm in his chair behind his mahogany desk. It was obvious that Sally worshiped Damian, who in all other situations seemed unworthy of such blind adoration. Dr. Allen felt like he was steering towards somewhat of a dead end with Sally singing her lover's praises. Perhaps he should try a more direct approach at this point. While Sally was still floating in dreamland, her eyes still gazing upwards, Dr. Allen decided to become more forthcoming.
"Sally, I'm going to ask you a direct question. Now, I understand if you need some time before answering it, or if you don't want to answer it at all, but I still need to ask it, alright?"
"It's alright. Go ahead."
"Abby, your co-worker, mentioned she saw your back a little while ago. Those welts on your back, Sally, how did you get those welts?" Just as soon as he had uttered the question, however, Dr. Allen felt he had struck a raw nerve, because Sally's sunny gaze suddenly dimmed ten-fold, and she quickly cast her eyes downward.
After what seemed an eternity, she finally spoke. Without looking up, she solemnly declared, "I don't want to answer that question."
Dr. Allen immediately regretted his decision to be direct with his new patient. After a few additional moments of complete silence, Sally quietly stood up, picked up her purse, and walked out of her therapist's office. Seconds later, Dr. Allen heard his front office door open and slam shut.
Oh well, he thought, it had at least been worth a try. He had needed to get to the bottom of things, so he momentarily took a chance with a different approach. Now, kicking himself for being uncharacteristically hasty, he lost himself in deep thought; he was jolted out of his pensive zone by the "beep, beep, beep, beep" that signaled the end of the session.
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"It's ok, I understand", Sally said in a demure voice. It was a phrase she found herself often uttering these days. Somehow, she had been obliged to repeat these words yet again; she was now beginning to sound like a broken record.
Why Sally had even agreed to be set up on a blind date again was beyond her own better judgment. She had experienced her fair share of disappointing dates and rejection engineered by a meddling third party; but Auntie seemed so hopeful and excited for her to meet this "nice young man who's really honest and sensitive", that about the thirteenth time she was pestered about it, Sally was finally worn down. She reckoned that her aunt would keep insisting on the meeting until Sally gave in, so she reluctantly agreed to meet the "nice young man".
While waiting for "the nice young man" to show up, Sally thought to herself, "I've already met the man God wants me to be with, so what I am doing agreeing to this blind date? Oh right, to make Auntie happy and finally get her off my back."