"I don't want to bother them", Sally said in a meek, almost inaudible voice. She looked down at her shoes, unable to meet Dr. Allen's eyes. To continue avoiding his eyes further, she looked out the window off to her right, observing the cars passing by. They were busily stopping and charging across the intersection in accordance with the traffic lights, apparently in a rush to get to another red light.
Sally had been referred to Dr. Allen by her co-worker, Abby, who was desperate to find the young girl help for her "problem". Abby, an office colleague in her early 50's, was alarmed when she finally found out what Sally had meant by the phrase, "I'm going to see my guy tonight."
Abby had always felt responsible for, and a little protective of Sally, who was young enough to be her daughter. After having known the quiet girl for a little more than a year, one normal August work day, Abby noticed little welts on Sally's shoulders.
Sally was the exceptionally quiet girl who sat at the corner of the company's vast office area, always busily filing paperwork. That summer day had been excruciatingly hot, and as luck would have it, the office air conditioning had broken down again. This soon had every employee peeling off clothes to some extent, some even ending up in their tank tops, disregarding the dress code that was usually strictly enforced. Sally had ended up no different. At first, she tried to stay fully dressed and "decent", but after hours of sweating profusely in her stuffy little corner of the office, she gave up, and shed her gray blouse to reveal a modest camisole worn over a cotton bra.
Although the impressive mountain of file folders heaped on her desk provided somewhat of a barricade, blocking full view of "Sally exposed", her disrobing had nevertheless revealed a small part of her back, not to mention ample sections of her shoulders. The little scratches on her backside looked like newly wielded scars, perhaps only a few days old.
Weeks before, the older co-worker, perhaps through motherly instinct, and also partly due to her curiosity, had pried some information out of her timid, awkward co-worker. What did her "guy" do for a living? Abby inquisitively asked Sally.
"He doesn't work. He doesn't need to."
"Well, where does he live then?"
"He lives downtown."
"Where did you meet him?"
"He saw me on the street."
"Well, I'd like to meet him. Call him up and invite him for a cup of coffee with us after work", Abby suggested in a friendly gesture.
"He doesn't have a phone."
With Sally's brief, evasive responses, Abby ended up more puzzled than ever about the new "guy" in the young girl's life. Abby was clearly not satisfied with the young co-worker's answers to her prying questions.
Fast forward to a few months later and a few blocks over. In the same neighborhood as the building where the two women worked, sat Sally, slightly slouched in Dr. Allen's comfortable office armchair. She sat quietly in the chair that seemed big enough to swallow her up. Sally did not know for sure what Abby wanted out of all this; perhaps the older woman was simply trying to exercise her maternal instincts over a younger colleague.
In his office, Dr. Allen quietly observed that Sally wore no makeup, and had her long black hair tied up in a modest ponytail cinched at the nape of her neck. She wore glasses (just as well, Sally thought to herself, since she wasn't used to looking people in the eye anyway). The loose-fitting, gray blouse she wore hardly hinted any coordination with her long black skirt and dark gray nylons. This ensemble hid any semblance of femininity her legs might have otherwise shown. It was no surprise that Sally was quite accustomed to no attention from others, especially from men.
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That was why she was startled, almost scared, when Damian suddenly approached her one day on her regular morning trek to work.
The night before, after yet another lonely, restless evening alone in her small bedroom, desperate for attention from any man who would look at her, Sally decided to kneel down beside her bed and ask for the Lord's help. She clasped her hands together, rested her elbows on the edge of the bed, and intently closed her eyes. She decided to say her prayer out loud, careful to keep her voice down so as to not disturb the other people living in the boarding house.
"Dear Lord, it's me. I'm praying to you because I don't know what to do anymore. I'm 23, and still a virgin. I've tried to do everything the right way-being a good girl and following the rules. I've tried to wait until the 3rd date before having sex with a boy, but I've never made it that far, Lord. I've tried to act ladylike and decent, not ask a boy out, but to let him ask me out. But I'm clueless talking to boys, Lord. I wasn't born clever that way. I know I'm not pretty, which I've accepted a long time ago. But Lord, I promise that if you send me someone, I will do what you want me to, and I will accept my destiny. Please Lord, send me a sign; send me the man I'm meant to be with. Thank you. Amen."
The next morning, after she got off the downtown city bus to walk the usual ten blocks to her workplace, Damian suddenly appeared out of a dirty alley. He stood calmly in front of her. Extending his hand out, he looked deep into her eyes. His were an intense green, but his gaze aimed directly at her was even more intense. Damian's hands were dirty, as was his face. Not used to looking people in the eye, least of which on a busy street, Sally found herself mesmerized by Damian's stare. Even though she wasn't standing that close to him, she could smell alcohol and cigarettes on his breath. He was dressed in rags, old and faded from years of roaming the streets and sleeping in cold alleys. Not surprisingly, he also reeked of urine. Out of fear and by sheer instinct, Sally took a step back and then swiftly continued her walk down the busy downtown street, towards the building where she worked.
That entire work day, however, the vision of the tall, thin stranger and his striking green eyes haunted her. Sally could scarcely concentrate on the huge stacks of papers piled up on top of her desk. Every time she told herself to snap out of her reverie, the fantasy-like image of the strange man who leaped out of a cold, dingy alley would drift back to seize her thoughts. She would try to go back to tend to her files, and then suddenly she would fall back into the same daydream she had collapsed into minutes earlier.
Several times that work day, almost predictably, Abby came by and asked Sally if she was okay; the young girl had seemed more "out of it" than normal, if that was even possible. Instead of her usual absent, empty look, Sally's facial expression today was drastically different, betrayed by sensual thoughts which had invaded her whole being, obviously thoughts of utmost intensity. Her eyes were glazed with fantasy.
In the weeks that followed, Abby noticed her young co-worker suddenly smiling to herself when she thought no one was looking. Abby definitely took notice of Sally's new state of mind, until this one particular sweltering summer day, she was shocked to see several scratches on the small of Sally's back and shoulders. Out of sheer concern for her quiet, unassuming colleague, Abby decided to find out where the welts had originated. With determined purpose, she walked over to the corner of the big office space the company staff shared, where Sally was busy sorting through the various files and binders on her desk.
"Sally honey, I need to talk to you."
"I've got a lot of filing to do", said the meek girl, barely meeting her eyes.
