The next few weeks were hard on both of them. All she wanted was to be close to him and yet he kept his distance not trusting in himself. Every night she would go to the circle and kneel there waiting for him to return. When he didn't show up she would go to the bedroom and cuff herself to the bed and cry herself to sleep. Once he came and stood in the door of the bathroom as she was drying herself off and she stood there naked before him looking at him standing behind her in the mirror. She let her towel fall to the floor letting him see all of her hoping he would see how much she wanted to give herself to him, but her turned and left. She fell to the floor completely shattered not knowing what to do.
Something had changed since that day in the conference room but she didn't know what to do or how to fix it. She felt lost without him. Her only joy in the day was the morning when she went to his office and listened to his voice and he laid out plans. As soon as he was done he dismissed her immediately and didn't say anything more. After an hour or so he would leave and she would not see him again till the following day. She wondered how much longer she could stand being so alone.
She focused on her work and began gaining a deeper understanding of Dominance Corporation. She learned that RJ was investing heavily in some real-estate ventures along the west coast. From what she could piece together, the properties were to be developed into private BDSM clubs, which catered to high paying clientele from overseas. She began to see why that investor meeting was so important and chided herself for letting her own desires get in the way of something so important. She also began to look over the financial standing of the Corporation and could see that close to 60% was tied up into developing these clubs. She could only imagine some of the pressure and stress RJ was facing knowing how much was riding on this deal. It humbled her and helped her to get a bigger perspective of things and she wanted to be there to support RJ the best she could. The rest of her day she spent either reading or in the gym room working out. One morning when she awoke she found a book dealing with submission and the D/s life on the nightstand next to the bed. She was excited knowing that he had left it for her and gave her hope that in his own way he was trying to communicate to her. That gave her some assurance she was still in his thoughts and that helped to keep her resolve in the loneliness she faced daily.
That night she undressed and went to the circle as she had for the last few weeks hoping RJ would come back. This time she brought along the book he gave her and laid it out in front of her as she knelt down to wait. She had found the book so helpful in understanding all that was happening to her. She had made it to a chapter entitled "Safewords" and began to read. Soon she began to understand what they were about and she saw that it might be part of the solution for them. After a few hours she became sleepy and closed her eyes and fell asleep.
The last few weeks had been very rough for RJ. The real-estate deal he was working on was on shaky ground and the investors didn't come through liked he had hoped they would. He knew there would be serious trouble if something didn't turn in his favor soon. Yet amidst all this, something more important occupied his thoughts. He couldn't stop thinking about her and everyday for the last week he had rode up the elevator and stood outside the office doors with his hand upon the handle like he was now. Each time he hesitated. He wanted to go in and see her and be with her. But he didn't know what to say. He chided himself how he could run an entire corporation, yet when it came to her, his world just seem to stop and he couldn't think straight. He paced the hallway outside cursing himself for being such a coward. He remembered reading how the submissive was the one who held the power in a relationship, but he always shrugged it off not believing it, that is until that day after the conference room, she looked up at him with uncertainty in her eyes and he felt something inside him snap. Here he was giving her speeches about being dependable and responsible and he had done neither in how he treated her. At least she was willing to accept responsibility and had the courage to ask to try again. The thought seem to hit him like a bolt of lightening as he stood there. She had shown him the way but his ego and pride had blinded him from seeing it till now. He knew what he wanted to do and walked to the office doors and opened it.
He took a few steps into the room and then stopped. There she was kneeling naked in her place asleep with her head upon the book he had left for her. He stood there just looking at her not believing his eyes. He swallowed hard as he felt a deeper sense of strength well up inside of him. It was that moment he decided that he wanted to be with her forever and share his life with her.
Just then she stirred and looked forward and saw him standing there. For a moment she thought she was dreaming but then realized she was awake. She lifted her eyes and met his and they sat there looking at one another for the longest time till finally she spoke.
"Master, please don't go. I need you."
