My stomach twisted and turned and twisted back again. Feet cold and hands numb. The world caved in around me, at least my tiny portion of it, and not even Master's instructions relieved the weight on my shoulders.
This was a rare thing. His attempts were always successful. Until now.
I fell to my knees before him. The bristly carpet dug in to my bare skin as I begged his forgiveness for not obeying when he hit zero, and told me to come like a little whore for him.
"I'm sorry, Master," I pleaded under a rush of sudden tears. "I don't know why this isn't working. I want it to. Desperately. But it's just not." I took a deep breath. "I think I'm just too stuffed with worry to respond."
"That's no good," he said in a lighter tone than I'd anticipated.
Master left the room for a moment and returned with something in hand. I couldn't see what it was as he walked over to his couch. The leather squeaked as he sat, reminding me of my favorite beating implement. I squirmed the slightest bit, but it was enough.
My naked body also reacted to the thought of a beating and my temperature suddenly shifted. Completely on impulse. I loved being naked and on the ground before Master, but this day was just so different. My body responding in ways I didn't understand.
He sat quiet for a moment, as if contemplating something.
I looked around the room. Focusing on the red walls, the full bookshelves lining the living room, smelling freshly cut strawberries on the side table, hearing his neighbor buzzing away with some sort of powered yard tool, and my mind raced with these things. I jumped when he finally spoke and broke my concentration.
"Come here, girl," Master said with a hint of suggestion, and my stomach turned once again.
"Yes, Master."
I crawled to Master and kneeled before him again. Allowing myself to feel each tiny bristle scrape my knees as I moved.
"Why are you closed off?"
My lower lip trembled, and I tried to stop it with my teeth.
"Speak, slut. Now."
"I'm scared, Master. So frightened that I can hardly feel anything."
"Scared of what?"
Again with the tremble, but this time, a few tears fell. I looked down to my shaking fingers and rapidly moving chest, but I couldn't feel my breath. Fear had gripped me with its icy tendrils and I had no idea what to do.
"Everything right now, Master. There's too much going on. Too much to handle," I confessed under shallow breaths.
Master leaned into the back of the couch and pulled the item from his pocket. It was a fat, wooden paddle. I began dropping in that moment, feeling the rush of heat to my cunt and the tingles too.
"You will feel this, dirty girl. Bend over my knee. Now."
I stared into his light eyes. The flash of blue that had grown to be such a comfort caught my breath. It was a blue I'd always associate with Master. Submission. Safety. Even if it was the current color of the sky, or that of precious stone, it would always be Master's blue. The color of pain and pleasure.
Everything felt like fire as I inched closer to him, my cunt burning hot and moist already at the thought of being humiliated by him.
Just before I stood to bend over his knee, Master grabbed me by the hair. Hard. Holding me still as he looked deep into me.
"You will call me Daddy."
"Yes, mmm," I began, but quickly corrected myself. "Daddy."
"Good girl," he said in a deeper tone.
He pulled me toward his right side and I naturally slid over his lap. My bare breasts hit the cool leather, my knees on the other side of the couch, and I felt like my ass was so high it must have been in Daddy's face. A fact that made me even wetter as I thought of how humiliating it was.
"When you feel Daddy's paddle on your ass, you will start with one hundred and count down, saying one hundred, Daddy, ninety-nine, Daddy."
"Yes, Daddy," I mumbled. Already in a deep place of submission, ready to let go and let Daddy put me in my place.
I closed my eyes and rested my cheek against the leather. The cool felt good on my warm face. I calmed my breathing before the first whack.
I came up off Daddy for a second, gasping as the paddle hit harder than I thought at such a close range.
"One hundred, Daddy!"
He hit me again. And I jumped again.