Day 2: Sunday
"Carrie!"
Oh the pounding in my head. Please shut up!
"Carrie! Get down here now!"
My mom's voice, oh my head. I definitely drank too much last night. What happened? Where?
I gasped aloud and sprung upright. I was still naked, as I had been left last night. I had just been dreaming about the tenderest kiss from a ... boy? No, that wasn't right. It started to sink in. The events began to replay and I looked around my room and noticed immediately that my hamper was missing. No, it was not a dream. I sighed and internally screamed at myself for being so... whatever I was to get into this waking nightmare.
My head pounded. I felt like I wanted to cry or throw up or something. I masturbated in front of them! Oh God.
"Carrie! If you don't get your ass out of bed I am going to come up there and drag you out." Mom was getting impatient.
"Coming!" I yelled, and instantly regretted it as the pain of my hangover rocked through my head.
I instinctively went to my underwear drawer and opened it to find what shouldn't have surprised me. It was empty. No point even checking the bras. I went to my closet and picked out the longest skirt I could find. I can't believe this. It is mid thigh. My mom is going to freak. I grabbed a shirt that hadn't been altered and tugged it over my shoulders.
I looked in the mirror. Did I look hung over? Would my mom know? She drank all the time, so she probably would. Damn. My nipples poke through this tee shirt, how can she not notice I'm not wearing a bra?
I shrugged, what else was there to do? I went to the bathroom, splashed my face with water and brushed my teeth, hoping to scour away any scent of the wine coolers. I looked about as bad as I felt. The heavy makeup from last night was still on my face. I grabbed a wash cloth and turned the water warm and spent about a full five minutes returning my face to an unpainted, albeit redder from scrubbing version of myself.
I sat down to pee and there she was at the bathroom door.
"God mom, I said I was coming!" I screamed at her.
"Would you care to explain what happened here last night?" My mom barked at me.
Damn, I'm busted. What does she know? What did she find? "What are you talking about mom?" My head is thudding. Every shriek of her voice is like a hammer cracking at my skull. I can't even talk normally without causing myself pain and the yelling at her is just agony.
"This!" She shrieked and held out a bottle lid.
I tried to see what she was holding up, but I was at a loss. "A bottle cap?" I looked and sounded as puzzled as I truly was.
"The cap to a wine cooler bottle Miss Innocent" She screamed. Oh please stop the screaming.
"I have no idea ... maybe YOU brought it home from the bar last night!" I yelled back at her.
"You better watch your mouth Carrie, or so help me I will send you to your father."
Okay, perhaps it is time for a Carrie history lesson to understand this dynamic of my story. My folks split up when I was about twelve. My dad, well, he got caught hammering away at my neighbor across the street. I guess it had gone on awhile before he got caught, because the two of them bought a house so he could move out and away. So now he has two mortgages, I guess. I see him, but he isn't really into the whole, I have a teenage kid thing, so he doesn't really spend any time with me. This is fine by me. I mean, he fucked around on my mom, he's pretty much an asshole right?
Anyway, his new girlfriend or whatever you want to call her is only like 28 or something and no way in hell she is going to be my mom. Sure, she is nice to me when she sees me. I go over for dinner now and then to hear my dad act like he still loves me... hah, whatever. But the reality is she isn't that much older than me. A little tart, my mom calls her. So, I don't want to live there.
"Where did you find it?" I asked, trying to regain some calm to my voice.
"In the parking lot in front of our house." My mom retorted as if she had me now.
"Oh my God mom! That could have been anyone! Are you seriously going to come in here and accuse me of drinking based on a freaking bottle cap in the parking lot?"
Her face kind of slackened. I rolled my eyes. Here it comes. I wiped and pulled up my skirt, praying she didn't notice the lack of underwear. It was like this about every Sunday. Mom goes out Saturday night, gets ripped and then feels all bad the next day about how much her life sucks and how bad of a mom she is and I have to console her somehow. God it's like a routine.
"Mom. Please don't." I beg. I don't have the energy for this right now. I need an aspirin!
"I'm sorry Carrie. I just don't want you to end up like me."
Yeah, as if that will ever happen. If my husband cheats, he can kiss his ass goodbye.
"Mom, I'm fine. Really." I hug her. I have to. It's part of the routine.
I notice her watch as I am hugging her. Its 9:45, wow did I oversleep. Then it dawns on me like a brick hitting me over my pounding head... They are coming!
I grab her shoulders and pull her back to look in my face. "Mom. Listen. You do great with me, I'm fine. I am supposed to meet Julie in like 15 minutes. I have to take a shower and go, I way overslept. Please Mom, don't do this."
Not now of all times. For all I know Darla will come and knock at the door. My mom would freak.
"Okay dear. You're right, you are a good girl. I'm sorry." She pulls away. I feel bad, I know she is going to cry for awhile, but better that than have a heart attack.
I had to shower, quickly. I start the water and strip off what little I am wearing and jump in. The water feels so good. My head is still throbbing, but the water is almost rehydrating me. I start to soap up, and when I get... down there... oh how I want to linger there and relive that kiss, but no, I have GOT to get out. I rinse, dry, and dress.