It had been weeks since Daddy had pay attention to me. The one hot night we had was a distant memory. The in and outs of everyday life had moved in and everyone was home for the summer. Purposely I would try to get into any trouble I could. I would run out of gas on the freeway, not fold his laundry right. Anything I could to make him pay attention to me. I started despising my mother. She has to sleep with him every night; he would take her out places. She never did things the right way. I would see her make his bed in the morning; the corners were not proper, not nearly the way he taught me. He would never let me slide that way. I would purposely cuss during dinner; sit on the furniture when I know it is not proper. He says nothing. Walks right on by me in the hallway and never says a word. He does not even check to see if I am playing with my pussy anymore. He used to come in at night and use me. Now I only hear him and mom having sex. I listen closely to see if he is beating her, using her to satisfy that desire inside of him. I only hear their five-minute sex session, and nothing more. I long for him to beat me again. To fuck use and me like his whore.
I decide to go out on a date with a person I met at the beach early in the spring. I had been holding off seeing anyone, as Daddy hated to see me with someone else. He had become funny about my dating, so I did not do it much. I met Todd at Springtown beach in May, we hit it off and he wanted to see me again. I refrained from doing so, for several different reasons. I had not had sex with anyone since Daddy took my virginity and knew that the only reason Todd was interested in me was for sex. Even though I was bothered, I knew daddy would not approve. I searched through my diary and found Todd's number. I hesitated several times before finishing the number and hearing it ring.
"Hello?"
"Todd?" I say as my voice cracks.
"Yeah, this is. Who is this?" He says in the phone, almost as if I have pissed him off by calling.
"This is holly, the girl from the beach."
"I meet a lot of girls at the beach, try giving me some more." He laughs
"I was the girl walking her dog." I say pissed that he does not even remember me
"Ah yes, holly I remember you. How are you?"
"Good thanks, listen, I will just cut to the chase. My mom is away on business and I am alone. Want to come over?" I close my eyes and lay back on the bed.
"Yeah, 1345 East street right?" His voice suddenly more cheerful
"Yep, see you soon." I hang the phone up abruptly and jump into the shower. Knowing that I will not be alone, that daddy will be fishing with a friend. He will be in and out all day. As I shower, I hope he comes home while Todd is here. Fucking him hard, giving my pussy to him. Perhaps then, he will pay attention to me.